Sorry if it seems rushed, I’m not used to do that kind of answer. But I had to reply…
See, I can relate to this post a lot, as a tolerant person I never said no to my friend and tried to please them. I was always shy, never asking for anything, always helping everyone with their problems until my mental state broke in pieces.
You start to realize that some people that you care about simply don’t care. You never expected nothing from them, but the moment you need to express yourself or simply need them, they’re not here. You feel alone, like your words doesn’t matter to those person, until you find people who actually care.
They aren’t always the person you expect to, but those are the most precious friends you can have, because they do listen to your pain and accept it as part of you no matter what. Those who used and doesn’t you doesn’t deserve your friendship as it takes time and energy.
Being a tolerant person can be hard, because you have to learn to put your limit, your feelings matter and you should never ignore them. Because you matter before everyone else.
I hope you’ll feel better Jakei. You deserve it.