M-M

Idk, what to call this, near shifting experience, sleeping in another reality before opening my eyes, state of extreme visualisation before waking up, or what.

The one who gets slightly carsick

I'm selling everything I have ever owned on gosupermodel (more than 9000 virtual clothes), and it is taking so long. Checking worths, seeing bumping my forums etc.

Before I walk through a door, I imagine that I'm already in a place that is familiar to me, but I haven't been to for months. When I've walked through, I say something like, "I am in my old bedroom" for example. Then I start describing things that I "see" with my eyes closed. Sometimes I turn around and describe things that are that way. After I have done that for a while, I step outside that room, say "I have returned to my previous reality", and open my eyes.

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I decided to change my username to the one I had when I was a kid, just for the sake of feeling better connected to the reality where I'll be permashifting to.

I also decided to pick up the camera I used between the ages of 10-12 to see if it had any pictures I could use for visualisation for the reality I'll be permashifting to. What I found instead was closer to a 100 selfies of me doing a subtle duckface and selfie poses that I thought were "aesthetic". Because even in this reality apparently "M-M knew who she was from an early age"

I really want to introduce my older brother to shifting because I'm worried about him, and I feel like shifting could give him that dopamine hit that he is looking for without spending tens of thousands of euros of his inheritance. I know he might say that I'm mentally ill or something, but at the same time so is he and at this point I feel like it wouldn't hurt him to know that if he wants a big dopamine hit, he has other options than spending all of his inheritance (mind you, he has no education after middle school, and has never had a job)

"Then one day something whispered follow me

One life, one strike to follow something real

Once there was something hidden within me (Within me)

Stardust to dust, a tapestry in between"

"Go find your mountain, go paint a forest blue

Go build a treehouse underground and a graveyard with a view

Never miss a perfect storm, always follow the herd uncalled

Something I'm super grateful to experience in the reality I'm permashifting to:

Getting more time with my sister. Getting to know who she would have been if she had been so severely mentally ill. If she had succeeded in life, like I always knew she would if mental illnesses like depression hadn't stolen her life. She is the reason I will always choose to have the same parents and siblings no matter the reality I will be in, and I can't wait to get to know the version of her that gets all of those beautiful things in life I always thought she'd get in this reality.

I don't really understand it when people say that when you shift, you should think as if you are your dr self, and you shouldn't say things like "I can't wait to be in my dr" and how you should ignore the 3d entirely. Because in my day-to-day life, I still have things I'm excited about, but I still say things like "I can't wait to go to this concert" or "I can't wait to see my parents again" while knowing full well that it's going to happen.

Example that inspired this post: I made a pie today, and when it went into the oven, I thought, "I can't wait to have my pie." Like I know I will have some pie soon, I know it's inevitable, but yet I feel excited about having it, even though I know that the pie is not finished yet. Like what is so bad about acknowledging 3d, while knowing that shifting is something that will happen. Just like my pie that just came out of the oven.