so american

so much love for you, livvy. i was working on a musical, it was called octet. lin manuel miranda was the director so it just the most insane thing to say out loud. it's not been easy, but i got to come to spain now we wrapped and it feels so good to be here with him. i am sure it will be hard but i believe you. she does? let me try and get tickets from milo and i, we wouldn't miss it!!

I can't wait to see it. Even though I know that it's going to be a while before that happens. I'm glad that my favorite couple has been reunited and you get to spend time together. Yeah, Nay is performing at a couple of festivals next week so we'll be coming your way. I'm sure I could get some guests passes for you. We can be menaces in the pit while Milo wonders what the fuck he's got himself into.

then i think it's pretty obvious which single i was referring to. it's not like i sat there and listened to the entire album. honestly, the only reason i even pressed play was because my instagram was flooded with comments about it, so yeah. good for you for saying no to random guys. alrighty then.. but congrats either way.

You didn't have to press play. You really don't have to listen to any of the songs that I wrote. Especially the ones about you. I was just writing about my feelings.... some of them are nice? I think. At least one of them is, anyway. Yeah, you lost the privilege to call me any nickname.

𝓉𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓉𝑜: olivia rodrigo

you already know i haven't either but what you said sounds right to me. yoda would be proud probably. okay, yeah - that would do me in completely. in fact, wish i was doing it to you right now. but need to stress that it doesn't matter whether it's clothed, in lingerie or naked, it's all the sexiest thing i've ever seen. you'll see with time. just have to be a little patient. why don't you try some mixes of things? condense a few songs into a teaser so you can get more in. or i know surprise songs have been in lately. you could do something like that each night. i mean no matter what you do, everyone's going to love it. yeah, since then which was like march, right? and is it now? maybe i'll make sure it stays even more ingrained they time around, too. it'll be a permanent thing. thank you, baby. can't wait to have you there this time around. yeah, definitely up for that. definitely long overdue seeing rachel so what better way to fix that? we could do that. i wouldn't complain since i'm sure there's some good things we can get into. you're lucky i love a girl who takes control. what i'm getting is limited other clothes. maybe even optional on that but i'll pack a little something with a focus on the good stuff and trust me, it'll be really good.

Finally someone else who hasn't watched Star Wars. I feel like I shouldn't watch it out of principal now. Every time someone tells me I should watch it - it adds like another year of me not watching it. I'll be 50 before I see any of the films. You're going to blow my ego way out of the water, baby. Keep complimenting me, please. I'd love to do surprise songs even if there's echoes of me copying a certain pop-star. Yeah - and then a month later I was telling you to ask me on a date. Maybe I knew a thing or two when I was writing about not finding a husband at a bar - cause now I've got a girlfriend. So, I like to think that everything worked out in a good way for us because the feelings I'm getting for you are so strong. Two months in and I'm the happiest that I've ever been.Oh, no. I'm going to be in danger. Even if I've seen you naked multiple times. It's a view I'm not going to get used to - especially with the little teasing. It really gets me going. The crowd goes feral for seeing a small glimpse of your thong - and I'm going to go feral knowing that you're wearing it for me. I've got my shirts all made for your festivals. Witty little sayings but I'm not showing you them until the day of. Life being so busy not getting to see some of our friends is truly sad so it's lucky that they're in the same country as us. God. You're such a tease.

i'm seriously obsessed with maggots for brains. great title btw. just can't stop listening to it. the whole album is a work of art but gotta say, i've really been gravitating towards that one as of late. it's just perfect and a lot of other glowing adjectives. how're you feeling now that the project is out there? did you have any nerves beforehand?

Thanks - I had a lot of fun creating this album. Made half of it then my relationship ended so you know, went back and rewrote a lot of it. Good exercise for creativity. Although I don't recommend you ending your relationship for your next album cause otherwise we can't be friends anymore. I'm feeling so good about it - I can't wait to perform the songs with everyone.

i like to think they have our best interests in mind so hopefully no crashing and burning will be happening anytime soon. love that you're getting some time off before things get crazy again. speaking of concerts though, i'm so excited to be doing daisy chain with you! honored that you asked us. plus, stevie nicks? i'm already in fangirl mode.

