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answering asks about my home reality

sent by @withluvvenus! ⚹ is there a certain place you love to visit during the summer holidays? or a dream destination? with company, or alone?

⊹ fun fact! jason's family is extremely loaded. they have two yachts. two. for absolutely no reason. anyways they also have a giant lake house. like six bedrooms && three family rooms. i don't know why it's so big. but there's usually four to six of us who go out there a few times during the summer. we always get very very messed up && wake up with pounding headaches only for us to do it all over again.

sent by @/withluvvenus! ⚹ is there a song ( or a few ) that specifically remind you of summer, which you’d love to blast with the windows rolled down?

⊹ forrest gump , frank ocean

⊹ west savannah , isaiah rashad && sza

⊹ the mourning after , mac miller

⊹ love. , kid cudi

sent by @rrezshifts! ⚹ when in an overwhelming situation, whose word of advice or comfort always comes back to you? what reminds you of home?

⊹ and if i took the easy way out . . . if i said it was jason . . . what then? well it would be the truth. he has been my home for quite a long time. he may get on nerves with his need to constantly be in my personal space buuuuuut he's still my boy unfortunately. i swear he has somehow tricked me into associating his cologne with home ( definitely couldn't me my own mind or anything ). i get very sleepy every time he holds me && he eases every anxious thought from my mind. he's cool or wtv 🙄

sent by @/rrezshifts! ⚹ do the people you’re usually surrounded by feel the same way you do about summer? why or why not?

⊹ i haaaate the heat. hate it so so so much. i hate the humidity. summer might be my least favorite season honestly. almost all of my friends love it thought. i just cannot get behind it. i need my box fan && something cold to drink.

sent by @miiholic! ⚹ what’s your favourite summer activity that makes you feel alive? is it a tradition? is it solitary or not? if not, who’s involved?

⊹ i adore the county fairs! the fried oreos. the cheese on a stick. the rides. the derby. the animals. it's perfect. except the heat. that's always the worst part. so going later on in the day is the best idea. i go with my friends && my family. the whole ordeal makes me extremely sleepy at the end of the night which always helps me sleep ( someone might have a great difficult sleeping or wtv ).

sticky note ( 4 venus ) my niche influencer reality has dissolved into my home reality <3

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　you're currently listening to @rrezshifts 's nights like this playlist !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted this playlist to capture the literal creative genius icon u are on all platforms that i've interacted w u ( tiktok , tumblr , pinterest ) && the fact u are just so cool in ur drs x most of these songs are based off of the vibes of the song !! also i wanted to add bella kay songs cuz i think u like her ??? idk i mightve seen reposts on my fyp ??? im not sure . . . but i couldn't find one that fit since i listened to like two songs by her . . . ( listening to promise? rn so maybe 3 songs )

　　♫　never lose me / flo milli 　　♫　say im ur luv / umi 　　♫　cool for the summer / demi lovato 　　♫　sue me / aubrey hobert 　　♫　mona lisa / dominic fike 　　♫　neverletyougo / role model 　　♫　infrunami / steve lacy 　　♫　supercut / lorde 　　♫　aquamarine / addison rae 　　♫　midnight sun / zara larsson

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the commander's capital, the north

upon first arrival to the commander's capital many feel drawn to its dark gothic architecture && towers that seem to reach for the gods above. it is cold in the capital year round with rain more sparse than snowfall. these harsh conditions have caused evolution within its inhabitants: they have dark hair to attract the warmth of the sun; they are tall, broad, and full to sustain harsh weathers; they carry a multitude of skin tones, facial features, and bloodlines to ensure a diverse lineage && the survival of the next generations.

there are many rumors surrounding those choosing to live in the capital. southernmen claim they are barbaric && unintelligent. that those born in the capital would rather chew on their brother's arm than go fish for themselves. northernmen know these claims have no ground or true footing. the people in the capital are weary and standoffish, yes, but that began hundreds of years ago when the riverlands tried to invade their home. they merely follow in their commander's footsteps && do not trust a man is who he says he is.

SHARED FORMULA ONE REALITY

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🛼˚ SKATES ON GRAVEL ˎˊ˗ what's your favourite summer activity that makes you feel alive? is it a tradition? is it solitary or not? if not, who's involved?

ⓘ SWIMMING AND TRAVELING, one answer is specific the other broad, but they’re both very important summer activities to me. The goal is that every place I travel to has some place for me to swim; beaches, pools, lakes, creeks, or rivers. If it’s safe to swim in, I’m in it. But also I just enjoy experiencing different cultures and countries. As much as I like staying home with family and loved ones during THE SUMMER BREAKS we get in Formula One, staying in one place too long when I have the opportunity to travel—especially when I get sent a pretty place on earth by Layla on tiktok—I just itch to leave and start getting restless where I am.

