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Paul McCartney giggles his way through singing "Sitting on a woody-pecker/ sucking on a lollypoppa... everytime I try to do it/My whole darn tongue gets tired"
Transcript of Paul McCartney and Donovan recorded during the sessions for Mary Hopkinās Postcard LP as heard on the āNo. 3 Abbey Road N.W. 8ā bootleg CD.Ā (reproduced fromĀ https://davidgray101.tripod.com/PaulandDonovan.htmlĀ )
Fade in,Ā PaulĀ playing acoustic guitar and singingĀ How Do You Do?. Paul:Ā (singing)How to suck a lollypopper, Sitting on aĀ woodypecker, Dancing in the double-deckerĀ shoe, (Donovan snickers, presumably at Paulās nonsensical lyrics) (note, this is the writers assumption that what Donovan is laughing about is the 'nonsensical lyrics' and not the innuendo) I donāt know,
How do you do?
Paul and Donovan:(singing together) How to suck a lollypopper,
Sitting on aĀ woodypecker,
Dancing in the double-deckerĀ shoe,
I donāt know,
So, how do you do?
Donovan attempts to harmonize on the last word, ādoā, but hits a sour note, causing both him and Paul to laugh. Paul carries on alone.
Paul:Ā (singing) I donāt know how you do it,
Lordy, knows I try,
But every time I try to do it,
My whole darn tongue gets tied
Regarding āHow Do You Doā John C Winn writes in āThat Magic Feelingā
As the tapeĀ opens, Paul is singing what appears to be a nursery rhyme of hisĀ own creation āHow Do You Doā,, although the lyrics about āsucking on aĀ lollipopperā and āsitting on a woody peckerā can be taken moreĀ than one way!Ā Donovan harmonizes in spots, and Paul does aĀ double-time impression of the song as Danny Kaye might performĀ it.
(yes, Paul singing about sucking and sitting on phallic objects can definitely be taken in more than one way!)
I can only take it in one way, myself.
The Beatles meeting Fats Domino, New Orleans, 16 September 1964; photos by Curt Gunther.
ā[Fats Domino] was sweet, just like a little boy. On the tours we liked to listen to Tamla Motown: Marvin Gaye and the others. Stevie Wonder was just coming around in those days, and Ray Charles weād liked from the Fifties. We were also meeting people like Chuck Berry and Carl Perkins.ā - George Harrison, The Beatles Anthology (x)
āāThe main thing that really buzzed me, even before I heard Elvis, was āŖFats Dominoā¬ās āIām In Love Again,āā says Harrison. āI can even see exactly where I was when I heard that. There was this little place near where I was born called Wavertree, a district. And right at that point thereās a thing called the Picton Clock Tower, this tower in the middle of the road with this clock on it, and then nearby there used to be this old art-deco cinema called the Abbey. I was just walking across the road there when I heard āŖFats Dominoā¬: Yes itās me and Iām in love again! It must have been on a radio or a record player somewhere. And it touched somewhere deep in me.āā - Billboard, 1992 (x)

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Quotes about John Lennonās sexuality
Link to masterpost of quote compilations
John's (internalized) homophobia: Starting with this topic to provide context & contrast to the rest of this post
At the party the boysā old friend Bob Wooler, the Cavern emcee, made a crack to John about his holiday. John, whoād had plenty to drink, exploded. He leapt on Bob, and by the time he was dragged off Bob had a black eye and badly bruised ribs. I took John home as fast as I could, and Brian drove Bob to the hospital.
I was appalled that John had lashed out again. Iād thought those days were over. But John was still livid, muttering that Bob had called him a queer.
Cynthia Lennon, John
[Bob Wooler had] insinuated that me and Brian had had an affair in Spain. I was out of me mind with drink. You know, when you get down to the point where you want to drink out of all the empty glasses, that drunk. And he was saying, āCome on, John, tell meā āĀ something like that āĀ āTell me about you and Brian, we all know.ā And obviously I must have been frightened of the fag in me to get so angry. You know, when youāre twenty-one, you want to be a man, and all that. If somebody said it now, I wouldnāt give a shit.
John Lennon, John Lennon: For The Record, Peter McCabe and Robert D Schonfeld
āThe Beatlesā first national coverage was me beating up Bob Wooler at Paulās 21st party because he intimated I was homosexual. I must have had a fear that maybe I was homosexual to attack him like that and itās very complicated reasoning. But I was very drunk and I hit him and I could have really killed somebody then. And that scared me⦠That was in the Daily Mirror, it was the back pageā¦ā
John Lennon, talking about a (one sided) fight he had with Cavern DJ Bob Wooler at Paulās 21st birthday party in 1963.
Everyone in Liverpool knew that Epstein was gay, and some kid in the audience screamed, āJohn Lennonās a fucking queer!ā And John ā who never wore his glasses on stage ā put his guitar down and went into the crowd, shouting, āWho said that?ā So this kid says, āI fucking did.ā John went after him and BAM, gave him the Liverpool kiss, sticking the nut on him ā twice! And the kid went down in a mass of blood, snot and teeth. Then John got back on the stage. āAnybody else?ā he asked. Silence. āAll right then. āSome Other Guyā.āā
Lemmy Kilmister, White Line Fever: The Biography. (2004)
āVictim in 1961 was one of the first British films to deal properly and thoughtfully with the subject. Dirk Bogarde welcomed the opportunity to play the homosexual barrister, and there were some very tense scenes between him and his wife, Sylvia Syms. In one scene, Dirk Bogarde lifts his garage door at the back of the mews to discover that someone has painted graffiti about him on the wall. The Beatles were sitting together at a Cavern lunchtime session and John Lennon, who was talking to Paul and George, was making biting remarks about Victim, which was on at the Odeon. I knew by then that Brian was what he was, and I thought, āWell, I am surprised at John, who is 21 and a young man of the world.ā He was making such nasty, puritanical observations, but I never said anything as they didnāt know that I was listening.ā
Bob Wooler, c/o Spencer Leigh, The Best of Fellas: The Story of Bob Wooler. (2002)
If somebody is going to manage me, I want to know them inside out. He told me he was a fag.
Ā I like āHonky Tonk Womanā but I think Mickās a joke, with all that fag dancing, I always did
I think its concept is revolutionary, and I hope itās for workers and not for tarts and fags.
I donāt know about the āhistoryā; the people who are in control and in power, and the class system and the whole bullshit bourgeoisie is exactly the same, except there is a lot of fag middle class kids with long, long hair walking around London in trendy clothes
I donāt dig that junkie fag scene he lives in; I donāt know whether he lives like that or what.
