tropical life

I write for my self or for you i might say But sometimes the words that i write sounds cliche It’s a poem now i write it for you So please tell me how can i impress you How many times i should knock on the doors… Of love ,life,dreams and hopes I came to you for help For am not a dreamer or lover or looking for hope All i want is to write words for you to catch and hold Now my search for words has come to an end Not out of bordem or me finding myself in a new way But all the words i wrote took the ink of my pen away

U know me u say U talk to me... u even kissed me that day After it i stood still watched you go ..couldn't take my eyes away Is that a game u play?? Or am i just over thinking the things u say U have no right to force in like u do But the truth to be said ... i would never have stopped u & That night we had ..making love in your bed I never could take it away of my head Your whisper in my ear... i love you.. i want you here.. The way u make me feel when you are near I asked you that day do u really mean what u say  Smile lit ur face and i just knew u are the one i wanted to stay

I never been that girl the one u thought of me Am weak with u  if u only wanted me But am strong when it comes to know what is best for me My pride ached when i heard those words Without glancing i knew it’s done for me I said it once and i promised (me) no guy will ever stab my heart for me We all been there or gonna be That feeling u get make ur stomach sick When he coldly said “you are not the only one to me ” I cried allot  on my pillow that night I should have known better i kept blaming my heart Now it’s Valentine’s day.. god i hate this day Lonely again …a sennario seems To never fading away It’s ok i keep comferting myself.. wishing the loneliness am in to go away And by those thoughts in my head I slept off the pain away..

I don't know what are your thoughts.. Weather you actually care or not.. I don't know how you feel.. When i say i love you do you hear?  .. I don't know if you are happy.. I don't know if you are not I never been able to see through your heart.. I try my best to be with you.. Little i can do if am not welcomed to.. U made It clear am not the one ... Please stop then... Stop knocking the walls i built around my heart.. She hurts you again .. You come to me for what?? A friend am not... a lover you never saw me like that .. Using my heart for your bleeding wounds... Who will fix mine after u finish stitching yours A toy perhaps... i am in your eyes.. No more by your side u had your last.

N.M

New text received The phone beeps “Are u still up?? “the text reads should i reply or pretend to be sleep Making up my mind now is harder than it seems if i text U hey One minute then a text will say: what are you wearing bae No” How was your day “or even “are u ok “ straight to the subject always been ur way Now since i gave it a little thought Loosing sleep for you that i will not.

What do you make of my words that kept you alarm My words never ment to deceive your thoughts , Nor a hidden harm to poison your heart Excuse me if i may am a stranger to the places you ought to say A wise man once i heard him say : ” Hate can be brutal… But love can disguise in the Best, Worst way “ ignore me as much as you want… for i know my words had drew themselves deep inside your heart Go on to your path my fear for you is now at it last Before you go no goodbyes needed, nor tears to be shed on your leaving Just take what am  about to say and be on your way “If your feet ever stumbled in a masked parade , remember the faces you see in that day… for in that day and that day only people take off their real masks away “.

Even if i never taste the sweetness  of closing those eyes …man is no stranger for hope for it is what keeps us alive

A new year is up ahead I can almost see how it will end Posts filling the web Of how this year will be different and  that they will change Lemme take a minute & i talk behalf everyone else “Bitch please.. u haven’t changed ur pants since 2002 so stop all that crap ‘bout the whole new you ” If u really want to change u don’t do that online …changing your statues from annoyed to Happy to satisfied Get on ur ass and be the change cuz faces are easily changed but the heart is hard to do the same To tell you the truth i really don’t care If u changed or not everything to me will remain the same The one’s who love you for them do the change They were beside u 360 day of the year So i’ll rap this quickly and wish u Happy new year

When you laugh on a show that is on I miss you dad ….it’s simple as that I miss to have someone to have my back I miss the only man who never broke my heart But your gone now nothing will bring you back I say that and cry with every word i write It’s been along time now.. i look at myself and i realized that But deep down am still that little girl who sat on ur lap The day u where gone never left my mind I heard my mom crying and i just knew it in my heart Big plans we had ..me, mom, and dad   How could we tell we’ll loose you like  that Am being tough for you You know me am just like you Life is not fair… no kiddin i learned that Must be grateful for every little thing we have Cuz one day you may end up like me One minute he’s here…the next ur calling & no one answering u back

Looking so Good Laying there still I step closer Just to smell i reach my hand to take a bite But each part of my body telling me it’s not right Ignoring the guilt I tasted it. and i couldn’t care less My trainer voice in my head The weight i will get That bite that i ate to me was better than sex

Loud and clear I hear you steer I look around to the atmosphere Empty beer... lots of junk food to spare Eyes gazing towards in two teams to cheer A Loud bang cuts me while i stare Oh yeah right... it's my turn to take the wheel Now these cheering sounds . will call my name out loud I grab the wheel and hold it tight not to impress.. or to brag about this night But to win that last pizza slice

So my sis faces her laptop 24/7 i was looking at her & wrote this

Cold am feeling Here i am so close to you Please keep me warm you know i love you  Your purple red flames shining through the room…Luring us all to you I decided to leave you and go Yeas i did it… am walking away from you Minute or two… that all it took to go back straight to you..