Traveling has always been APART OF MY FAMILY’S LIFE so not visiting other countries and exploring outside of my own is something I can’t accept. If I have to do it by myself, I will. But I enjoy traveling more with loved ones, whether that’s friends or family. I’ve dragged Layla with me on occasion, especially when I wanted to sneak a trip in between race weeks. I’ve attempted to drag Jason with me. And I’m currently too scared to ask Tommy if he’d like to start joining me again, because we have traveled in the past.

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🛳️˚ CRUISIN’ ON ˎˊ˗ is there a certain place you love to visit during the summer holidays? or a dream destination? with company, or alone?

ⓘ THE SOUTH OF FRANCE!! Always always always the south of France. When we get our month long summer break during the Formula One season, I love to visit my family in Marseille, and the other towns my more extended family are scattered in. I enjoy inviting my friends to come visit, so they can see just how beautiful this place is, big cities, small communes, tourist destinations, all of it. I once tested the waters and tried INVITING TOMMY TO VISIT because I thought he’d say no, and then he said, “I’d love to,” and shocked me by trying to get all the details sorted as soon as possible.

I think if there were other places I wanted to go, it’d probably be ITALY AND PERU. Peru could be considered random but there’s a lot there that is so beautiful and rich in culture and just interesting. And Italy is the home of two of my closer friends in Formula One. Jason being born there, and Layla having family there, so I’m waiting for them to invite me to visit. I’ll #MANIFEST it don’t worry.

˚˖𓍢ִ໋📻˚ BOOMBOX ˎˊ˗ is there a song (or a few) that specifically remind you of summer, which you'd love to blast with the windows rolled down? how does it make you feel?

ⓘ TRUMPETS BY JASON DERULO is my summer anthem in all realities I fear. There’s nothing inherently summer about it. But when I think about what summer used to feel like when I was younger; free, weightless, on top of the world, and on cloud nine… I feel that when I listen to this song. It’s not the lyrics. It’s the music, the tune, the instrumentals, and the way Jason Derulo sings this goddamn song. His voice is another instrument to me that, when put together with every other aspect of this song, I feel that optimism I had as a young kid. It feels like happiness when I listen to it. It’s so strange how much I genuinely feel complete and utter joy when listening to it. And when I do listen to it, I NEED to hear it either loud in my headphones, or loud in my cars speakers to where everyone is else can hear the music too.

I ANNOY THE EVER LOVING HELL out of Layla and Jason with this song, though. I’ll add it like 5+ times in the spotify queue when I go out with each of them once summer hits. That song is scattered around the other songs and it gets on their nerves. TOMMY doesn’t mind it as much because he lowkey loves the song too and gets why I love it so much. He gets me… 😔😔🫰 But also he just has the similar habit of listening to a song over and over again, and he likes almost any song, so it doesn’t bother him much.

also, don't worry we'll go to italy soon && you'll have to listen to my grandma go on and on about literally everything. i guess it's okay though because we look exactly the same and she's just what i'll be in thirty years <3

house of the dragon reality

thalia wrath has been named prideful and often too headstrong. she is a complex woman, as most mothers are. her pride and joy is her youngest and only son, theo wrath. he even carries her namesake. despite the women being seen as the more important sex in house wrath, theo is the only one to be cradled by thalia long after it was necessary.

her eldest daughter, layla wrath, would emerge from the womb as retribution for every fault thalia's every had. the two had been polar opposite since layla began to talk; every word was in opposition to thalia. it is no surprise the young girl chose to ward for thalia's older sister, enya i wrath.

enya the bearclaw was childless && the great commander of the north; she is everything layla wanted to be.

SHARED FORMULA ONE REALITY

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🛼˚ SKATES ON GRAVEL ˎˊ˗ what's your favourite summer activity that makes you feel alive? is it a tradition? is it solitary or not? if not, who's involved?

ⓘ SWIMMING AND TRAVELING, one answer is specific the other broad, but they’re both very important summer activities to me. The goal is that every place I travel to has some place for me to swim; beaches, pools, lakes, creeks, or rivers. If it’s safe to swim in, I’m in it. But also I just enjoy experiencing different cultures and countries. As much as I like staying home with family and loved ones during THE SUMMER BREAKS we get in Formula One, staying in one place too long when I have the opportunity to travel—especially when I get sent a pretty place on earth by Layla on tiktok—I just itch to leave and start getting restless where I am.

