well-preserved specimen

hits your cervix with my car

it really is unfortunate that loving someone enough doesn't give you the ability to pass not entirely painlessly but with complete trust and encouragement through the boundaries preventing you from reaching into each other's chests and wrapping your hand around the slippery-warm muscle of their beating heart. then again we would probably all be having less sex if this was an option so.

[good cop voice] you have a right to remain violent

did you seriously have sex with The Other?

dude i think i might be The Other

this wound needs more salt

i knew going in that whatever was going to happen in that barn would be ugly and gutwrenching and tragic, but what i didnt expect, a possibility so much more painful than any sustained cruelty i ever couldve imagined, was that it would simply end. that after 40 years of making excuses for ruben's behaviour, after writing a whole book about how he sees ruben as this tragic figure who does awful things but is ultimately good at heart, his big brother, his hero – it would take ruben less than 5 minutes to kill niall in that barn. all the love and all the pain and all the hope and all the "what could have been" and what could have still been, erased without fanfare. ill see you in the next life. this one was beyond repair, it couldnt be saved, but ill make it up to you in the next one. except there isnt going to be a next one. this was it. this was it and you blew it, and now its over. i expected rape and torture and mutilation. what we actually got cut me so much deeper