reflection no. 2
they say the sun will shine againĀ rain clouds will scatter and fade like scars but my 2019 wasnāt like the weatherĀ
this year, I turned twenty-oneĀ fell in and out of loveĀ hit my rock bottom and climbed to the top (twice) these things seem trivial to anyone beyond my personal reflectionĀ but to me, being me, it feelsā¦ niceĀ
I never thought Iād reach this milestoneĀ I donāt know whyĀ before this year I looked in the mirror and saw a childĀ dependent, scared, untrustworthy of myselfĀ but when I reached the top of that metaphorical life-mountain twice I think my relationship with meĀ was reconciledĀ
I come from a family of atheistsĀ so divine intervention never crossed my mindĀ but this year, for the first time, I experienced something magical excitement to live to feel another sunrise on my skin to watch the rain clouds come and go with undivided, unburdened attention and to breatheĀ
my 2019 was not like the weatherĀ I turned twenty-one,Ā fell in and out of love, and I began the process of loving myself so I would like to end the year by saying and, because this may be the end of a year of a decade but it is only the beginning for meĀ
lmaooooo and then 2020 hit
