this time scrolling social media as a substitute for genuine human connection will work. i know it

beep beep sometimes when you have been in survival mode for a long time the parts of you dedicated to Wanting Things atrophy and you forget how to envision a future that feels rewarding because you are busy with the business of staying alive, and it can seem like your life must be pointless because you can’t imagine any long term goals. sometimes even when you leave survival mode you can’t remember how to Want Things. that doesn’t mean you need to give up on having a good and fulfilling life, it just means that Wanting Things is a muscle you need to gradually strengthen. the part of you that has dreams and aspirations is still there, it just fell asleep, but if you wiggle it enough it can and will regain feeling. it’s okay to start small

on one hand i feel like i'm being paranoid and lonely but on the other hand i feel like my recent lack of invitation to smaller events with a group i had becoming close with over the last year is somewhat related to my vocally anti-zionist views

thank god we’re spending groundhog’s day together though!!!

honestly if teleporters ever got invented during my lifetime i would be the most annoying analog boomer about it. my grandkids would be like ugh, grandma, why don’t you just take a teleporter trip to come visit us, we all do it all the time and it’s obviously safe and i would be like absolutely not. it kills you and reconstitutes a copy with your exact memories. you are consciously my grandchildren and i do not hold it against you but i know in my heart that you are nothing but copies of copies of copies borne out of irresponsible technology use. i am not touching that devil’s elevator as long as i live. i will take an airplane and you will wait for the several hours it takes for me to come visit you

today i am thinking about how grateful i am that there’s no record of the outfit i wore to school for the hunger games movie premiere

checked my archive just in case and it’s clean but oh boy do i wish i hadn’t done that

the public library is "social" and there's "media" there (pretty much its whole thing). and you can "browse" the stacks. or even "post" up at a comfortable chair.

what's there policy on hole?