Casual homophobia in Lennon Remembers (Notable for the increase in homophobic language post-primary scream therapy, here is some interesting speculation about how these two things are related)
The violence that had been building inside John Lennon all night came bursting out the moment he left the studio. It struck so fast and unexpectedly that it stunned May Pang. She recalled that John was walking unsteadily toward the parking lot when suddenly he cast a drunken look over his shoulder at Jesse Ed Davis. Running over to him, Lennon gave Jesse Ed a passionate kiss on the mouth. Not to be outdone, Jesse Ed grabbed John and kissed him back. Lennon screamed, āF****t!ā ā and knocked Jesse flat on his ass.
The Lives of John Lennon by Albert Goldman (May Pang, describing an incident during the recording of Rock 'n' Roll in 1973: p.564)
It turned into a full-on fight. John was incredibly strong! He got me in some kind of a hold behind my back that I could not get out of, like a full nelson. And he started to kiss me on the mouth! He was laughinā and kissinā me on the mouth. I was strugglinā to git away and I couldnāt git away. Then he stuck his tongue in my mouth. God! So I bit him. Bit him on the tongue. That pissed him off. So he grabbed the marble ashtray that we couldnāt break and banged me on the head. Knocked me cold.
The Lives of John Lennon by Albert Goldman (a direct quote from Jesse Ed Davis about a different night: p. 576-577)
Alternatively, he could be openly supportive:
Why make it sad to be gay? Doing your thing is O.K. Our bodies our own So leave us alone Go play with yourself ā today.
A poem submitted for Len Richmond and Gary Noguera's Gay Liberation Handbook, on 30 May 1972
John spreading rumours: John (and Yoko) had a propensity for intentionally spreading rumours about his sexuality, with many people claiming that he found it funny. Multiple people refused to believe his own words about his experiences or willingness with men.
John told me he had had a one-night stand with Brian, on a holiday with him in Spain, when Brian had invited him out, a few days after the birth of Julian in 1963, leaving Cyn alone. I mentioned this brief holiday in the book, but not what John had alleged had taken place. Partly, I didn't really believe it, though John was daft enough to try almost anything once. John was certainly not homosexual, and this boast, or lie, would have given the wrong impression. It was also not fair on Cynthia, his then wife.
Hunter Davies, The Beatles: The Authorised Biography (updated edition, 2010)
John himself said he finally allowed Brian to make love to him āto get it out of the way.ā Those who knew John well, who had known him for years, donāt believe it for a moment. John was aggressively heterosexual and had never given a hint that he was anything but.
Tony Bramwell, Magical Mystery Tours: My Life With The Beatles, 2014
John roared with laughter at the rumours that began afterwards. Typically, he encouraged the stories that he and Brian were gay lovers because he thought it was funny and John was one of the worldās great wind-up merchants. He told me afterwards in one of our frankest heart-to-hearts that Brian never seriously did proposition him. He had teased Brian about the young men he kept gazing at and the odd ones who had found their way to his room. Brian had joked to John about the women who hurled themselves at him. āIf heād asked me, I probably would have done anything he wanted. I was so much in awe of Brian then Iād have tried a night of vice-versa. But he never wanted me like that. Sure, I took the mickey a bit and pretended to lead him on. But we both knew we were joking.
Alistair Taylor, With The Beatles, 2003
Years later, John finally came clean about what had happened: not to anyone whoād been around at the time, but to the unshockable woman with whom he shared the last decade of his life. He said that one night during the trip, Brian had cast aside shyness and scruples and finally come on to him, but that heād replied, āIf you feel like that, go out and find a hustler.ā Afterward, he had deliberately fed Pete Shotton the myth of his brief surrender, so that everyone would believe his power over Brian to be absolute.
Philip Norman, John Lennon: The Life, 2008
The next night Elliot [Mintz] took us out with a friend of his, Sal Mineo, and we all went to a gay cabaret/discotheque. John was oblivious to the gay ambience. He was curious about everyoneās sexuality and liked to gossip about who was sleeping with whom, whether they were gay or straight. John made no judgements about homosexuality but was really curious about who was and who wasnāt gay.
He knew that his appearance at a gay club might start rumors about his own sexuality, and it made him laugh. He told me that there had been rumors about him and his first manager, Brian Epstein, and that he usually didnāt deny them. He liked the fact that people could be titillated by having suspicions about his masculinity. Then I was the one who was laughing. āHow could anyone believe a man who likes women as much as you do is gay?ā I told him.
May Pangās Loving John (1983).
Q. Have you ever fucked a guy?
A. Not yet, I thought Iād save it til I was 40, life begins at 40 you know, tho I never noticed it.
Q. It is trendy to be bisexual and youāre usually ākeeping up with the Jonesā, havenāt you ever⦠there was talk about you and PAULā¦
A. Oh, I thought it was about me and Brian Epstein⦠anyway, Iām saving all the juice for my own version of THE REAL FAB FOUR BEATLES STORY etc.. etc..
John Lennon self interview for Andy Warholās Interview Magazine (November 1974).
John: Yes, all your best friends let you know what's going on. I was trying to put it 'round that I was gay, you know-- I thought that would throw them off... dancing at all the gay clubs in Los Angeles, flirting with the boys... but it never got off the ground.
Q: I think I've only heard that lately about Paul.
John: Oh, I've had him, he's no good. [Laughter]
John Lennon, interviewed by Lisa Robinson for Hit Parader: A conversation with John Lennon (December 1975).
āItās great,ā Ono laughs. āI mean, both John and I thought it was good that people think we were bisexual, or homosexual.ā She laughs again.
āUh, well, the story I was told was a very explicit story, and from that I think they didnāt have it [sex],ā Ono tells me. āBut they went to Spain, and when they came back, tons of reporters were asking, āDid you do it, did you do it?ā So he said, āI did it.ā Isnāt that amazing? But of course he would say that. Iām sure Brian Epstein made a move, yeah.ā
And Lennon said no to Epstein?
āHe just didnāt want to do it, I think.ā
Yoko Ono: I Still Fear Johnās Killer by Tim Teeman for the Daily Beast (13 October 2015).
Over dinner the Wenners learned the secrets of the Beatles kingdom from Ono, who would often suggest to Wenner that John Lennon was gay. āSheās always hinted that there was some gay component to John,ā said Wenner, ābut in a vague or generalized way, like, āIsnāt everybody gay?ā Or, āI always told John he was gay.āāā (She also told McCartney this theory after Lennon died, which he didnāt believe.)ā
Joe Hagan, Sticky Fingers: The Life and Times of Jann Wenner & Rolling Stone Magazine. (2017)
On the other hand, he supposedly hated the rumours:
Claims have been made since that Brian and John had a gay relationship. Nothing could be further from the truth. John was a hundred per cent heterosexual and, like most lads at that time, horrified by the idea of homosexuality.
