[distressed goat noises]

doing anything is hard when you’re depressed but sitting around in apathy ain’t gonna help. get the fuck up. seriously. do one thing. open the curtains. dust your monitor. throw away those leftovers in the fridge from last week. clean the bathroom sink. its an ocean of bullshit and you need to swim. break the cycle of misery and guilt and apathy so you can get better. its hard. do it anyway. recovery starts with breaking the cycle. baby steps, but steps.

it’s not ableist or anything to tell someone with depression to do something. look. it’s hard. it sucks. but you wont get better if you don’t do anything. depression is a cycle. you dont have energy to do things, so things dont get done, so you feel guilty, which makes you more depressed, with less energy, and so on. but you can’t recover if you dont start. you can’t get help without getting it. that’s a verb! you need to do it! do something! break the cycle and you’ll start to recover. it’s a long, difficult process, and you can’t do it alone, and you might need medication and therapy, but you can’t get on the road to recovery if you’re staying inside with the curtains closed. you can’t even open the curtains without taking baby steps. you can’t take baby steps until you stand up. so stand up.

Also to add to this working out is amazing for your depression. it’s not going to cure it all at once but it’s a great way to let out steam. Write, study, jog, ride your bike, walk your dogs…every little bit counts.

…Rider-Waite tarot but this dude walks in front of every single scene and tells you what to think of it like he’s a Twilight Zone narrator.

Every time I make a post condemning transphobia, I lose followers. So take this post as a transphobe filter because I’m just gonna say that if you’re a transphobe you should hit unfollow. 

One of my favourite parts of working with kids is like… Very Gently subverting their idea of gendered topics… Like if a girl goes ‘no, sharks are a boy thing’ and you go “UM ACTUALLY THATS STUPID AND INCORRECT” they get freaked out, but if instead u go “Are you sure? Cause I think sharks are awesome, here’s a scale picture of a Megalodon” it’ll blow their tiny mind and they’ll be shitting themselves over it for days. 100% effective, 10/10 recommend

the worst memories of being bullied is when ppl would pretend not to be bullying you and ask you questions and u thought they were just asking u stuff but they were actually laughing at you the entire time and u had no idea bcos you were young and you didnt understand why people would be mean to you when you didnt do anything wrong. 

I spent a lot of my childhood in a constant state of “this is a trap but I don’t know how”

It fucks you up permanently, I still have trust issues whenever someone I don’t know too well is being too nice to me

Questioning ur gender as an afab person is hard bc ur like do I genuinely identify as Not A Woman or do I just not identify with the negative images of women that have been shoved at me since I was born? Like do I not like being referred to as a girl because that really isn’t who I am or is it because being connected to femininity comes along with some not great associations? And then there’s the question of am I really Not a Woman or am I just butch/futch? And then u get into questioning what gender even is to begin with. What is gender? What is masculinity? What is femininity? Is there anything inherent to either of them, or is it all socially constructed bullshit? Does gender actually exist?? If not, then what the fuck is my relationship with gender?

anyway why is archery so fucking sexy

Maybe gay people like the concept of knights because 1.) swords are cool but also because 2.) the ideals of courtly love as quasi-religious, enlightening, but also expressly forbidden - and maybe a little bit out of reach - resonate as a poetic, romanticized version of their own experiences.

listening to MIKA is both gay culture and self care