(everything said here is /nm & /post, unless stated otherwise)
You made me look into the depths and the core of me
You made me look inside of my broken soul
You made me look inside my mind
You made me question my whole identity
You made me question myself
Okay, let's get specific and nor poematic.
I'll name the characters Red, Pink and Gold. They are not their real names but I don't really wanna give anyone the names yet.
Some time ago I started looking into my identity. This year, also alterhumanity, including all the labels. What I am now needed some exploring, before I knew I am it.
And I had this question. And it was such a stupid question. Because I somehow forgot being fictionkin is identifying, being the character.
And I saw this reblog, this little question.
I went on Pinterest to look at the characters.
I went into my head to remember how they act.
I spiraled down into depths of my identity looking if they are me.
For Red, I kinda knew it before, but I wasn't yet sure. It was faint. But only because I didn't care enough about it. I didn't care enough about exploring it and actually finding out.
For Pink, it was such a sudden realization that I am him. I looked at him, looked at the memories, looked at how he acts and at me, and immediately knew I am him.
And what I also know now is that I am, in fact, not Gold. The idea of being Gold seems so wrong. But I know why I thought I may be him. Because he's close to Red and Pink. But I am definitely not him.
I looked at everything from the characters (Pink and Red) and slowly it all made sense.
I am yet torn which version/AU I am of them, I'm yet to discover it, but I will look into it. I will explore this part of myself and try to understand it.
But I have a different question that may seem so silly, but is intertwined with my observations:
Is it possible to kin different versions/AU's of the same character?
Of course you don't need to answer it if you don't know the answer, maybe someone else will, but thanks regardless.
Thank you for opening my mind. Really.