It was a holiday John came to regret because it sparked off a string of rumours about his relationship with Brian. He had to put up with sly digs, winks and innuendo that he was secretly gay. It infuriated him: all he'd wanted was a break with a friend, but it was turned into so much more.
Cynthia Lennon, John, 2005
And I just went on holiday. I watched Brian picking up the boys. I like playing a bit faggy, all that. It was enjoyable, but there were big rumours in Liverpool, it was terrible. Very embarrassing. Rumors about you and Brian? Oh, fuck knowsāyes, yes. I was pretty close to Brian because if somebody's going to manage me, I want to know them inside out.
John Lennon, Jann S. Wenner, Lennon Remembers, 1970
Unfortunately, certain Liverpool acquaintances (who had no way of knowing that there was a kernel of truth to their allegations) wouldn't let John hear the end of it. All in good fun, no doubt, but John was still too enamored of his macho self-image to take lightly any inference that he was anything less than 100 percent heterosexual.
The Beatles, Lennon, and me - Pete Shotton
John's comments about his sexuality:
Itās just handy to fuck your best friend. Thatās what it is. And once I resolved the fact that it was a woman as well, itās all right. We go through the trauma of life and death every day so itās not so much of a worry about what sex we are anymore.
John Lennon, interview w/ Jonathan Cott for Rolling Stone: Yoko Ono and her sixteen-track voice. (March 18th, 1971)
I just realized that [Yoko] knew everything I knew, and more, probably, and it was coming out of a womanās head. It just sort of bowled me over, you know? And it was like finding gold or something. To find somebody that you can go and get pissed with, and have exactly the same relationship as any mate in Liverpool youād ever had, but also you could go to bed with him, and it could stroke your head when you felt tired, or sick, or depressed. It could also be Mother. And obviously, thatās what the male-female ā you know, you could take those roles with each other.
John Lennon, interview w/ Peter McCabe and Robert D. Schonfeld c/o Peter McCabe and Robert D. Schonfeld, John Lennon: For The Record. (September 5th, 1971)
Itās a plus, itās not a minus. The plus is that your best friend, also, can hold you without⦠I mean, Iām not a homosexual, or we could have had a homosexual relationship and maybe that would have satisfied it, with working with other male artists. [faltering] An artist ā itās more ā itās much better to be working with another artist of the same energy, and thatās why thereās always been Beatles or Marx Brothers or men, together. Because itās alright for them to work together or whatever it is. Itās the same except that we sleep together, you know? I mean, not counting love and all the things on the side, just as a working relationship with her, it has all the benefits of working with another male artist and all the joint inspiration, and then we can hold hands too, right?
John Lennon, interview w/ Sandra Shevey. (Mid-June?, 1972)
I was on holiday with Brian Epstein in Spain, where the rumours went around that he and I were having a love affair. Well, it was almost a love affair, but not quite. It was never consummated. But it was a pretty intense relationship. It was my first experience with a homosexual that I was conscious was homosexual. He had admitted it to me. We had this holiday together because Cyn was pregnant, and I went to Spain and there were lots of funny stories. We used to sit in a cafe in Torremolinos looking at all the boys and Iād say, āDo you like that one, do you like this one?ā I was rather enjoying the experience, thinking like a writer all the time: I am experiencing this, you know.
John Lennon, Rolling Stone, 1980
I was thinking, if only I could get out of Liverpool, be famous and rich, that would be great. Iāve always wanted to be a famous artist, you know? Possibly Iād have to marry a very rich old lady⦠or man, you know⦠to⦠to look after me while I did my art. But then Rock & Roll came and I thought āAh, this is the oneā, so I didnāt have to marry anybody or live with them, you know?
John Lennon interview
There was even some discussion, albeit not very serious, of whether he should stick to his own gender. āJohn said āIt would hurt you like crazy if I made it with a girl. With a guy, maybe you wouldnāt be hurt, because thatās not competition. But I canāt make it with a guy because I love women too much, and Iād have to fall in love with the guy and I donāt think I can.āā
John Lennon: The Life
I look at early pictures of meself, and I was torn between being Marlon Brando and being the sensitive poet ā the Oscar Wilde part of me with the velvet, feminine side. I was always torn between the two, mainly opting for the macho side, because if you showed the other side, you were dead.
John Lennon, December 5th, 1980
āJohn believed in my work as an artist wasnāt accepted in part because I am a woman. He got angry when people said about me, āSheās not a woman, sheās a female impersonator.ā John said to me, āIf I had been gay and gotten together with a guy who was talented like you, after ten years that guy would have become famous as an artist in his own right. Maybe we should come out and say, āActually, Yoko is a guy.ā Maybe that will do it!ā
Yoko Ono, interview w/ Jon Wiener, c/o Jon Wiener, Come Together: John Lennon In His Time. (1984)
In this intense, intimate and revealing original cassette recording of a private conversation in 1969 between John Lennon and Yoko Ono, the couple speaks primarily about Yokoās past relationships, her music and art, and their random views on sex, love, promiscuity, and homosexuality. [ā¦] [Lennon] adds that he had never met an attractive woman that had sexually aroused him to any great degree.
Description of the 45-minute audiotape auctioned in 2009 by Alexander Autographs.
Yoko's comments about his sexuality:
āWell, thatās another thing. John and I had a big talk about it, saying, basically, all of us must be bisexual. And we were sort of in a situation of thinking that weāre not [bisexual] because of society. So we are hiding the other side of ourselves, which is less acceptable. But I donāt have a strong sexual desire towards another woman.ā
Did Lennon have sex with other men?
āI think he had a desire to, but I think he was too inhibited,ā says Ono.
āNo, not inhibited. He said, āI donāt mind if thereās an incredibly attractive guy.ā Itās very difficult: They would have to be not just physically attractive, but mentally very advanced too. And you canāt find people like that.ā
So did Lennon ever have sex with men?
āNo, I donāt think so,ā says Ono. āThe beginning of the year he was killed, he said to me, āI could have done it, but I canāt because I just never found somebody that was that attractive.ā Both John and I were into attractivenessāyou knowābeauty.ā
Yoko Ono: I Still Fear Johnās Killer by Tim Teeman for the Daily Beast (13 October 2015).
