Some people lie just so they don’t have to deal with the consequences of leaving you completely devastated.
And when you find out about the truth is like no darkness can ever compare. Like nothing can possibly piece together the fragments your soul has been torned apart into. Like no words can ever heal your heart. Like no consolation can give you back the enthusiasm for life you used to have.
Because those voices that tell you the worst about yourself, are now perfectly reflected into actual words. Into real actions. And nothing could ever ever ever show you a silver lining of the worst case escnario... except time.
And suddenly I want to crawl into my bed, close my eyes, and hope two decades have gone by, by the time they are open again. Maybe that time will be better. Maybe that day will brighter. Maybe, in that reality, I am loved.
