Traveling has always been APART OF MY FAMILY’S LIFE so not visiting other countries and exploring outside of my own is something I can’t accept. If I have to do it by myself, I will. But I enjoy traveling more with loved ones, whether that’s friends or family. I’ve dragged Layla with me on occasion, especially when I wanted to sneak a trip in between race weeks. I’ve attempted to drag Jason with me. And I’m currently too scared to ask Tommy if he’d like to start joining me again, because we have traveled in the past.

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🛳️˚ CRUISIN’ ON ˎˊ˗ is there a certain place you love to visit during the summer holidays? or a dream destination? with company, or alone?

ⓘ THE SOUTH OF FRANCE!! Always always always the south of France. When we get our month long summer break during the Formula One season, I love to visit my family in Marseille, and the other towns my more extended family are scattered in. I enjoy inviting my friends to come visit, so they can see just how beautiful this place is, big cities, small communes, tourist destinations, all of it. I once tested the waters and tried INVITING TOMMY TO VISIT because I thought he’d say no, and then he said, “I’d love to,” and shocked me by trying to get all the details sorted as soon as possible.

I think if there were other places I wanted to go, it’d probably be ITALY AND PERU. Peru could be considered random but there’s a lot there that is so beautiful and rich in culture and just interesting. And Italy is the home of two of my closer friends in Formula One. Jason being born there, and Layla having family there, so I’m waiting for them to invite me to visit. I’ll #MANIFEST it don’t worry.

˚˖𓍢ִ໋📻˚ BOOMBOX ˎˊ˗ is there a song (or a few) that specifically remind you of summer, which you'd love to blast with the windows rolled down? how does it make you feel?

ⓘ TRUMPETS BY JASON DERULO is my summer anthem in all realities I fear. There’s nothing inherently summer about it. But when I think about what summer used to feel like when I was younger; free, weightless, on top of the world, and on cloud nine… I feel that when I listen to this song. It’s not the lyrics. It’s the music, the tune, the instrumentals, and the way Jason Derulo sings this goddamn song. His voice is another instrument to me that, when put together with every other aspect of this song, I feel that optimism I had as a young kid. It feels like happiness when I listen to it. It’s so strange how much I genuinely feel complete and utter joy when listening to it. And when I do listen to it, I NEED to hear it either loud in my headphones, or loud in my cars speakers to where everyone is else can hear the music too.

I ANNOY THE EVER LOVING HELL out of Layla and Jason with this song, though. I’ll add it like 5+ times in the spotify queue when I go out with each of them once summer hits. That song is scattered around the other songs and it gets on their nerves. TOMMY doesn’t mind it as much because he lowkey loves the song too and gets why I love it so much. He gets me… 😔😔🫰 But also he just has the similar habit of listening to a song over and over again, and he likes almost any song, so it doesn’t bother him much.

also, don't worry we'll go to italy soon && you'll have to listen to my grandma go on and on about literally everything. i guess it's okay though because we look exactly the same and she's just what i'll be in thirty years <3

WARNING: I wrote too much… 😔😔

THE ONLY ONE in me and Tommy’s families who didn’t notice how me and Tommy felt about each other was my damn brother. Which is insane because he’s always in my damn business being overprotective over the shit I do and the people I’m seeing.

The good news is that Seb ( my bruhva ) doesn’t really care. WHEN HE FINDS OUT about Tommy’s feelings for me after I ghost Tommy for a couple days and he interrogates the poor man about his piss poor attitude. He’s more upset that Tommy didn’t tell him during the two years he’s been in love with me more than anything. His acceptance has the kind of logic of, “Well if I can trust anyone with my sister it’s the man who’s been overprotective of her by my side all her life.” So there’s no betrayal from Seb’s side of things, he just doesn’t want to be involved in the drama that may or may not go down between us.

MY PARENTS saw this coming a mile away. Probably around middle school I feel is when they started sussing out that something was different in our relationship. Not that it was inherently romantic. But there was a deep care and almost adoration from both of us, that if we continued on the path we were on, our relationship wasn’t really going to go anywhere but towards romantic feelings. TOMMY’S PARENTS caught on a little later, but only because my parents brought it up to them to which they were like, “Ehhh I don’t know.” Only for my parents to be like, “Pay close attention tonight, you’ll see what we mean.” And then bam, they were in agreeance. And it DIDN’T TAKE EITHER OF THEM long to spot when both Tommy and I officially caught feelings for each other.