"As mild and oblique as the comment was [Paul's "You took your lucky break and broke it in two" line from "Too Many People"], it seemed to cut John to the heart. On top of the questionnaire inside theMcCartney album and the lawsuit, it was like the tipping point between a divorcing couple that turns love into savage, no-holds-barred hostility. Indeed, John's wounded anger was more that of an ex-spouse than ex-colleague, reinforcing a suspicion already in Yoko's mind that his feelings for Paul had been far more intense than the world at large ever guessed. From chance remarks he had made, she gathered there had even been a moment where - on the principle that bohemians should try everything - he had contemplated an affair with Paul, but had been deterred by Paul's immovable heterosexuality. Nor, apparently, was Yoko the only one to have picked up on this. Around Apple, in her hearing, Paul would sometimes be called John's princess. She had also once heard a rehearsal tape with John's voice calling out "Paul ... Paul ... " in a strangely subservient, pleading way. "I knew there was something going on there," she remembers. "From his point of view, not from Paul's. And he was so angry at Paul, I couldn't help wondering what it was really about.""
Philip Norman, John Lennon: The Life, 2008
Iām sure that if he had been a woman or something, he would have been a great threat, because thereās something definitely very strong with me, John, and Paul.
Yoko Ono, Revolution Tape, June 4th 1968
Friends & acquaintances comments on his sexuality:
I realised I was probably bisexual; there was nothing to be ashamed of in this ā John Lennon had reputedly spoken to mutual friends of his own experiments.
Who I Am: A Memoir, Pete Townshend 2012
PAUL: There were lots of people asking cheeky questions, and they were always saying, āWell, whyāhave you ever tried homosexuality, John?ā You know, they always used to ask all that kind of stuff. I remember John saying to them, āNo, Iāve never met a fella I fancy enough.ā And that was his kind of opinion. You know, āI may goāI may be gay one day, if some fella really turns me on.ā He wasāhe was that open about it. But as far as I was concerned, I slept in a million hotel roomsāas we all didāslept in a million places with John, and there was never any hint of it.
December 24th, 1983: interview with DJ Roger Scott
āAnd you, Icke?ā asked Paul. āWhoās your favourite author?ā āHenry Miller. I think heās very good,ā I said. In that moment John suddenly looked over at me. Until then he had been watching Bettina, the bar lady, rinsing glasses and tidying up the bar, with his typical somewhat blasĆ© expression. Our discussion hadnāt seemed to interest him much. Now he was looking directly into my eyes. Quietly and without taking his eyes off me, he walked around the whole counter over to me, planted a kiss on my mouth and went back to his spot. At first, I was quite surprised and didnāt know what to do about it, then I found it rather funny and thought little of it. A few days later, it happened again. I happened upon* him in the hallway behind the stage and again he took my hand and kissed me. At some point the thought occurred to me, āman, he thinks Iām gay, but I canāt help him with that.ā What was really going on, I donāt know. Maybe he meant the kisses as overtures; he was even treated as a closet case by homosexuals.
Hans-Walther (Icke) Braun (a friend of the Beatles in Hamburg)
"What happened," John explained, "is that Eppy just kept on and on at me. Until one night I finally just pulled me trousers down and said to him: 'Oh, for Christ's sake, Brian, just stick it up me fucking arse then.' "And he said to me, 'Actually, John, I don't do that kind of thing. That's not what I like to do.' "'Well,' I said, 'what is it you want to do, then?' "And he said, 'I'd really just like to touch you, John.' "And so I let him toss me off." And that was that. End of story. "That's all, John?" I said. "Well, so what? What's the big fucking deal, then?" "Yeah, so fucking what! The poor bastard. He's having a fucking hard enough time anyway." This was in reference to the "butch" dockers who, on several recent occasions, had rewarded Brian's advances by beating him to a bloody pulp. "So what harm did it do, then, Pete, for fuck's sake?" John asked rhetorically. "No harm at all. The poor fucking bastard, he can't help the way he is." "No need to get so worked up," I said. "You know I don't give a shit. What's a fucking wank between friends anyway?"
Pete Shotton, Nicholas Schaffner, John Lennon: In My Life, 1983
I think he was trying to find himself a⦠what heād call a soulmate. Someone who had as mad ideas as he had. I think he felt that she had the talent⦠but thatās debatable. But he needed thatā he didnāt need a āmumsieā partner at that point. He needed a mate. And I think he actually said, at some stage, in an interview that, you knowā Sheās the nearest thing to a man ā a mate; man ā that heās ever had in a woman.
Cynthia Lennon, interviewed by Alex Belfield for BBC Radio (2006).
Paul wrote to me from the Star Club in Hamburg once, a great letter, it even had doodles on the front of it, but it was stolen. He said that in one of the clubs one night John Lennon ended up with a stunning, exotic-looking womanāonly to discover on closer inspection that she was a he, which all the other Beatles found hilarious.
Sue Johnston (actress), The Mirror. (August 23rd, 2011)
Though raised amid the same homophobia as his companions, John seemed totally unshocked by St Pauliās abundant drag scene; indeed, he often seemed actively to seek it out. āThere was one particular club he used to like,ā Tony Sheridan remembers, āfull of these big guys with hairy hands, deep voicesāand breasts. But they used to make an effort to talk English. There was something about the place that seemed to make John feel at home.ā
In John Lennon: The Life by Philip Norman (2008).
āWeād read all these things about leather and we didnāt have any leather but I had my oilskins and we had some polythene bags from somewhere. We all dressed up in them and wore them in bed. John stayed the night with us in the same bed. I donāt think anything very exciting happened and we all wondered what the fun was in being ākinkyā. It was probably more my idea than Johnās.ā
Royston Ellis
In the same book Pauline speculates, sensationally, that John and her brother had a homosexual relationship. āI have known in my heart for many years that Stuart and John had a sexual relationship,ā she writes, though she fails to provide any firm evidence. Pauline wonders whether this ārelationshipā was the real cause of the antagonism between Paul and Stu.
Fab, An Intimate Life of Paul McCartney
Journalist & author comments on his sexuality:
āNo, he wasnāt sexually attracted to Paul. Paul was very very pretty, but he actually wasnāt someone who made gay men fancy him. John was much more likely to make a gay man like Brian Epstein because John seemed so straight, there was nothing sort of girly about John at all. But John wanted to be, in his mind, a real artist, that is someone who painted and did sculpture. And he thought that a real artist or he called it a bohemian, should be open to all experiences. He should perhaps have a homosexual experience. Who was around? Paul was around. They used to share beds you know, in these cheap hotels when they would go around with the Beatles. There was never any question of Paul ever reciprocating such a thing, it was merely a thought that according to Yoko had flitted across Johnās mind. Now John could use sexuality, I mean he did somewhat play on the fact that Brian Epstein, the Beatles manager, was in love with him you know, but it was just a game really with John.ā
Philip Norman interview
"Yet even [John's resentment over Paul announcing the breakup first] does not explain his later remark to Yoko that no one had ever hurt him the way Paul hurt him. It almost suggests that, deep beneath the schoolboy friendship and the complementary musical brilliance, lay some streak of homosexual adoration that John himself never realised. He might have longed to get away from Paul, but he could never quite get over him."
