I just got a text from my ex sister in law (who I'm still friends with) that my stepsister died today. Apparently it was heart failure. And while there's a whole kit of shitty and messy history there I genuinely don't know what to do with this information. I hadn't talked to her in almost 4 years. And I don’t want to retread the past because it's already bad enough but I just...I don't know. I'm not going to the funeral if there is one. I'm not reaching out to my father because fuck that. I'm protecting my peace but I genuinely don't know if I should grieve her passing or just keep doing my own thing? Does that make me a bad person? Maybe. But I'm human and I don't think in truth my shitty family really cares what I do. I mean they used a third party to let me know instead of reaching out themselves so I suppose that speaks for itself? Maybe I'll cry later but right now I just don't have the energy for it.















