don't be what they made you

ryland said he's a side sleeper but after rocky left him he slept on his back with his hands on his chest to imitate the pressure he'd feel if rocky was sleeping there oh okay fine

i do think in this political climate its inescapable and necessary to read or reread books like night watch. because i reread it specifically for the uprising i was able to focus on how political it actually is and it astounds me, it really does, that terry wrote this in 2003 and which such anger too. i teared up many times during this particular reread bc its so accurate, too accurate to our current world order and that fucking sucks. i was so angry reading it this time bc the unmentionables are literally ICE and lord winder is all the insane world leaders and ppl finally tried to do smth about them in the book and it lead to Nothing. actually, it lead to snapcase, who in some ways is worse than winder. and that hurts, deep in my chest, it really does. and what hurts more is vimes in this book. this has always been my favorite version of him, but god. i never really got the importance of his role in it all. he's able to stay kind and sane throughout all of the atrocities even as he's reliving it for the second time. its so so soooo important to me how hard he fights against the beast. the circumstances give him an opportunity, and in a way demand him to be ruthless and he still doesn't give in. he doesn't kill until absolutely necessary, he protects the innocent the weak and even the stupid and he does it lawfully and he does it while trying to teach his younger self to be a good person. he doesn't lose his humanity in the darkest of times and doesn't succumb to the beast bc what he was was not the beast. because if you become the beast people like carcer win. ok ill stop before i start sobbing on the street but yeah even seven rereads cant dull night watch's light

ppl shipping strattland was so predictable to me its genuinely boring. can we move on now

i dont think yall get the importance of what hungary's new prime minister, magyar péter is doing. he's only been elected for a month (and that, in itself, is a so so important, since hungary's been surviving, not living, SURVIVING, under orbán's regime for the last 16 years and magyar's win is a true reason for hope since orbán had deeeepppp ties w russian and america and he basically sold our whole country to his buddies and yet the will of the people still won. sorry for the tangent i just still can't believe this is real life) and been in office for a week and he's already so radically different than anything politics has seen before. all of his conferences are live on his channel and that's significant because he's showing everything as it's happening in real time, thus there's no room for propaganda, for doubt that he's lying about what happened. because for 16 years in this country every news channel was an outlet of the governments propaganda and everyone in the government was lying out of their asses. that's over now. magyar opened the government buildings that were built as government officials luxurious homes and he's showing them to the public for free and he even gave a tour this morning, where walking thru every room and every building he didn't let anyone forget that while they were building these cigar rooms and private restaurants and every luxury you could imagine, hungary's economy was getting worse and worse, hospital were falling apart and social institutions were in shambles. they could have fixed hundreds of hospital or have built orphanages or any other thing to help the country, but instead they sat there getting richer and richer. that's so common in today's world but magyar's is showing that it isn't normal and we shouldn't accept it. and they're gonna pay for every cent of it. bc it wasn't their money, oh no no, it was the tax payers money. and they're still lying about it and he's not letting them. people are criticizing magyar for being so harsh with the previous government, for calling them out again and again, for not letting the people forget what they did to the country, for demanding every legal offical to resign too, because they put no stop to it at all. and i say he's exactly what this country, and honestly the world needs. THIS is how you deal w a corrupt government, so nothing like this will ever happen again. the last government put it into law that after being removed from their positions by the new government they're entitled to a final sum of money for their "services". magyar's not giving them a dime. not even the previous prime minister. and people are, again, criticizing him for this because it's "unlawful". i personally don't give a fuck about the kind of law that makes the rich even richer just because. and i'm glad he doesn't too. i need yall to get how fucking important this is, not just for hungary, because this is the example politicians should follow when dealing w corruption. there's no room for anything else but ruthlessness. they deserved to be humiliated infront of the whole country, they deserved to be called out and investigated for their crimes and they also deserve to rot in prison. take notes, world.

my not even 12 year old brother started calorie counting today so the world can end now. please

i think the good omens finale needs to be looked at from a social standpoint more than anything else. bc you cannot forget the history of this media. it was adapted originally from a book written by two people. one of author's died in 2016 from alzheimer's and three years later the other author gets asked to adapt it into a series. the story relatively kept itself to the book and voila it was a hit series. so of course you have to make a season two everyone's desperate to finally see the two characters together. only season two happened and it didn't have an original source to draw from. and if you're familiar with the book and terry pratchett's books, which i am, you can clearly see that his influence was overwhelming, shall we say, in the book. so that other piece of shit had to coble together something from his own imagination and it was definitely not a fan favorite. of course it still had a lot of value on a story telling level and it was genuinely one of the most progressive medias out there but still, the ending was not universally well liked. so OBVIOUSLY we've got to make a season three, duh. our fans compell us, our hands are tied, whatever sob story who cares. only that doesn't go as smoothly as we would like bc there's a scandal about the main screenwriter/author/fucking neil gaiman we all know who i'm taling about, sexually assaulting multiple women. and suddenly it's not just a show anymore. its an ethical question, is this show really worth another season to show off the "ideas" of a man who ruined several womans lives? no its not and everyone knows it isn't. but the show fucking must go on. so season three is announced, apparently neil gaiman doesn't get a cent, he's not in the writing room, he's not anywhere near this, no sir, only. only he wrote the show previously. and season three comes out and people are more outraged about a human storyline that's a genuinely nice ending than they were about actual real human flesh and blood women being assaulted. yeah i'm disappointed about the show too. the question is, given what surrounds the show, is it morally right for it to exist, for you to watch it and then critique it, or should you critique it doubly for even existing. should we be happy w this ending existing at all or should we condemn it's existence even tho one, we didn't even condemn the predator who made the previous seasons and two, he doesn't have any involvement in it at all. do we even remember this happening. do we even care. well.

i love alcohol. everyday the urge to never speak to my father again grows stronger

increasingly feel like only i should have the right to yell at cloud old man style in this economy