Philip Norman, Shout!, 1981
And any mention of Paul brought a wintry bleakness to her face. 'John always used to say,' [Yoko] told me at one point, 'that no one ever hurt him the way Paul hurt him.' The words suggested a far deeper emotional attachment between the two than the world had ever suspected---they were like those of a spurned lover---and I naturally included them in my account of my visit for the Sunday Times. After it appeared, I returned to my London flat one evening to be told by my then girlfriend, āPaul, phoned you.ā She said he wanted to know what Yoko had meant and that heād seemed upset rather than angry.
Paul McCartney: The Life - Philip Norman.
āIf you had a choice, Eppy,ā John said, āif you could press a button and be hetero, would you do it?ā Brian thought for a moment. āStrangely, no,ā he said. A little later a peculiar game developed. John would point out some passing man to Brian, and Brian would explain to him what it was about the fellow that he found attractive or unattractive. āI was rather enjoying the experience,ā John said, āthinking like a writer all the time: I am experiencing this.ā And still later, back in their hotel suite, drunk and sleepy from the sweet Spanish wine, Brian and John undressed in silence. āItās okay, Eppy,ā John said, and lay down on his bed. Brian would have liked to have hugged him, but he was afraid. Instead, John lay there, tentative and still, and Brian fulfilled the fantasies he was so sure would bring him contentment, only to awake the next morning as hollow as before.
Peter Brown, The Love You Make, 1983
ā[John and Janov] talkedā¦about Brian Epsteinā¦āHe knew Brian had adored him, and there was a lot of guilt there about the way he'd depended on Brian yet mistreated him,ā Janov recalls. They talked about John's notorious Spanish holiday with Brian in 1963 and the (to John) insignificant physical encounter that had resulted. The more Janov heard about Brian, the more he longed to have had him as a patient. āGod, that was a tragic story. There was someone who needed therapy even more than John did.āā
Phillip Normans book, John Lennon: The Life.
Whilst the Beatles had always been marketed as a heterosexual group - in contrast with the Stones, whose image was androgynous - they were sympathetic to the homosexual population. Lennon himself was alleged to have had affairs with both men and women, and although he never openly admitted it to me, his condemnation of Britain as a land which feeds on a homosexual subsculture persuades me at this late stage that he was speaking from experience. I am sure that the break-up of the Beatles, or, more specifically, of John and Paul, must have been more traumatic than any of us suspect.
Sandra Shevey, The Other Side of Lennon
āOK: John Reid said that when we were in Boston with Elton and John in 1974, he couldnāt resist asking John whether the rumours about him and Epstein were true. This was in response to John having said to John Reid, āYouāre the most intimidating man Iāve met since Brian Epstein.ā And so John Reid, never knowingly one to miss an opportunity, said, āDid you ever have sex with Brian?ā And John said, āTwice. Once to see what it was like, and once to make sure I didnāt like it.ā āAll these years, by the way, I have not wanted to be the guy who declared, āJohn Lennon and Brian Epstein had sex.ā You can appreciate how I feel about this. Do we want the historical record to be accurate, or does John have a right to privacy? And would it upset Cynthia [by now deceased], or Julian? I donāt mind about Yoko, sheād probably think it was a great idea. Bisexuality, wooh.ā āSimon Napier-Bell said that both Epstein and John told him they did it in Spain,ā I said. āAh, Iām not the only one. Good,ā replied Paul.
...
But then there were Johnās liaisons with David Bowie, which David himself told me about. According to him, it happened on several occasions. He didnāt go into detail, nor did I press him, but he was perfectly open about it. About Mick Jagger, too, I told Paul. āHuh. I feel sort of left out,ā said Paul.
Paul Gambaccini, Lesley-Ann Jones - The Search for John Lennon
"That Bowie worshipped Lennon was no secretā¦They'd met in Los Angeles, [Bowie] told me, during John's Lost Weekendā¦The crazy pair went out to play, according to David, when John was on yet another break from May [Pang] and far away from Yoko. They gender bendered about, John indulging again that 'inner fag' of his⦠They later 'hooked up': 'There was a whore in the middle, and it wasn't either of us,' David smirked. 'At some point in the proceedings, she left. I think it was a she. Not that we minded.' By the time they made it back to New York, the ambisextrous pair were 'lifelong friends!"
Lesley-Ann Jones - The Search for John Lennon
Marriage, Divorce & replacing Paul with Yoko:
"I used my resentment and withdrawing from Paul and the Beatles and the relationship with Paul to write 'How Do You Sleep?'
John (Source: Bill Harry, The John Lennon Encyclopedia, 2001)
JOHN: In a marriage, or a love affair ā when the seven-year-itch or the twelve-year (note: there is no such thing as the twelve year itch but guess how long J&P were together) or whatever these things that you have to go through ā there comes a point where the marriage collapses because they canāt face that reality, and they go seeking what they thought they should be having, still, somewhere else. I get a new girl, itāll all be like that again; I get a new boy⦠But for all marriages, all couples, itāll all be the same again. But what you lose is what you put into that⦠relationship.
September, 1980
There seem to be certain cycles that relationships go through. And the critical points are at different parts of the different cycles, different points on the ā if thereās a straight line, there are different points, you know? And the bit, the new way of talking is like, āWell, why have a relationship? We can just stop and get another one.ā But the karmic joke about that is, that any new relationship, presuming youāre lucky enough to find a new relationship anywhere near the relationship that youāre giving up ā or exchanging, or walking away from, or have destroyed by inattention or inadvertent or selfishness or whatever it is ā that you have to go through the same thing again anyway. You reach the same point.
John Lennon, interview w/ David Sheff for Playboy. (September, 1980)
"I'd like to thank Elton and the boys for having me on tonight. We tried to think of a number to finish off with so I can get out of here and be sick, and we thought we'd do a number of an old estranged fiancƩ of mine called Paul."