I don't know much about the k-pop industry... I'm going to admit that but I've heard that they can work you quite hard. Yeah, I'm going to go see Renee perform in Spain. I'm excited for that - I always love watching her on stage. I'm so excited that you agreed to do it. It's going to be so much fun. I don't know how I got Stevie Nicks. I cried. A lot. How was your birthday, babe? Did Benson spoil you? Or am I kicking his butt?

i have amazing friends and my 'taters' are the coolest. i can't wait for them to hear some of the new music that i have been working on. hey, i like your dancing. if still love it when you and sabrina will do 'disney knees' without even thinking. demi certainly left an impression on all the girls there. i'm glad you like my dancing but i'm in awe that you can play the guitar. all i can play is the piano and i'm not the best at it, so i'll keep dancing. she is so good and works a crows better then anyone i know.

What sort of style having you been going for with this album? Is it something new? I think I unintentionally have done what people consider the Disney knees thing cause I never actually thought about them. Demi is such an amazing person, though. If I could perform like her then I would be happy. Have you been doing more lessons? Cause there's nothing wrong in doing that - I still take lessons with my guitar playing.

I never expected it either! I was surprised when the script came through my inbox with the audition date. They're changing it a bit, making it more modernize. But nothing too big.

You got the script before the audition? What kind of magic did you pull there? Are you having fun filming? Any funny stories yet?

are you threatening me??? excuse me while i take your music off my playlist of the week immediately. still happy for you for the love it's getting but you're banned until you're nicer to me. now, wait cause there's no such thing as celebrating too hard when it comes to something like this.

Maybe. And please, you won't take me off your playlist. I see you using my songs on TikTok. I don't have to be nicer to you. I'm a complete angel. I think there is such a thing of celebrating too hard, dude. Clearly you haven't been celebrating the correct way.

missing you so much as well. my life is so sad when you aren't in it. i have wrapped my movie. heading out to spain to see milo. been a couple of weeks and i miss my man. how can i convince you and renee to come out here for a weekend?

Aw, my life is sad when you're not in it, too. One of my best girls. What movie were you working on? I can imagine being apart from him wouldn't be easy. Haven't experienced it too much with Nay just yet but I'm sure that there'll be some times where we can't be together. More likely when I'm on tour. Funny thing is she had a couple of shows in Spain next month so we'll be headed that way.

i'm taking a risk and giving you all the power here. you can be incredibly distracting. i'm glad it has, too, because now you should be celebrating everything. you know, you can have all the time in the world with me, too. that's a given. yeah? holding you to that. might even test the limits one day just to see how for real you are. makes sense. you've still got all the time in the world to plan things out and do whatever else you need before it's here. it feels like it's been so long since i've been out there so we'll see how it goes but one thing's for sure is that i'll be shaking it extra for you. we can do whatever you want, babe. i'm sure those places have endless experiences like that that go beyond the usual touristy stuff.

I'll use it wisely. Something about Yoda saying use it wisely or whatever. I don't know - never seen Star Wars. If I really need to distract you from something then I'll just rock up in lingerie cause I feel like that's a little more sexy than just being naked. Means I can feel your hands on me as you undress me a little. Testing the limits? Now I want to know what you'd actually do, babe. Cause I'm for real, real. It's so hard picking what songs to go into the setlist. Stage design is the easy part but I just want to sing everything. It's been a few months now, right? Cause I remeber coming to visit you while you were in the UK.... the color blue is very ingrained into my mind. I know that you're going to be incredible up on the stage and you're going to blow everyones mind with how talented of a vocalist you are. This time I'll get to be yelling that's my girl. And after your shows we can swing by where Milo is filming to see him and Rachel... if you're up for that. Or we can go a few days earlier, if it helps make you less nervous. Whatever works for you, baby. I'll get planning the little vacation. Leave everything to me. All you need to do is pack some bikinis. Probably some other clothes, too but... bikinis.

i know how it is and have started picking and choosing lately. it's been nice to be home like a normal person instead of gone all the time. you should rack up at the awards show next year or the powers that be or crazy but i could make a case for them being dumb. mom says everyone has a soulmate and she's definitely yours.

Good - I'm glad that you're getting in some proper rest and relaxation. What have you been doing? I'm hoping that I get something but I know there are so many brilliant albums out, as always so I'll be grateful just to get nominated. I mean... soulmates is a very strong word. Our two months together is coming up real soon. And I do have strong feelings for her. Everything feels different with Nay - and not just because it's my first relationship with a woman... the communication, being able to be as sarcastic as I want without fear of someone not getting it. The boobs. Those are real nice.