treat me like everything and nothing

when i say “i want someone to wash me sexually” i don’t mean it like a romantic shower where they wash my hair and back. i mean it like a horse in a wash stall at the barn. tie me up and hose me down, touch me in a way that’s detached and task oriented. scold me for trying to move away from the scrubbing brushes and wandering hands. i’m a dumb animal and this is for my own good after all

i think sadists enjoying what they're doing to me is such a big part of my relationship to masochism. like on an individual level, i do have this fantasy and this want and this need, etc. but on a bigger level, it really is about someone wanting to torture me and play with me and getting off on my cries or my tears or my pain etc.. like that's so special to me

@evilclone2

soft pajama pants are my friend because they make it really easy to grab a girl's ass and/or press your fingers against her perineum while you're making out. in contrast jeans feel like a low level chastity device

handing out flyers to transmascs about estradiol cream (can be used to keep your pussy wet and healthy but without triggering periods or having any feminizing effects) and transfemmes about Cialis (works even post-orchi)

and then telling both to start prep too

new blog same sexual health advocate. since making this post i’ve switched from cialis to topical testosterone cream though.

you can take both. i do both now. testosterone cream once a week, Cialis as needed. might start taking the cialis on a regular schedule too.

Adding along for transfemme folks that in addition to an ED medication to encourage continued use and bloodflow, that topical t-gel is not masculinizing, and helps protect the tissue and reduce atrophy, and help keeps the tissue healthy both pre and post-op. It's the same tissue being repurposed post-op, so it's still at risk of atrophy, so the same stuff can help reduce tissue atrophy. That's right, t-gel is helpful even if you plan on getting a neovagina, because "If you're asking a doctor to fold an origami cat, it's best to bring them the highest quality paper." Healthier tissue is easier to work with and more likely to result in a successful surgery. Similarly, as much as a lot of people find it gender affirming, please think carefully about deliberate long-term use of cock-cages -- those kinds that result in substantial shrinkage. If you're looking to get a neovagina, you'll want to avoid prolonged cock cage use for the same reasons-- less tissue, thinner tissue, atrophied tissue, unhealthy tissue, will have poorer outcomes for surgery. Cock cages and the associated shrinking are GREAT for transfemme folks who want to KEEP their bits/don't want surgery, but want to minimize them, keep them small, and to reduce the dysphoria of a larger, more prominent penis. But they can be a setup for FAILURE if one is trying to get a neovagina constructed. Please be safe, and good luck and much love. World may be spooky, but we're all in this shit together. Rooting for you.

lesbian woman in nitrile exam gloves. and she’s kind of mean. okay?

and she fingers you with a disinterested expression and you cum so hard you start crying and she looks so disgusted but she still lets you lie there shaking. okay?