Our parents DIDN’T REALLY HAVE PROBLEMS with us liking each other or even getting together. But they weren’t like Conrad Fisher’s mom level of excited either, planning weddings and shit. They were just like, “This is like any other committed relationship for our children.” Was it a bit for meaningful considering our family’s friendship, yeah! And did our moms like the idea of me and Tommy making our families one big one when things got serious, of fucking course. Our mom’s were already fucking sisters in their eyes… in the non-weirdest way for me and Tommy lmaooo 😭😭😭 No but the only thing was, THEY WERE SOMEWHAT WORRIED about any possible aftermath for us and them in case of a breakup or something. But they also believed we had such a strong foundation of 18+ years of friendship they didn’t think it would be a problem.

BILLY ( TOMMY’S TWIN BROTHER ) didn’t need to be told that Tommy felt a certain way about me. When he noticed how Tommy was behaving around me or about me, he figured out Tommy’s crush. At first he lowkey thought it was a little weird. But by the next day he didn’t really see it that way anymore. He realized that there really wasn’t a difference in the way Tommy loved me pre and post crush after seeing Tommy interact with me that next day. Billy got a rush of nostalgia seeing that interaction and was just like, “Oh, no, he’s just always been like this with her and everyone here’s idiots.”

And he GENUINELY UNDERSTANDS how Tommy got to where he was with his feelings for me. Billy is 100% gay, but he also grew up around me for 18+ years, he knows me almost just as well as Tommy. And he knows I’m a fucking amazing, genuine kind, beautiful—inside and out—person. Billy is no where near attracted to me is what I’m trying to say. But he knows I’m the type of girl he planned on making a speech for at my wedding to let whoever know how lucky they are and threaten them to treat me right. But with Tommy he doesn’t have to do all that shit. Because Tommy already knows he’d be lucky to have me, and he’d punish his own self if he didn’t treat me right before anyone else could get the chance. And Billy knew that. So ultimately he accepted the fact of his brother’s feelings and moved on keeping his mouth shut. As for MY FEELINGS, Billy just thought I looked up to Tommy for the longest time. Until he observed clear changes in how my eyes sparkled around Tommy. And he also noticed how much my overall mood shifted when Tommy got a girlfriend. After I ran out of the Shepherd penthouse when Tommy brought his girlfriend around when I was there he knew. He felt bad for me because he noticed my feelings before Tommy’s and thought it would end up being unreciprocated. He was glad he was wrong, and wanted to play matchmaker so goddamn bad. But he also knew me and that I would actually probably murder him if he got involved.

gotham socialite reality

when ms. whole-life-has-been-in-the-newspaper && mr. never-stays-in-one-place-too-long get ' together ' ( or wtv 🙄 ) literally nothing can go right or be communicated properly. especially when everyone is jealous of her and wants his mysterious ass.

during the second month of whatever the hell the two got themselves into, a rumor started: ‘ did you hear layla got with ethan last weekend? ‘ ‘ yeah, it was at jayden’s party. ‘ ‘ wait i heard she got with myles, not ethan. ‘

not only had she not gotten with ethan or myles, but she had also spent her entire weekend at jason’s apartment. this fact did not keep jason from being completely upset by the accusation and not texting her for a whole five days. only being forced to confront his feelings after she cornered him at some party . . .

“what’s wrong with you?” she didn’t bother beating around the bush. she had been surrounded by men who avoided telling the truth && always hid behind it. she would not keep this boy around if he chose to do the same.

jason stared at her for a almost a minute before responding, “‘m not gonna be dealin’ with a girl who’s got other dudes hangin’ ‘round.” he took a sip from his cup like he was some nonchalant guy. as if he hadn’t been whining a few nights ago about not being able to sleep if she wasn’t laying next to him.

she could not believe what she was hearing — well, not literally. she knew every guy had the capacity to be so dense. she just hoped this one might wait a little longer before acting on it.

“oh, you call what we’ve got ‘ dealing with me ‘ ?” layla was three seconds from leaving the dark hallway && never speaking to him again, despite his cologne seeming to circle her senses like a cartoon pie.