John, introducing "I Saw Her Standing There" at the Thanksgiving show at Madison Square Garden in 1974
You know, John loved Paul. No doubt about it. I remember once he said to me, āIām the only person whoās allowed to say things like that about Paul. I donāt like it when other people do.ā He didnāt like if other people said nasty things about Paul. And he always referred to Paul as his estranged fiancĆ© and things like that, like he did on that [live] record āI Saw Her Standing Thereā with Elton in Madison Square Garden.
1990: Former Beatles publicist Tony King
TRYNKA: When The Beatles split, did you feel relief? YOKO: No. I always thought, āJohn wonāt be doing this thing with The Beatles and eventually I can do my work too.ā That was my plan. But suddenly heās saying, āI burned my bridge with them, so now itās you, okay?ā I thought, āMy God, he was getting the thrill of working with three very strong individuals, and now I have to take all that brunt.ā He did put it that way; he was āriding on the boat called Paul, and now Iām going to ride on a boat called Yoko.ā
Yoko Ono, interview w/ Paul Trynka for MOJO. (May, 2003)
ā. . . I mean, I think really what it was, really all that happened was that John fell in love. With Yoko. And so, with such a powerful alliance like that, it was difficult for him to still be seeing me. It was as if I was another girlfriend, almost. Our relationship was a strong relationship. And if he was to start a new relationship, he had to put this other one away. And I understood that. I mean, I couldnāt stand in the way of someone whoād fallen in love. You canāt say, āWhoās this?ā You canāt really do that. If I was a girl, maybe I could go out and⦠But you know I mean in this case I just sort of said, right ā I mean, I didnāt say anything, but I could see that was the way it was going to go, and that Yoko would be very sort of powerful for him. So um, we all had to get out the way.ā
Paul McCartney, interview with German tv program Exclusiv, April 1985.
BARROW: She was a very strong influence on John, and may well have been telling him that he could do best on his own, but I still think that on the back of Johnās mind would be this sort of fascination with wanting to get back with the first girlfriend, if youād like [laughs], and it was to get back with Paul that he had so much history with.
Tony Barrow, The Beatlesā press officer
"[Paul] said it was written about Julian. He knew I was splitting with Cyn and leaving Julian then. He was driving to see Julian to say hello. He had been like an uncle. And he came up with 'Hey Jude.' But I always heard it as a song to me. Now I'm sounding like one of those fans reading things into it...Think about it: Yoko had just come into the picture. He is saying 'Hey, Jude' - 'Hey, John.' Subconsciously, he was saying, 'Go ahead, leave me.' On a conscious level, he didn't want me to go ahead. The angel in him was saying 'Bless you.' The Devil in him didn't like it at all, because he didn't want to lose his partner."
John (Source: Playboy, 1980)
SALEWICZ: Well, I always found it interesting the fact that he got ā I mean, it seemed too much like coincidence to me, the fact that he got married a week or month after you. You know what I mean? PAUL: Yeah. I think we spurred each other into marriage. I mean, you know. They were very strong together, which left me out of the picture. So I got together with Linda and then we got strong with our own kind of thing. And I used to listen to a lot of what they said. I remember him saying to me, āYouāve got to work at marriage,ā which is something I still remember as a bit of advice. I still remember that. Um⦠And then yeah, I think they were a little bit peeved that we got married first. Probably. In a little way, you know, just minor jealousies. And so they got married. I donāt know if thatās ā I mean, who knows⦠[inaudible] making it up, anyway.
September, 1986 (MPL Communications, London): journalist Chris Salewicz
āIf you look at interviews and stuff with John, from around about that time he was in Imagine [documentary] he kind of admits that heās having problems with himself. So, well, the first thing you do when youāre having problems with yourself is you bitch about someone else. And the closest person was meā¦He had a real go at me. I personally think it was ācause he was trying to clear the decks for Yoko. Heās got a new love, heās trying to say to her, āLook, baby, I love you. I hate those guys.ā
Paul McCartney
"The line [the walrus was Paul] was put in partly because I was feeling guilty because I was with Yoko and I was leaving Paul. It's a very perverse way of saying to Paul: 'here, have this crumb, this illusion, this stroke - because I'm leaving.'" -John
Playboy, 1980
JOHN: And throwing in the line āthe Walrus was Paulā just to confuse everybody a bit more. And because I felt slightly guilty because Iād got Yoko, and heād got nothing, and I was gonna quit. [laughs; bleak] And so I thought āWalrusā has now become [in] meaning, āI am the one.ā It didnāt mean that in the song, originally. It just meant Iām the ā it could have been Iām the ā āIām The Fox Terrier,ā you know. I mean, itās just a bit of poetry.
August, 1980: John talks to Playboy writer David Sheff about āGlass Onionā.
"I started thinking, 'Well, if that's the case [not getting back together], I had better get myself together. I just can't let John control the situation and dump us as if we're the jilted girlfriends.'"
The Beatles, Anthology, 1995
āAfter weād done the One To One concert film,ā recalled Steve Gebhardt, āI remember John saying to me that the days of everything being Johnandyoko ā one word ā were over. I was shocked.ā Ono completed her record, Approximately Infinite Universe, which was greeted more positively than her previous releases. Lennon did his best to publicise it, writing a personal note to the Capitol Records boss asking him to throw the companyās weight behind it. But in mid-January 1973 Lennon and Ono quarrelled publicly at another party. āI wish I was back with Paul,ā Lennon reportedly said.
