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"Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality"--Aster Laker, (DotNW) Kage/Aster (respond to either) | Adult (30+) | Queer AF | Any pronouns, but prefer xe/xem/xir or he/they | Profic | Check my About/BYF for more details on my views | Icon/Sidebar image colored by the absolutely most amazing person ever, Goron-King-Darunia (also my partner/soulmate)~ ~ FOR MOBILE USERS: ~ || Writing Sideblog || Art Sideblog || AO3 || Alt (kinky) AO3 || Tags || Fandoms || Ships || OCs || Gaming || Ko-Fi || DotNW Sideblog || DetCo Sideblog

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you know what the w o r s t thing about adhd is? (at least i think this one is the adhd, could be one of the 429432 other things i have)

time is meaningless.

which means if i have one (1) thing that i need to do, my brain has to block the entire day out for it.

which means that even if it’s technically a “day off” if i have one (1) important obligation–even if it’s only gonna take like 2 hours out of hte day–my brain doesn’t count it as a “day off” so i don’t actually get to use it to decompress from everything else

which is how i end up going weeks or months without having a “day off” that my brain will register as such so my stress levels just keep compounding, and my energy levels keep plummeting, and it’s hell on earth is what it is

actualaster

...In true ADHD fashion, guess who accidentally deleted the wrong post because and they were multi-tasking and got distracted and then had to Google to find this again?

(':

#adhd #actuallyadhd #actually adhd #sadly this means i will no longer see notifications of replies/reblogs... F me

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ispyspookymansion

i may not be financially stable or professionally successful or socially well liked or attractive or funny or hopeful about my future but i can make a 3 note post like nobody’s business #hustle

look i KNOW i did the "akemi lives AU where Shiho introduces Conan as her boyfriend before he gets his antidote and NOT mentioning the 'he is actually only a year younger than me despite his looks' thing specifically as payback for letting her think her beloved sister was dead all this time" already

however

i am SO tempted to make a follow-up to one of the WIPs I've got going where it happens except time it isn't Shiho being a bratty troll of a woman it's just "legit she and Shinichi were in too much shock to remember to explain the situation for, like, a good 20 minutes during which Akemi had the most horrifying questions about what the FUCK growing up in the BO did to her little sister's morals and how the hell did Akemi not know she was being corrupted to that degree until now"

#kage writes fic #...conveniently this would allow me to link to the *series* rather than the fic which neatly sidesteps the fact that #tumblr wants to censor a very specific tag for very stupid (bigoted) reasons #and would NOT require that i reformat a fic post to avoid issues

hotvampireadjacent

#uh oh indeed

coai

CoAi Week 2026 Day 3 Prompt:

Zinnia: Loyalty

The zinnia generally represents loyalty, lasting affection, and endurance. Known in Japan as hyakunichisou (flower of 100 days), its meanings are deeply tied to its ability to continuously bloom through the harsh summer heat.

Cool anecdote: Zinnias were the first plants grown as part of a formal NASA experiment using the Veggie plant-growth system aboard the International Space Station!

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#Dcmk #Detective conan #Coaiweek2026

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damndorothea

i saw this somewhere else but reply / tag what you did today so everyone can see that we all did something different today

#In bed all day baby #23:30 and stills don't wanna get up

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Be it in a platonic or romantic way, if you could, would you cuddle with your Blorbo at night?

Yes

No

Voting ended onJan 4

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#Depends on the blorbo #I woulf 100000% cuddle several of them platonically #I would cuddle 1 of them not platonically #And one of them i would not because it would be awkard #And another i would not because... look I'm not THAT suicidal okay plus it would hurt the entire time he kills me lmao

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aftercare for posting on ao3

beloved-child-of-the-house

your fic was good you did grammar good you’re the kind of freak people like everything’s cool dude :^)

coai

Coai Week 2026 - Day 2 Prompt:

Sunflower: Respect & Radiance

The sunflower (himawari) primarily symbolizes admiration, loyalty, and "I only have eyes for you." These meanings stem directly from the flower's natural tendency to track and face the sun throughout the day.

Sunflowers are renowned for turning their heads to follow the sun through the sky - and I have no doubt that Ai can't help but watch as Conan solves case after case with brilliance!

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#CoAiWerk2026

I feel like there's something either ironic or painfully blatant wish fulfillment or maybe both somehow that I've got an outline that's "suicidal character is offered a chance to die without suffering, ends up being helped to see all that they have to live for, and being brought back to life and supported after"

#Kage writes fic

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hthrrloooo

Catastrophize Benedictine

#Suicidal soup

Browsing the used bookstore is actually very grounding even if you're not buying anything

Ooooooh that's probably not good.

Reality' gettin' fuzzy around the edges

I'm trapped in a special type of hell where trying to do even the slightest level of looking into something I really, really want causes me to crash into an intense downward spiral of self-hate, self-doubt, and triggers an existential crisis.

I hate this so much

#I know I'm dealing with A Lot and this IS inexorably tied up in a literal lifetime of trauma #But still it's an outsized reaction and I'm trapped in the free fall now #Maybe I need to start brining the xanax around with me again given the [gestures at everything in my life rn]#Fml i guess :/

tieflingkisser

lesbianslimefriend

here's where to find it on windows 10

the-tiny-dragons-tea-room

Ugh, it was in mine. It's off now.

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IT GETS WORSE

I had to turn this off, but it's something that allows Windows and anyone using your device to generate text/images.

LOBOTOMIZE YOUR MACHINES

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Watched somebody use the public local text chat to respond to a compliment about their character with a proposition for a 3-way and get shot down with something that very heavily implied they'd just asked a minor for sex.

I think I'm going to go hang out in a different location while I eat, that's enough of... Whatever the hell is going on there.

#They didn't respond after that lol i mean like. What do you even say about that other than 'sorry'#(Not that you should behave that way to begin with but. U know what i mean)

seldomsee

#ADHDIEKFJJR #I MEAN--#Y e a h #My poor suicidal girl #Dcmk #Detective conan #conan edogawa #ai haibara #ran mouri #Vermouth #Gin #Accurate

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