you do not know, you can only guess

jane's first marriage is literally my roman empire when it comes to the mentalist. i can't stop thinking about it. i have a whole essay in my drafts. angela jane haunts the entire narrative and we have almost no objective facts about what she was really like. the only time she is described in detail is so general that we all thought it was about lisbon. or maybe it's not general? maybe jane seeks out the same traits in the two loves of his life? but then a woman like lisbon wouldn't have stood for the man that jane so clearly was prior to red john. was their marriage happy? unhappy? was it average? is she remembered as she was, or worse, or better? the show is right for refusing to tell us but it haunts me all the same.

what if after job interview you catch a glimpse of the person’s notepad & see they wrote “things have learnt to walk that ought to crawl”

You basically summed up every episode

like the betrayal’s always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didn’t matter. someone discards you because they didn’t give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say “I love you. I would make the same choice again.” You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.