Peter Doggett, You Never Give Me Your Money: The Battle for the Soul of The Beatles. (2009)
YOKO: I think that itās like [John] was married to Paul, and now he was married to me⦠So it was a situation that he didnāt feel like he wanted to go back, really. John had a lot of respect for Paul, and of course, love. But I would think that if the truth may be told, the love was lost on both ways. There were times that Paul did say a lot of strange things about John, so that I know that it wasnāt like Paul loved John but John didnāt love Paul, or John actually loved Paul but Paul didnāt. I mean, it was like a very healthy situation where they outgrew each otherās company. And only until John became what he is now ā which is after Johnās death that people started to revere John ā it became an issue for Paul. Because you have to understand that table was turned many times. One, when John made the Jesus Christ remark, and Paul became virtually a leader. And John turned the table on Paul by becoming a partner with me, probably. But then the thing is, the table was turned again by Paul becoming extremely successful with Wings. So he was doing alright, while John did Some Time in New York City with me, and then followed that with Mind Games or something, you know. 1990: Yoko
āThey loved each other more than most couples do, and when they split it was more wrenching than most divorcesā
Beatles publicist Tony Barrow on Lennon and McCartney
āāIām sure that in the case of Paul thereās that feeling that Iām the woman who took away his partner ā itās like a divorce.āā
Yoko Ono (You Never Give Me Your Money, Peter Doggett)
āOn March 12, Paul married Linda Eastman at Marylebone Register Office in London, amid scenes of hysterical grief from his female fans. None of the other Beatles was present. The news reached John as he and Yoko were driving down to visit Aunt Mimi in Poole. Yokoās divorce decree had become final a few weeks earlier, and, in a resurgence of Beatle copycat, John told her they, too, must get married as soon as possibleā
Philip Norman, John Lennon: The life
āThen also we were like married, so you got the bitterness. Itās not a woman scorned this time, itās two men scorned ā probably even worse. And I had to make way for Yoko. My relationship with John could not have remained as it was and Yoko feel secure.ā
Paul McCartney, Interview by Duncan Fallowell in the Chicago Tribune, October 14th, 1984
Knowing John so well, I believe that the only reason he picked Yoko was [he wanted] a negative reaction. I mean, it was purely a negative reaction because he couldnāt take any more girls in the world, actually. I mean, he knew that he could have any girl. And the girls, that were nice-lookingāhe couldnāt stand them. I mean, from morning to night, there were girls not boysāactually, running after them. We used to go to his house and think that we are in peace. Suddenly a girl with a broken leg is jumping over Johnās fence to, to get an autograph. It was a pain in the neck. John wanted to be with a woman. But he needed as well very, very much a friend. He needed a male friend. And my opinion is that Yoko, he managed somehow to combine both. He had a fear for pretty women running after him. Yoko was not very pretty, uh, at all, and he replaced a male in his life plus a female.
Magic Alex, All You Need Is Love ā Peter Brown & Steven Gaines
Jealousy regarding Paul Mccartney: I wouldn't consider any of this especially convincing on it's own, however John's consistent dislike for and rudeness towards Paul's partners is notable
I was a very possessive and jealous guy, and the lyrics explain that pretty clearly. Not just jealous towards Yoko, but towards everything, male and female ā incredibly possessive.
1970 (audio snippet approx 2:06)
In an entry noting McCartneyās marriage to Linda Eastman, Lennon crossed out āweddingā and wrote āfuneralā, the Observer said.
Associated Press: Lennonās resentment of McCartney reflected in book notes. (July 20th, 1986)
Q: I saw that thing in The Observer the other week, about the manuscript of the Apple Beatles biography and the vitriolic comments John made in the margins. I think that shows the sort of pain he was going through. Look, he was a great guy, great sense of humour and Iād do it all again. Iād go through it all again, and have him slagging me off again just because he was so great; those are all the down moments, there was much more pleasure than has really come out. I had a wonderful time, with one of the worldās most talented people. We had all that craziness, but if someone took one of your wedding photos and put āfuneralā on it, as he did on that manuscript, youād tend to feel a bit sorry for the guy. Iāll tell you what, if Iād ever done that to him, he wouldāve just hit the roof. But I just sat through it all like mild-mannered Clark Kent Q: When did you actually get a perspective on it? I still havenāt. Itās still inside me. John was lucky. He got all his hurt out. Iām a different sort of a personality. Thereās still a lot inside me thatās trying to work it out. And thatās why itās good to see that wedding-funeral bit, because I started to think, āWait a minute, this is someone whoās going over the top. This is paranoia manifesting itself.ā And so my feeling is just like it was at the time, which is like, Heās my buddy, I donāt really want to do anything to hurt him, or his memory, or anything. I donāt want to hurt Yoko. But, at the same time, it doesnāt mean that I understand what went down.
Paul McCartney: An Innocent Man? (October, 1986)
Q: "But for a while you didn't get along with Linda." JOHN: "We all got along well with Linda." Q: "When did you first meet her?" JOHN: "The first time was after that Apple press conference in America. We were going back to the airport and she was in the car with us. I didn't think she was particularly attractive. A bit too tweedy, you know. But she sat in the car and took photographs and that was it. And the next minute she's married him."
John Lennon Interview: St. Regis Hotel, New York City 9/5/1971
One night John came in and some chick was in bed with Paul and he cut all her clothes up with a pair of scissors, and was stabbing the wardrobe. Everybody was lying in bed thinking, āOh fuck, I hope he doesnāt kill me.ā [He was] a frothing mad personāhe knew how to have āfun.ā
George Harrison, c/o Derek Taylor, Fifty Years Adrift. (1984)
"One time Paul had a chick in bed and John came in and got a pair of scissors and cut all her clothes into pieces and then wrecked the wardrobe. He got like that occasionally, it was because of the pills and being up too long."
George Harrison (Source: The Beatles, Anthology, 1995)
"I remember I had a girlfriend called Celia. I must have been 16 or 17, about the same age as her...we went out one evening and for some reason John tagged along, I can't remember why it was. I think he'd thought I was going to see him, I thought I'd cancelled it and he showed up at my house. But he was a mate, and he came on a date with this Celia girl, and at the end of the date she said, 'Why did you bring that dreadful guy?' And of course I said, 'Well, he's all right really.' And I think, in many ways, I always found myself doing that. It was always, 'Well, I know he was rude; it was funny, though, wasn't it?'"
Paul, Barry Miles, Many Years From Now, 1997
I came for dinner, and I was the only girl there. John definitely didn't like that. He didn't like me being there at ALL. He was mean and sarcastic. As far as he was concerned, I had no business being invited to dinner with the four of them. For him this was an exclusive boys' club. He was purposely making me feel uneasy. At one point, the boys were handing around a scrapbook -- looking at pictures of that first tour. John made some snide comment like, "What is SHE doing here?" I got the idea that he thought Paul was an idiot to take a girl so seriously he'd actually invite her to dinner, when all he really needed to do was fuck her AFTER dinner.
Peggy Lipton, Breathing Out, 2005
Whether it was her cool confidence or her posh accent, something about Jane goaded John to direct his caustic eyes in her direction. āWell. Letās all play a question-and-answer-game!ā He announced a bit too cheerily. Then he turned to Jane. āSo tell us, luv, how do girls play with themselves?ā Silence. Janeās eyes widened. Paul, sitting close to her on the floor, put his hand in the air, as if he could wave Johnās words back into his mouth. āJohn! John!ā he yelped. āStop it. You canāt do that.ā John just smiled, peering intently through his glasses. āNo, you can tell us. Come on. We all want to know, come on.ā Paul, looking aghast, shook his head vehemently. āJohn. For christsakes, John.ā
Peter Ames Carlin, Paul McCartney: A Life
JOHN: So it was always the family thing, you see. If Jane [Asher] was to have a career, then thatās not going to be a cozy family, is it? All the other girls were just groupies mainly. And with Linda not only did he have a ready-made family, but she knows what he wants, obviously, and has given it to him. The complete family life. Heās in Scotland. He told me he doesnāt like English cities anymore. So thatās how it is. MCCABE: So you think with Linda heās found what he wanted? JOHN: I guess so. I guess so. I just donāt understand⦠I never knew what he wanted in a woman because I never knew what I wanted. I knew I wanted something intelligent or something arty, whatever it was. But you donāt really know what you want until you find it. So anyway, I was very surprised with Linda. I wouldnāt have been surprised if heād married Jane Asher, because it had been going on for a long time and they went through a whole ordinary love scene. But with Linda it was just like, boom! She was in and that was the end of it.
