i have issues

Nah I don’t have memory issues I remember my childhood pretty well.yeah everything I remember has been recorded or told to me and anything outside of that I don’t remember unless it was bad but like that’s fine

Being a system is like one day you’re convinced that your abusers are actually good people and they never did anything bad to you and you’re just making it all up and the next day your brain will randomly decide to bless you with the memories of the fucking war crimes your abusers committed towards you while you’re waiting in a Tescos parking lot or some shit

there is an IMAGE in my HEAD and i cannot DRAW IT. hatred and rage.

there is a CONVERSATION in my HEAD and I cannot WRITE IT. rage and hatred

there is a VIDEO in my HEAD And i cannot ANIMATE IT. hage and ratred

There is a GAME in my HEAD and I cannot CODE IT. Ratred and hage.

there is a SONG in my HEAD and I cannot COMPOSE IT. haged and rate.

there is a MOVIE in my HEAD and i cannot FILM IT. raged and hate

there is a CRAFT in my HEAD and i cannot BUILD IT. snage and snatred

"'I don't know' isn't an answer" alright man then I'll just. Fuckin. Enter my philosophical mind-palace and check the fuckin akashic records. Real quick lemme just catch and cook and eat the Salmon of All Knowledge. Tell me ur question again so I can real quick climb to the highest branches of the Yggdrasil and lay it at the feet of Freda the all-wise Queen of Heaven. Dickhead.

It is true that people in fandom equate top bottom with dom sub and probably mean the latter when they "headcanon" the former but I also think people need to be more open to the idea that D/s doesn't necessarily get indicated from personality either. Like for example a shy person who gets pushed around easily very well might enjoy having a dominant role with a partner they trust. That can even be affirming. Like BECAUSE of this issue you have in your real life to feel like someone will submit to YOU and defer to YOU is special for example. I think the idea that you just play the role that suits your personality in real life is part of why these same people seem to genuinely think being a Dom is like, kind of bad and scary

[id: a tiger with both paws and its chin propped up on a rock. half of it's body is submerged in a shallow water. the tiger is looking just past the camera with a content expression.]