“what? you wanna call it babysitting or somethin’?”

jason todd was a dead man.

hihihiii theo!!! it has been a very long time and i’m doing well, i hope you are doing well too !! also sorry for the late reply to this ask 😓

sunken anchor : when the currents are too strong & you find yourself slipping, who /what keeps you tethered? what’s something they say or do to take care of you?

in my formula one reality i go to my mother whenever i find myself stressed out about things. i may be an adult woman there but i feel im never too old to go to my mama for comfort. i know she will give me amazing advice and will listen to whatever issue i have. i also know that my mother would never attempt to make the problem worse!

cruisin’ on : is there a certain place you live to visit during the summer holidays? or a dream destination? with company or alone?

i think monaco would be a nice place to visit during the summer. especially because it rarely gets over eighty—five (american) degrees there. as for company i believe it would be nice to have company a couple days after a solo trip. having a couple days there by myself allows to me stroll around and drag my feet around the city you know? hanging out with others is fun though, i love the idea of going out with close friends and maybe my boyfriend to try out new restaurants.

thriving blooms : is there something you can do during the summer that you can’t do during the other seasons (whether it be due to the weather, the time of year, or something else)?

streamers girl reality

this edit includes clips from a few different videos && streams jason involved me in. it doesn't happen often, but when it happens they get clipped on tiktok every single time. the main one included is when jason asked me to get him a few outfits ( w his card ofc ) so he could start a new wardrobe after moving into the new house. the whole video was me laughing at jason when he was putting the clothes on. he was being so dorky the entire time. acting embarrassed as if he isn't a grown ass man.

a long-winded conversation

shifting based questions

sent by anon! what's your favorite reality?

⊹ i truly believe my answer to this question will forever be my home reality , simply because it is quite literally home. that reality is a direct parallel to this one. there is only a few slight changes of course.

sent by @withluvmia! how do you develop your character / faceclaim / oc? what are some of the aspects you focus on? or some questions you ask?

⊹ okay, firstly i apologize for this being a rambling mess. my process of developing characters and whatnot is not linear, as you will soon be able to tell. it is more of a giant web than a pathway.

i am a person who is very focused on world-building ( hence the grand fantasy realities ) so when first developing a new concept i always think about how i would fit into the world. i go on the fan wikis of whatever media i'm trying to acclimate to && try to find a way to wedge myself in.

i don't really have certain questions i ask myself other than how to make someone fit into their surroundings. using jason as an example, he is sort of altered to whatever world he is being dragged into. he wouldn't use brain rot in my astrophysicist reality set in 1969 && he wouldn't be talking about buying a house in my outer banks reality ( bc we're 19 ). i guess that also shows how age and maturity level can be measured within certain person and can also help in defying who they are.

i am so sorry i don’t know how to explain the mess i end up in every time i start something new :( it usually goes from one topic or aspect that sparks an interest in something else adjacent, then continues and continues until i have tired myself out.

jason focused questions

sent by anon! is jason chronically online? how does he feel about the six - seven joke?

⊹ in my modern realities / influencer realities he is very chronically online about some things but has never heard of other things. i'll use clav as an example in my home reality. he knew that he was looksmaxxing but he didn't know the extent of it ( the m3th ). i had to casually mention clav while we we're in the car to make sure he didn't agree with him. and his exact words were " that dude is so corny ". i then had to tell him the full extent of it and that made him fully roll his eyes.

along the same vein he though the six - seven joke was dumb when it was the young kids saying it. but then it became ironically funny && then full swing back to dumb. the full cycle of dumbass jokes.

sent by anon! do dick, tim, && damian exist in any of your realities?

⊹ jason's brothers exist in almost all of my realities ( excluding my fantasy ones ). usually i script that they are all adopted brothers or all blood brothers. either way they exist to bother bruce relentlessly.

relationship focused questions

sent by anon! do you and jason have kids in any of your realities?

⊹ yes, we do! the only one is my parent reality. i'm not going to share their names because they're my babies, but we have one girl and one boy.

sent by @chthonic--cowboy! how do you meet jason in your gotham vigilante reality?

⊹ this is one of those situations where i don't really remember meeting jason because he has been in my life forever. i've always seen him at selina's hip at galas. he was the first boy i danced with at the ripe age of seven. his chubby cheeks were so adorable when he stumbled over his words and pointed to were the old couples were dancing. he had a streak of non-verbal behavior when we were younger && therefore i acted as his voice. yes, i did yell at my father once when he gave jason purple grapes when he only likes green.

answering asks about my outer banks reality

sent by anon x2 ! 🥖 what does a typical day look like in your reality? is it a simple, peaceful routine or a busy, adventure-filled schedule?

⊹ every day is like being on summer vacation ( bonus 4 parents being super mega rich ) !! during actual summer vacation i go and work a few hours at my grandma’s bookstore. i just like helping her out and listening to her tell her old lady stories. every so often i will go off on some adventure with my friends. we like to hike. we have lunch at the park. we go to those paint and sips. i don’t like keeping an overwhelming schedule. so every few days i will do something adventurous instead of it being every day.

sent by anon! 🥨 what twists and surprises happen in your reality?

