neville has his own moral compass

welcome to my blog

I'm Neve/Neville. this is a blog where i can be wholly myself so no hiding my queerness in shame. I'm slavic (serbian) and speak 5 ish languages at an advanced level. I'm a binary trans man, he/him, and bisexual. I have a whole ass LIST of conditions which i will write below. I'm an artist and writer, and am studying hard to become an english teacher :]

conditions i'm mentioning because i'll probably post about them:

auDHD, BPD, scoliosis, OCD, CPTSD, chronic pain. some others but I lowk forgot. depression and anxiety DUH because they just come with these things. I also have DID, which is a CDD, so yes I am anti-endo, I'll go more into that in my stances.

I'll post about every day stuff, LGBT, art/writing, my conditions, and some politics.

stances

these stances are NOT dni. I'm willing to have discussions about some of these and I'll specify.

• anti-endo "systems". just not scientifically possible with the current disso theories. I'm like 99% sure that most self proclaimed endo systems actually do have a CDD or have another disorder.

• antitheist. I am against the concept of religion and theism, especially organised religion. i could write an essay about the evils of religion; anti-intellectualism, queerphobia, misogyny, forcing one to bend logic and reality, harmful beliefs, idolatry, etc. it's just like mass hysteria to me LOL. that said, if you are an ex-theist or are a theist trying to deconstruct, welcome to my page!

• pro-fiction. no this does not mean I ship children with adults like so many will be quick to assume. yes i agree fiction affects reality. but people proshipping/darkshipping does not hurt the fictional people involved and is a coping mechanism used by many. by some definitions I may be a darkshipper but I use it purely for psychological analysis because i find abnormal psychology interesting :]. HOWEVER if you're some weird shit like a pro contact pedophile then respectfully seek therapy i'm not even kidding. just, as a near adult, it's not my place to tell a 15 year old on the internet to stop trying to rationalise what happened to them through darkshipping, nor do I see a massive problem with it unless the darkshipper isn't aware that the darkship is unhealthy.

• anarcho-communist/anarchist/communist/socialist. yeah I use multiple labels because i'm still learning. if you're a capitalist or a fence sitting liberal... why are you on my page unless you want to become more leftist?

actual DNI

pro contact harmful paraphiles. creeps trying to chase or fetishise me or groups i'm apart of for whatever reason. right wingers/homophobes/transphobes/misogynists unless you've realised you're wrong and want to send in an ask or something and are trying to deconstruct (e.g. "i'm uncomfortable with trans women in the women's bathroom but i don't want to feel that way, how can i get better?"). also dni if you're against any of my stances and are here to just harass me LOL

finally, my closing statement is that i'm NOT SCARY and I'M NOT AN INSANE COMMIE or someone who DARKSHIPS ALL THE TIME (which would be the alright part) AND THINKS THE PAIRINGS ARE FINE IRL (the immoral part)

send in any asks you want, I love people.

and yet it would be lovely for these people not to blame it on trans men for some fucking reason. it's also not cool for people to say it's worse for trans women. as a group and how they're treated in the media? 100% worse for trans women. human rights? it's the same dude. they'll scapegoat trans women but it's not like they're only getting rid of hrt just for trans women, trans men get banned from it too. we're also suffering from a very separate problem, that being absolute goddamn erasure and also transphobes seeing us as little baby pwincesses who have been groomed into being trans identifying females!!!! :'<<<

ironically, our community often does the opposite and assumes we have this ultra alpha male privilege.

dude yeah I pass generally but I am not on testosterone and I still have tits so any cis man with bad intentions can easily make me into a rape victim if he wanted. well, not without me breaking his fucking nose. even most transitioned trans men don't have the level of male privilege that cis men do. we never will. and you really underestimate the amount of pre-transition trans men and the harm we face both from regular transphobia and just the misogyny that comes for free for being born female.

I would never ever say trans men have it worse than trans women, is it a hard ask to not be bludgeoned into being even more erased by telling us that we have it so much better and being constantly told trans women have it worse and to shut up as if we aren't already virtually erased from the media?? I could be homeless in a few months if I start T.

an even harder ask: can we just stop fighting the trauma and oppression olympics? I don't fucking care between a black trans woman or a disabled, trans, queer, jewish man who the more oppressed one is. I hardly see how this is important it's all so convoluted and annoying 😭😭

in fighting for trans rights, we fight for trans men, trans women, intersex people, and non binary people. (along with the rest of the LGBT). so ranking oppression is a waste of time when our ultimate goal is to eliminate all different kinds of oppression.

no. I don't engage in that media. I don't like it and I think it's icky. if i ever engage with it it is not because it gets my dingaling hard but because I think it would be good for psychological analysis (for instance, andrew and ashley from TCOAAL which are a cool exploration of how leaving 2 traumatised siblings together and neglecting their needs can lead to incest.)

however if someone did like that media, I just... don't see where I'd have the right to judge them if it all happens in fiction. the incest that a darkshipper is attracted to doesn't hurt those fictional siblings. ESPECIALLY if the darkshipper is using it as a coping mechanism or some sort of kink thing. people fail to realise how closely related darkship and kink is...

oh no, the fictional sibling is getting assaulted by the other fictional sibling. that's illegal and immoral! but for some reason, it's okay to like alastor from hazbin hotel, even though he's probably massacred thousands. that's illegal too but it doesn't seem like anybody finds issue with that ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

if we're writing based on legality, should I stop writing characters that steal, abuse drugs, jaywalk?

oh again. reminder. being profiction and proship literally says nothing about the media i PERSONALLY consume. if anyone is curious, the most darkship stuff I usually engage in are abusive relationships in general (outside of rape, incest, and pedophilia) so like... ivantill. ☠️

and if rape, incest, or pedophilia comes into play, it's a psychological analysis of the dynamic because I enjoy abnormal psychology, and do not condone both the fictional actions and definitely not real actions. I'm an ENGLISH major!!!!!

yes jealousy can happen and partners might need reassurance and communication. you monoamorous fucks need the same thing. your boyfriend looks at a girl for 3 seconds and you need reassurance he's not cheating.

polyamory hate is the same as any other phobia. you're not used to it, you don't understand it, so you're instantly aversed. it's like a straight person's first time seeing gay porn

I can also say this because I used to be like this except at least I was aware of it and didn't spout my uneducated opinions online, especially not in a disrespectful manner.

not understanding or having concerns about polyamory, or simply feeling an "ick" you can't explain is fine. you can ask and have a discussion. what's not fine is spouting that polyamorous people just lack self control and it's all complicated and "you haven't seen poly work ever irl!!!!"