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Every day I think about Kyle saying “Benson is not a straight man going through this” I think about that every day.

To the unenlightened mind trying to draw parallels it might be tempting to link Theo with Randy (singular freak accident happens at a formative age leaving our protagonist feeling an irrational degree of guilt, trying to maintain a good boy appearance with varying levels of success, kind of bitchy, mommy issues) and Boris with Benson (rougher life in which violence is the norm, erratic hurricane of a character, a plot mover, both destructive and positively transformative. Gets shot.). But to the enlightened mind there is a Venn diagram with Theo and Benson and in the middle it says “There had been nights in the desert where I was so sick with laughter, convulsed and doubled over with aching stomach for hours on end, I would happily have thrown myself in front of a car to make it stop,” and, “‘You were a mess, Theo—fun to be with, most of time! up for anything! but a mess. Probably you should have been in hospital.’” Picture of Benson’s dashboard flask. Sexual trauma that is crucially tiptoed around but never named. Leaving without saying the thing that did and didn’t need to be said “which was, of course, I love you.” A bullet point that just says “Gay?” Mommy issues. And you could draw a third shape somewhere in that diagram and label it Holden Caulfield

This was harsh I shouldn’t have said to the unenlightened mind. It’s more like, to the woke mind vs the bespoke mind you feel me?

“why did people characterize him like this when it doesn’t even make sense“ unfortunately the answer is usually racism

First half of Pillion is ultimate submission fantasy that says: what if a hot biker dom picks you up in a bar, you're really bad at sex but he likes that and gets you to do household tasks in a way that is sexually fullfilling. Second half of pillion is everyone around you saying your sexy biker dom is insane and bad at bdsm but you think you can fix him. Last 5 minutes of Pillion is the heartbreaking realization you can have both submission and agency and you can love someone who is bad for you