⊹ i was not expecting to see billionaire bruce wayne’s second-eldest son in my grandma’s bookstore . . . was also definitely not expecting him to be so down to earth and easy to talk to.

sent by @chthonic--cowboy! 🍽 do you have any unspoken habits that just naturally fell into place?

⊹ before jason and i are together we fall into rhythm with each other. a fact rafe is keenly upset by. i don’t think it’s specific habits we’ve formed but more of us becoming extensions of each other. like a certain harsh swallow from him with make me reach for his water bottle. or i will be talking to him and he will naturally take the sunscreen from me to make sure i don’t burn, all the while i don’t stop my rambling. and he’ll know the word i’m serching for in my mind before i can even ask him if he knows what i am taking about.

sent by @/chthonic--cowboy! 🧵 what’s a domestic task your partner does that makes you feel most cared for? do they bring you your favorite snacks when you're having a bad day? do they take over some more household tasks to give you a break?

⊹ rafe, who i have known since childhood, knows the patterns of me being upset. whether he decides to help or not is really a gamble. sometimes he’ll show up randomly just to sit in my room with me and other times he’ll act like i’ve got two heads.

jason on the other hand loves to place himself between me and whatever troubles me. even if it’s just a bad hair day. he’ll try to do my hair only to give up and say we should just lay on the floor anyway.

sent by @/chthonic--cowboy! 🛒 do you have an unspoken grocery routine — or is it chaos every time?

⊹ the thing about me and grocery stores is i need a list and a mission. if i go in there not knowing where i am or what i want, it is hell. on the drive or walk there i will always ask whoever i am with what they think we need. i need structure in the grocery store 😭

sent by @phiphifetacheese! ♫ who is someone you no longer talk to? what lead to your falling out? do you ever feel yourself itching to reach out to them again?

⊹ i no longer speak to my first love. she lived under my skin for quite some time but now i’m finally reaching a point where i know i would be content if i never saw or heard from her again. she may only live a few miles away but she could be across the world && i would not feel any different.

sent by @/phiphifetacheese! ♫ who's your first call late at night when you should be asleep? what kinds of things do you talk about during this call?

⊹ i mean who else would i call other than my summer situationship?? yes, jason is on speed dial when i cannot sleep. which is most nights. when i am too sleepy to leave my bed but not sleepy enough to yk . . . sleep, i bother him with random stories about my day or things i’ve seen or read. but i mostly just want him to talk to me. his sleepy voice has got to be top ten sounds in the multiverse. especially when he’s yawning halfway through and forgetting what he’s even saying. it’ll slow my heart rate even to where i can actually think about sleeping.

very rarely do i call rafe. he’s always out doing some bullshit that i’d rather not hear about.

sticky note technically rafe isn’t a bad bf because we’re not technically dating soooo

bookstore owner reality ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀

⊹ it was a random wednesday evening when jason finally found my ‘ very sneaky ‘ piece of notebook paper containing all his quirks. i had walked away from the counter to go see if the special edition of the odyssey he had ordered was in or not. coming back to see him clutching that paper made my heart sink to my feet. my stomach churned. i thought i had ruined my entire friendship with him.

but i did not. he didn’t even look up from the scribbled notes. too focused on the small drawing of a cat in a random margin. before i could even begin to create an excuse he was asking me how i even noticed all of this about him. like he assumed everything he told me was immediately wiped from my brain.

i, of course, had to do the manly thing && confess my crush first. tell me why he practically glared at me and left the bookstore?? without even taking his book btw!

luckily a few days later he would come to his senses and come back. he explained how he had a bad habit of avoiding his feelings and that was the reason he left after i confessed. safe to say our relationship carried on carefully and slowly after that. he’s like a big stray cat; if you move too fast he’ll get scared and run off ( he is not alone in this btw 🙌 ).

gotham princess reality ⠀ ⠀

⊹ oh theo, you do not know the can of worms you’ve opened with this question. jason had been my bodyguard for almost three years when he finally confessed to me in italy. i told him he was foolish for falling in love with me; i told him i am my father’s daughter and i will not make him happy. when he tried to tell me i was wrong, i shot him down.

in truth, jason is not the reason i denied him. i grew up with a cynical, emotionally detached father && an overly emotional, suffocating mother. the combination often put me in a position of playing mediator. seeing the ugliest sides of my parents did not allow me to be a normal child. i became cynical and annoyed with emotional people, just like my father. i do not think i would be able to make jason happy with my issues — i have never taken a relationship seriously — so i pushed him away.

only i was not able to push him far enough because my father had made jason sign a three year contract, and he has six months left of it by the time we get back to gotham city.

