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hi, im muyang, i'm a severely disabled (mental + physical) transfeminine intersex person of color stuck at a neglectful and borderline abusive homeless shelter, to keep it short they don't give us enough food to comfortably live off of most of the time, i just want a little money for groceries for this week that's all thank you. please rb to help i don't know what else to do i can't work a job and i don't have any family left who'd be willing to help. please donate anything you can i'm begging. i hate making posts like this because i've been told before it's guilt trippy and manipulative i don't wanna seem that way i just don't like starving im sorry. thank you to anyone who donates no matter how small.

my cashapp is $muyang7 , this is the code below

i have a paypal as well which is @Muyang777 and a kofi which is here

UPDATE 05/28/26 : this is very VERY URGENT now. i will be forced to move out of my shelter

my homeless shelter is kind of gently kicking me out due to my disabilities and me needing a level of care they cannot provide. this is incredibly short notice, i have until some time next week before this transition will start. i desperately am in need of help. please donate anything you can and contact me if you know of disability friendly housing available in mid michigan. i dont know what else to do. im very distraught i have nowhere else to turn. please help in any way you can. thank you all so much

hi, my name is muyang, im an 18 year old intersex transgirl with level 3 autism and mild intellectual disability among other conditions. i cant live alone. i need day to day help with most iadls and adls. im currently stuck at a very neglectful homeless shelter who is now making the decision to kick me out due to not being able to meet my care needs. i have about a week as of making this post to find somewhere to go. i dont know what to do. i cant work bc of my disabilities, i try to make money from commissions but my art isnt very good. im trying desperately to get donations but nothing seems to be working. please boost this post and my main post so i can get help with money and maybe find a place to stay temporarily while i try to find permanent housing through an adult foster care or a nursing home. thank you all very much in advance for any help provided. it means the world to me

my cashapp is $muyang7 my kofi is here and my paypal is @Muyang777

It’s okay to exist in spaces meant for systems, even if other systems’ trauma is not the same as yours.

It’s okay if you know your trauma was severe but dissociative barriers prevent you from knowing details or being able to name exactly what happened.

It’s okay if you struggle to relate to other systems who do not have the same trauma as you.

It’s completely valid to choose to share your trauma in safe spaces, as long as you follow the rules laid out to keep that space safe (i.e. TWs/spoilers)

It’s completely valid to choose not to share your story online or even acknowledge online that your experience constitutes as “severe.”

Posts showing support for systems “without severe trauma” or whose trauma “wasn’t ‘that bad’” do not invalidate your trauma. You are valid.

It’s okay if you’re not as high-functioning as other systems seem to be. (And remember — the internet version of someone doesn’t usually show an accurate picture of someone’s struggles)

It’s okay if you’re really high-functioning when the world seems to think you shouldn’t be. Your trauma, your system, and your experiences are valid.

Having a very large or polyfragmented system is valid. Having a smaller system is valid. Not knowing the size of your system is valid.

Struggling with severe symptoms is really hard and even when you’re dealing with that, I see you, I hear you, I believe you.

It’s okay if you do not have the bandwidth to support other systems or hear their trauma history, even if their experiences are different.

It is not your job to educate people on severe trauma unless you choose to make it your job. Do not let anyone else assign that task to you.

It’s okay to feel left out, forgotten, or invalidated seeing posts circulating that leave you out specifically. Your feelings matter. Others have their posts. This is yours.

I believe you. I wish you healing. You deserve help. You can get through this.

Ok I did the thing

Our experiences aren't yours to claim. Claiming experiences that don't belong to you trivializes the suffering of actual survivors. If you actually understood what this was, you wouldn't want it. You wouldn't have lasted a day in our shoes. Shame on you for participating in this. Go get a real hobby and get the fuck out of my tags.

Hello! I have several resources that I think may be helpful to you:

This document (LINK) of "rare programs" and their descriptions, posted by @killercatboys.

Chapters 4 and 7 of Becoming Yourself by Alison Miller (LINK) discuss programming and chapter 7 includes an anecdote with specific programs and definitions. The entire book is really a great read and is geared towards survivors of RAMCOA, just be sure to take it slow and take care of yourself.

Common Programs Observed in Survivors of Satanic Ritualistic Abuse by David W. Neswald (LINK) - massive trigger warning for suicide, self-harm, and abuse.

Spin Programming: A Newly Uncovered Technique of Systematic Mind Control by John D. Lovern (LINK) - includes symptoms, implementation, and uses of spin programs; trigger warning for abuse/torture methods.

Healing the Unimaginable by Alison Miller (LINK) is geared towards therapists and professionals and includes more in-depth information about RAMCOA than Becoming Yourself does. Again, massive trigger warning throughout the book for RAMCOA.

Kinds of Torture Endured in Ritual Abuse and Trauma-Based Mind Control by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) - partial list of torture methods used in RAMCOA; trigger warning for abuse, near-death, and torture.

Mind Control: Simple to Complex by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) - describes twelve "stages" of mind control and programming, going from outward compliance to torture/trauma-based mind control; trigger warning for descriptions of abuse.

Some Indicators of Trauma-Based Mind Control Programming by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) provides common indicators of TBMC; most survivors of programming will have many of these indicators, but their presence does not prove the existence of TBMC and their absence does not prove that one has not experienced TBMC.

Adult and Adolescent Indicators of Ritual Trauma by Ellen P. Lacter (LINK) provides indicators of ritual abuse in teens and adults; as with the last bullet point, their presence does not prove ritual abuse and their absence does not disprove it.

introject heavy systems

systems with no introjects

polyfragmented systems

pw-OSDD or PDID and any other overlooked CDD system

systems with low headcounts

systems with high headcounts

RAMCOA systems

programmed systems

TBMC systems

OEA systems

systems that live in poverty

systems that have no irl or online friends

systems that need more support than their peers

cluster A systems

cluster B systems

cluster C systems