Nautilus

taking a break from my mental health to focus on watching a tv show

nobody UNDERSTANDS this post!! this is NOT about feeling BAD and watching your COMFORT show!!! this is about feeling FINE but then CHOOSING to watch a show that makes you want to KILL YOUR SELF

The time is nearing (another Black Sails rewatch)

recommending black sails to heated rivalry fans because I don’t give a fuck anymore. ‘what do they even have in common ?’ nothing. nothing at all. i am trying to hurt you.

jack is so. he is brilliant. he is well-read. he is still pining for his father's business and his legacy. he is loyal to a fault. he has a collection of gay little scarfs and weird sideburns. the way he talks is endearing (at least to me). his partner is anne fucking bonny. he loved charles so much. i just. i want him in a jar in my room.

“i asked chatgpt” well i asked jack rackham and– 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒶 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝓇𝓊𝑒. 𝒶 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒾𝓈 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝓇𝓊𝑒. 𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝑒𝓍𝓉𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓈, 𝒾𝓉 𝓂𝒶𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓈 𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈. 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝓌𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓋𝑒… 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝑒𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓈𝓊𝓇𝓋𝒾𝓋𝑒, 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝓅𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓊𝓅𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓋𝒶𝓁 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝓇𝑜𝑔𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓈. 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓈𝑒 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓈𝒽𝒶𝓅𝑒 𝒽𝒾𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎. 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒹𝑜𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓉 𝓂𝒶𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝒻 𝒾𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝓇𝓊𝑒 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝒾𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒷𝑜𝓇𝓃? 𝒾𝓉’𝓈 𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝓇𝓊𝓉𝒽 𝒾𝓃 𝒾𝓉𝓈 𝓂𝒶𝓉𝓊𝓇𝒾𝓉𝓎, 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝒸𝒽 𝒾𝒻 𝒶 𝓋𝒾𝓇𝓉𝓊𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝒶𝓃 𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝓃𝑜 𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝓈𝑜 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈 𝓂𝑒𝓃 𝒸𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓉𝑒. 𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓇𝑒𝓁𝒶𝓉𝑒𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓆𝓊𝑒𝓈𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒻𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎… i’m sorry. remind me, what was your question, specifically?

thinking about charles vane and his big swinging dick tuesday

tell ya what. i love going into the black sails main tag and seeing almost NO posts about vane and/or eleanor which is absolutely HYSTERICAL to me. they are one of if not the most certifiably deranged dynamics in the entire show and no one wants to get within thirty feet of their stinky ugly romance and epic fail breakup. they drive each other to complete madness and back and they bring out the most unhinged behavior the other can possibly muster and it's exactly the kind of toxic relationship tumblr claims to love and want more of but i see literally next to NOTHING for them unless you go in their specific tags and that genuinely tickles the fuck out of me. like is it because they're m/f. is that the reason. does that make them boring by default. because i disagree with that and hate it if that's the case but oh my g-d they're so fucked up like i have to laugh when she beats the shit out of his face and screams at the wall and calls him an animal when he's kinda not wrong about the person her dad was. to be completely clear i think they both fucking suck as people and that's what makes this work and their whole arc was chewed on by a rabid animal and it kind of bangs to be honest. like. if you like to watch people at their worst and watch them crash and burn and yet still be able to identify the soul-crushing personhood-shaping Love that absolutely existed somewhere in the midst of the blood-churning hatred they also harbored for one another at the same time. they're right there. tell me that's not fascinating. i am so fucking grateful that no one wants to talk about it.

I think this post might make me re-watch Balck Sails with Vane/Eleanor glasses on, op is speaking only truth