HIS JOY in my boy next door reality,, or an ( 676 words: ~2:28 min read ) excerpt for @withluvvenus’ emotions shiftblr activity except… dun dun dun! i’m not only posting about my emotions in my realities.

PREAMBLE 𑜷 At this moment in time ( Oct. 20th, 2021 ) me and Tommy have been “practicing kissing”, with an occasional something something more, for nearly a month. We’ve been friends for a little while longer—since July. I’m not yet aware that I’m in love with him. He’s been painfully aware of his feelings for me well before we were even talking to each other. Right now though, we’re just in a fun little dynamic that he enjoys way too much. While subsequently trying to ignore all the dread he feels over our “no feelings” rule that he agreed to despite already harboring intense ones.

I knew he spent his flex periods in here. Why he doesn’t skip school when our flex period ends the school day like the rest of us, I’ll never understand. I mean he’s told me. And his claims that, “School is a better setting for studying,” only make me more sure he would spend the night here if they wouldn’t inevitably kick him out before 5pm. But I can’t have him be that lame.

So now I’m testing my luck with him to see if I can get him to abandon his studies to hang out with me instead. If you asked me a couple months ago, I wouldn’t like my odds. But I feel like my chances have improved drastically since then.

I slide into the chair next to him, and the feet screech across the ground loudly. I wince, and watch his head whip towards me. “Theodore,” I mutter stiffly and through an awkward cough as I nod my head at him.

A smile quirks at his lips while he looks back to the papers in front of him, shaking his head. “Thomas,” he greets me back.

Excitment is vibrating inside me at how close it feels I am to spending time with him. The lack of annoyance is already a fantastic sign. I rest my elbow on the table next to him then lean my head on my hand, propping myself up in his peripheral vision. “Come hang out with me,” I offer.

“Now?” He looks up at me, taking in my face. I like watching his eyes roam me. I like to imagine he’s enjoying what he’s seeing, like I’m a work of art he’d analyze at a museum.

I hum out my answer, “Mhm.” But ultimately am patient as he takes in my invitation, thinking it over while his thumb plays with his mechanical pencil. Clicking the lead out, then pushing it back in against his thigh.

His eyes are studying the papers and notebooks in front of him like they’re gonna give him the answers he wants. He scratches the back of his neck then looks towards me again, “What would we do?”

I smile wide, I’m closer than I’ve ever gotten before to stealing Theo away from school work. And my optimism is soaring at this moment. “Get a sweet treat, then head back to your place?”

He chucks his pencil on his stack of notebooks, and his arms cross over his chest. “It’s rude to invite yourself over to people’s houses, fyi.”

I sigh dramatically then shove my legs onto his lap. This is a very unstable, and honestly uncomfortable, position. But it adds to my charming yet annoying persona that I’m fairly sure is Theo’s kryptonite, so it’s full speed ahead.

My optimism grows when his hands go to rest on my legs as I tell him, “Yeah well Billy is probably at our house already, sooooo…”

A small chuckle that I almost can’t hear escapes his mouth, “I’m fucking with you Shep, yeah those plans sound nice.”

I rip my legs of his lap, my shoes doing more damage to his thighs that I would have liked, but I’m too excited to apologize. Leaning in, I blurt out a “Really!?”

His hands move slowly and meticulously, slipping pencils and highlighters into their case, closing his notebooks, filing papers into folder and binders, and stacking them all in front of him. He’s smiling to himself as he does this, “Yes really. You’re paying though.”

I nod so quick and messily, I don’t know how I don’t get dizzy. “Of course,” I spill, “I offered, it’s my treat.”

He just hums, letting me know he heard me. With his school stuff in his backpack now. He turns to me in his chair, our knees are touching and it’s all my brain can focus on until…

“Is there another treat you’re giving me when we get to my place?”

The smile that was permanently etched on my face during this whole conversation practically splits my head in two when it grows into a grin after I hear that question. “If you assumed otherwise, you’re not as smart as you claim to be.”

home reality

for context, jason ended up staying with my best friend && his best friend ( they’re together and very cute btw ) while i was camping for a few days with my other friends. the trip was only four days and three nights.

⊹ he asked my best friend for a hug because he was so sad. mind you, neither one of them are really people who hug like that.

⊹ jason texted me the entire time. at least three messages an hour. not in an overbearing or possessive way, he just genuinely wanted to know what was going on without him at my hip. he has very bad fomo

⊹ i caught him reposting sad tiktoks about missing your s/o. i know he looked up specific things for those videos to appear but i just can’t prove it.

