Embracing the Void

‘oh maybe they were a lesbian’ phil ur so valid

hmu if u wanna stroke my hair and rub my back and genuinely care about my well being

what kind of hell fandom are we living in where we sit in a silent void for weeks and dan tweets some random shit about bed bugs and we’re like “oh hello thank u for existing” and then continue to hibernate?? like?? what the fuck is this timeline?? why is this normal?? why am i here??

sometimes i forget how many times i’ve picked myself off the floor, how many times i’ve washed away smudgy makeup and put myself to bed. how many times i’ve said no to something unhealthy. said yes to something good. how many times i’ve treated myself with kindness and patience. i forget how many times i’ve tended to wounds and made peace with my own anger. if i was taking care of a body that was not my own, i’d believe i was doing everything i could. so here’s to remembering that i’m doing the best i can.

I miss him so much.

reblog this and in the tags, write the band that comes to mind first when you think back to being 13 years old