chasing rubies

i would make the worst kind of vampire because i would always be like "hey check out how long i can go without blood lol" as a form of guilty self-harm poorly disguised as discipline and then black out and binge-slaughter a bunch of people, only reinforcing my conviction that i need to develop better self control by starving myself as often as possible

the crazy thing is the entire episode really is about loustat and there's gonna be that corner of the fandom who will whine and catastrophize no matter what, but like the whole entire point is still loustat. it's crazy how poignant the crater left behind by louis is. the entire episode lestat is running from the gaping wound in the shape of his broken family. louis is hardly on screen and yet his shadow shapes the entire episode. even the presence of gabrielle is about the absence of the love lestat needs from louis