⊹ he walked my dog every other day just to have something to do ( and also have a reason to be at my place )

⊹ he sent paragraphs at night when he couldn’t sleep without me by his side. he acted as if our messages were his personal diary where he could just write down all his thoughts just to get them out. i woke up every morning and responded to each one. it’s exactly what we do when we can’t sleep just through the phone this time, yk?

⊹ jason was upset when he realized i had taken the green blanket on bed with me. he thought i’d leave it for him like that’s not my blanket. idc if we share it every night, it’s mine!!

⊹ he took mid-day naps then woke up upset because he couldn’t turn over and tell me about his dumbass dream.

⊹ the day before i left i had to go shopping to pick up a few things, so of course i brought jason along. his ears turned pink when he realized i was gonna buy a bikini. you would’ve thought he’d never seen a girl naked before. this boy istg. he was upset when i told him i wouldn’t not do a try-on haul for him 😭 like he was genuinely distraught over this.

⊹ he reread pride and prejudice. then decided to read a knight of the seven kingdoms just so he could have something new to talk with me about when i got home.

⊹ he fully admitted to being a ‘ bitch boy ‘ to my best friend. he followed that by saying he never wanted to spend another day without me. ( college genuinely fucked him up because we spent every day together there )

⊹ the day i came home i was very stressed because i had an event to go to right after but i also had to shower && stuff. jason was all smiles and rainbows when he saw me. fully at my heels the entire time i was moving around the house. he asked me if i could join me in the shower . . . boy if you don’t get tf on

SHIFTING ASK GAME for multiple realities,, or a shifting tag game i was tagged in by layla created by @luansreality found here

GOING HOME!! which reality would you consider to be your main one?

this changes so damn often based off what i hyperfixate on in the moment. earlier in the year it would’ve been my college reality. a month ago it would’ve been my brother’s best friends reality. at the moment it’s my SITUATIONSHIP REALITY. i hope it lasts longer this time because i really like this one…

WHERE IT ALL BEGAN!! where was the first place you ever tried to shift?

first reality i ever made was a harry potter one. first reality i actually remember first trying to shift to was my YOUNG AVENGERS REALITY which still technically exists with a couple changes. but it’s mostly retired because it takes place in marvel comics canon where my man is traumatized heavily

NEW MOON!! what reality have you most recently decided to experience?

depends how you see it. my most recent reality is technically a revival, my disney cast member reality. my actually new reality i don’t remember which came first my HOCKEY ROMANCE REALITY or my LIKE TEAMMATES REALITY. but seeing as my like teammates reality is still in its newborn phase, i’ll say that one!

ALL THE ATTENTION!! which reality are you currently focused on?

most of attention goes to my SITUATIONSHIP REALITY because i’m literally obsessed with it and my relationship with tommy in it

A BREATH OF FRESH AIR!! what reality do you find the most relaxing?

i want to say my HOCKEY ROMANCE REALITY because when i’m fake dating tommy it truly is just so calm and tame. there’s no drama no hecticness or stress. it’s just us coasting through our little routine

THRIVING IN CHAOS!! which reality do you have the most going on in?

i’m stuck between two. it’s either my BOYS OF TOMMEN REALITY where i’m trying to go to the olympics, i’m making a song with my musician dad, and i’m hooking up with too many people while actively in love with someone else. or it’s my LOVE ISLAND REALITY where i’m a casa boy who falls in love with another casa boy and has to hide it from the whole villa while production tries to use us to up the drama

SAFETY FIRST!! which reality do you feel the safest in?

to be honest my SITUATIONSHIP REALITY mainly for the fact that tommy makes me feel so at home and safe in this reality. but also the people i surround myself with just feel extra comforting here. there’s nothing inherently safer about this reality though

DO IT FOR THE THRILL!! what reality would you say is the most dangerous?

honestly i make it a point to not shift anywhere dangerous. with the amount of anxiety i have in this reality, everything feels dangerous, so i don’t willingly put myself through that. but i mean out of all my realities? maybe my DISNEY CAST MEMBER REALITY because disneyland is a crazy place that is not immune to crazy people

A LONG TIME COMING!! what is a reality you have not yet reached?

i’m just using this as a oldest still alive reality category. and that would probably be my BOY NEXT DOOR REALITY which is also a recent revival

IT’S NICHE!! what is a unique reality you shift to?

well i think the most unique is my reality for a book series that has about five fans in total. my LIKE TEAMMATES REALITY is a reality based on a queer soccer romance book series that i fell in love with very recently. please read this book series by jonah yorke. they’re masterpieces!

MAIN REALITIES not mentioned : brother’s best friend reality & portland romcom reality ( my precious baby )