stink

Basically, my mom is a recovering(?) gambling addict. As of recently, to my knowledge, she has not relapsed, but we are working on general financial issues. We both have severe money related trauma, my mom’s resulting in things like her gambling addiction, frequent spending of money we don’t have, etc. I have been on her ass about rent pretty well lately, but sometimes she essentially leaves me to believe rent is paid based on loose statements from her, then I find out at the end of the month it wasn’t. That happened last month, so we paid double this month to catch up. Yikes. After months/years of fighting with her, and myself, we’ve come to an agreement that I will be taking over the household money to keep her from fucking shit up yet again in July. Our money for this month is already gone, as we are living off my mom’s monthly SSDI checks. The double rent took up the majority of that, along with car insurance, food for our cats (dietary needs hike up that price), and not even half filling the car with gas, which is already almost back to empty. We just had someone pay off our power bill ($138) shortly before my typing this out, and we’ve had offers to pay our phone bill, my mom’s been given resources for help with tags, but until those things are set in stone and done I want to keep them listed just in case. As far as groceries go; due to what is likely ARFID, or something along those lines, along with other issues, my dietary needs are inconsistent, making utilizing food banks a heavy hit or miss that often leans miss. I also have GERD, and often avoid heavily acidic foods, as they will cause severe stomach/esophagus pain (cries as my local food bank always has it’s main ingredients for a meal to build off as spaghetti with tomato sauce). On top of, if not due to, all that fun stuff, my safe foods shift and change daily. If I eat too much of something I can’t eat it for months to years after. I often don’t even know what is safe until I look at it. My mother does not have these issues, meaning she often has food around she can eat, but I’m always a struggle to feed and not having specific foods around often means I’m just not eating (which… also triggers my acid reflux from my GERD? wack). Currently, the safe foods I have in the house are… maybe the two apples we got from the food bank yesterday? I literally haven’t eaten anything so far today (6/10/25 typed this sentence around 4:50pm). (Will try to eat the apples after this) The point of me typing all this being: we need help right now. I have a goal set on Ko-fi for $400, hoping that will get us through with the things we need until at least the 19th where we will get our EBT food money, if not through the rest of the whole month until my mom gets her next check and I take over fully.