So fuckface FINALLY sent my medical records to the new ob/gyn, and they called me to... set up a new patient appointment. Friday of next week. I feel like I've really been taken for a ride, and I am going to scream.
I called them last week crying because I have been bleeding for 4 months straight, and the surgery that was hopefully going to fix that was canceled because I missed a fucking phone call that showed up as a spam risk that I was never told to expect, and my doctor seemed in no hurry to reschedule it. They told me they would get me in with one of their other surgeons ASAP once I sorted the payment, which I did, in plenty of time to have kept my original surgery date if my doctor gave a single solitary shit.
Then all of a sudden they needed my medical records. I don't understand why because the hospital HAS the relevant ones. I got the ultrasound that showed the cyst done there. My doctor made me wait an entire month for an appointment where he barely looked at me before ordering a surgery I had to wait ANOTHER month for. He made that decision based on the ultrasound. And the reason I was switching doctors was because they were out of office the entire next week and I am trying my damnedest to get this surgery done in the relative Covid lull. So now I'm stuck waiting for Fuckface. Again.
I called them the day they were back in the office, and they told me they didn't know if they had got the request for my records, but that they would tell the doctor. Who is of course out of office AGAIN. Why the FUCK do they need the doctor's approval to send paperwork that is the office staff's job? Receptionist at the new place was completely baffled over that, too. Only when I call the next day, I find out he has refused to send them unless I come in and sign release forms. As fucking ususal, nobody called to inform me of this, and I would have just been sitting here wasting more time if I had not called myself. So I rushed over and signed that, and legally they couldn't stonewall me anymore as punishment for standing up for myself.
And the next day I got a call for the intake appointment. That they are not actually moving mountains and earth to get me like they had promised, and that I didn't even know I NEEDED. I thought I was doing all of this to get the surgery done before schools reopen and Covid surges again because I cannot protect myself by masking if they are gonna put me under and even if I begged and pleaded, I know the best I am gonna get out of anyone here is a promise to use a useless surgical mask. If they don't just send me to the psych ward for "Covid anxiety." I thought I might have to do a surgery consult at most. If you're making me truly start at Zero then why the actual fuck did I have to wait until they got my records to even make an appointment? I could have made it LAST WEEK and been ready to go tomorrow when they finally got my files.
I just feel so fucking frustrated and hopeless. WHY has an entire summer's worth of phone calls and appointments and begging and pleading amounted to jack fucking shit? I'm used to being treated like shit over the fibro, but this is not a mysterious Symptoms Disorder where all of my tests come back normal. I have literally been bleeding for 4 months straight. It COULD be cancer because the ultrasound found a cyst. And now I'm starting all over again at Square One? This should have been dealt with MONTHS ago.
I have lost my entire summer to this. My house is a goddamned disaster zone. I've not had the time to get in touch with a landscaper over the literal fucking trees growing out of my bushes where they always shove my leaves instead of properly removing them. I'm still sleeping on this shitty awful mattress that is doing no wonders for my back. And I still need to schedule with my dentist to get these cavities taken care of. But I can't do that until I know when the other fucking surgery is because I would like to not be hemorrhaging to death first! Oh, and they've dragged this out so long I may actually have my neurologist's appointment first. I was finally going to commit to being tested for POTS, but how the fuck do I schedule that grueling ordeal amidst all this other bullshit? I'll probably have to wait another 3 months. Also I have no clean clothes left to wear to any of these appointments because between the suspected POTS and 4 months worth of blood loss, I am TERRIFIED to use the stairs. I always get dizzy on them anymore, and it is truly a race against time to get to the top before I pass out. I'm afraid I'll lose that race, now.
I just don't know what to do, anymore, I've been throwing insane amounts of money at gacha games because I genuinely do not expect to live long enough to need my savings. I just keep getting sicker and sicker, and the sicker I get, the less interested anybody is in helping. They'd treat a stray dog better than a disabled person who is LITERALLY PAYING THEM to PRETEND to care.