Malec. Just Malec.

nope. no filing off the serial numbers for this fic and publishing it. it's owned by the malec fandom and will stay that way.

(and let's be real, as much as i love itsb it would make a *terrible* published book lol. if i were to publish it, there would be heavy edits and cutting out like 350k of the words 😂 i indulged hardcore in fandom tropes, added in scenes cause they made me happy, and lingered over things that would have been glossed over in published fiction. i've written enough books to have a pretty good handle on what works!)

what i was saying with that note is that i really, really, really want a paper copy of itsb on my shelf and wish i could find a way to make that a reality for everyone who wants it too. at this point though, i don't see how i could make that happen besides providing a master file for y'all to use as you please.

logistically, a printed version of itsb would need to be 3-4 volumes for it to be readable in terms of font size and physically holding it (without straining muscles lol). and in all the research i did, that would likely cost each person over $100 USD. ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS. *sigh*

Like Alec giving that look to Magnus through the screens after he scores 😭😍🙈

ahaha! love that ♡

i'm so with you, anon. so let me tell you what i'm doing...

i have a master file where i'm making edits and i'm going to upload it to ao3 chapter by chapter. after i'm done with that tho, i'm going to make that master file available for anyone who wants to use it as they wish. i'll probably be creating 4 (?) volumes to make my own hardback copy (i've taken up bookbinding on the side lol).

i really really wish i could put together a print run for everyone who wants a copy, but that's just not going to be possible. so, a master file is going to be the best i can do for y'all!

i think? if anyone has better ideas let me know!

Anyway, just sending extra kudos here and thanking you for all the work you and others put into ITSB.

So much love and respect 🙌🏼

this is just the loveliest thing ever. may the sun goddesses always shine on you!

if there weren't things to wrap up then 24 could be the end, but there are, so it will be finished ♡

this ask is quite literally ancient (not literally, but pretty damn old).

thank you 😭

honestly? i can't believe anyone is still reading that monstrosity, let alone *re-reading* it! isn't it like a billion pages at this point?

all that to say, thank you. it makes me so damn happy that it hasn't been forgotten and, maybe, will have some kind of a lasting impact. it's truly humbling ♡

ch 25 still stands at 23kish, with four scenes left to write. yep, only four. but... they're the last four in this saga and me and my muse seem to have a lot of trouble wrapping our collective head around that. the drive to make them perfect is strong and, very very honestly here, makes me want to delete the whole thing so i don't fuck it up.

because, yeah, i'm afraid i will fuck it up. maybe not the story itself but the writing, the care, the characterizations, the emotion? all of those aspects have been important to me since the first words, so i don't want to give the ending short shrift just to get it done. i really do still care (way too much?) about itsb.

so you didn't ask for any of that lmaooo. sorry. but i tend to ramble, right?

point is...

THANK YOU

oh anon. if i'd known this message was in my inbox i would've been back on here much, much earlier. thank you so much for the love and blissful itsb headcanons!

stability was in a super short supply for a while there in my life and it's just starting to take hold again. hoping it will.

believe it or not, itsb isn't abandoned. i open it every now and then and add more. ch 25 is 25k+ words at this point. so it WILL happen, eventually.

thank you again for the really kind message and i hope you're well ♡

not really? only 16 unread lol. but i feel so bad now about those 16 going unanswered for literal years. gah!