I feel like it's time to give an update here. I don't know who I am. I don't remember much of our past. I've been fronting for almost six months with very few others switching in. I think I'm dissociating a majority of the time. I don't fully recognize most of the people that are apparently part of this system. I don't have access to headspace in any way. I also have a hard time recognizing and connecting with people outside the system. Family. Friends. Partners. I don't feel the same connection to any of them as I know we should have and that the others had before. We lost access to the only place we used to go to for face-to-face social interaction. I honestly don't feel much at all. I don't know what to do about this. I want the others to come back and be able to reconnect with their people. But I don't know how. Starting antidepressants and restarting hormone treatment soon. Maybe that will help. I don't know... If you think you can help in any way, whether we've been in contact before or not, it would be appreciated.