John Lennon, interview w/ Peter McCabe and Robert Schonfeld. (September, 1971)
Random cute things: flirting etc
I remember we were going down to the studio [...] and there was a great crowd pressing against the car. John was sitting in the back and he said, āPush Paul out first. Heās the prettiest.ā
Victor Spinetti, in the documentary You Canāt Do That! The Making of āA Hard Dayās Nightā (1995).
We were away. The boys had relaxed. As we walked off to do the next scene, I heard them joshing each other, like schoolboys on the way to class. 'Are those jeans tight, Paul?' That was John. 'What do you mean tight?' 'I can see your suspender belt through 'em and your stockings. You've got ladders in them.'
Up Front: His Strictly Confidential Autobiography by Victor Spinetti
āI could even hear what they were saying off-mike; āOh Paul, youāre so cute tonight.ā was met with the reply āSod off, Lennon.āā
Joan Baez on accompanying the Beatles to their concert in Red Rocks Amphitheatre, Denver. 26 August 1964
To Lennon, [Paul] was "cute, and didnāt he know it," a born performer who was also a "thruster" and an "operator" behind the scenes.
Christopher Sandford, Paul McCartney, 2005
In a late wee-hour-of-the-morning talk, he once told me, āIām just like everybody else Harry, I fell for Paulās looks.ā
Harry Nilsson speaking about John Lennon
HARRY: Someone told me a few minutes ago they saw John walking on the street [once] wearing a sign saying ā a button, rather, saying āI Love Paulā. And this girl who told me that said she asked him, āWhy are you wearing the button that says āI Love Paulā?ā He said, āBecause I love Paul.ā [laughs]
February 17th, 1984: Harry Nilsson
PAUL: Itās like, uh, āWe have to get back.ā āWeāre on our way home.ā JOHN: Yeah. PAUL: Thereās a story. Thereās another one ā āDonāt Let Me Downā. āOh darling, Iāll never let you down.ā Like weāre doingā JOHN: Yeah. Itās like you and me are lovers. PAUL: [reserved] Yeah. [pause] JOHN: Weāll just have to camp it up for those two. PAUL: Yeah. Well, Iāll be wearing my skirt for the show, anyway.
Get Back sessions
PAUL: Okay, ātwo of us riding nowhereā thatās as ifā¦weāre likeā¦two, but then āweāre on our way homeāĀ JOHN: Itās like weāre like a couple of queens. PAUL: Yeah. Well, you know. Well, I mean, thatāsā¦Ā JOHN: Weāre a couple of queens⦠PAUL: Thatās just too bad. Unless you want to get Paul and Paula in.Ā Poetic license, John. JOHN: Youāre telling me, Paul.
Get Back sessions
āāI know for a fact Paul returned to Liverpool a few nights after this a few nights before the vigils for John in New York & Liverpool & was driven around by Taxi at around 2 in the morning to all the landmarks the city that were special to him & John. I know this to be true because my granddad was the driver. Paul told him he didnt want anyone from the tabloids following him so he took the taxi. He went to a place particularly special to him & John & buried something before returning to the taxi & breaking down. He actually told my granddad how bad he felt about the āitās a dragā comment but he had flash bulbs, autograph hunters etc in his face & he was too Ill to be interviewed & my granddad reassured him that the people of Liverpool were pissed off at the media for cornering him & not for the āitās a drag commentā adding that John would have understood. He also told my granddad that his hair had turned gray over the course of a few hours after being told & he was expecting to be ridiculed in the papers for it. My granddad dropped him off at a location, he went inside & got a huge hamper & gave it to my granddad & gave him Ā£200 & wished him a merry Christmas. We still have the box & the envelope.āā
ā A comment under aĀ Youtube videoĀ about The Beatles Reaction to John Lennonās Death. I know that comments like these are usually not to be trusted and sort of impossible to verify, but for some reason this particular one soundsĀ believable to me. Details sound true. What do you think?
Iām thinking about this a lot lately. If he buried something it means there was earth were he went to. what if it was under a tree of Forthlin road or another road?
Completely tinhat theory but⦠In Days We Left Behind Paul says āwe wrote a codeā. What if they wrote the Promise in the form of a contract, and Paul kept the copy John signed and John kept the one Paul signed and they agreed that if one of them died early the other one would have to bury their copy under the tree?
Call me delusional but these lyrics from āhouse of waxā reminded me of this
John Lennon, 1972 Paul McCartney, 1976
At the Ashers', Paul and Peter had grown accustomed to hanging out when the Beatles were in town. Though entirely different in nature--unlike Paul, Peter was serious and self-involved, with rust-red hair, black horn-rimmed glasses, and an imperiously arched eyebrow that made him look slightly peevish--they established a comfortable, unforced rapport, the perfect antidote to the Beatles' incestuous relationship.
-The Beatles, by Bob Spitz
If I had to read this, you do too. -_-
Paul had a very hard life.

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After watching that Howard stern, interview...lmao. How many times has Paul said that he's "secure of his sexuality"?!
"I was secure about my sexuality. I always felt this is fine. I can hang with whoever I want and it didnāt worry me. I mean, we didnāt share a room or anything. [...] I knew [Robert] was gay and he knew I wasnāt gay so we were quite safe in our own sexuality." (1997)
"I was quite obviously un-gay, due to my hunting of the female hordes. I think we all gave that impression." (1997)
"That question is very strange, fraught with danger. I basically say to people: "Well, none of them made a pass at me." I don't know if it's true but you must have been bloody damn good at fooling people - we were in bloody hotel rooms with them. Anyway, who cares? I don't. I am secure in what I am, in my sexualityā (2000)
"I'm OK with gay people, too, because I'm essentially comfortable with my sexuality. I can goof around with gay people. I sort of know who I am by now. And it's about time." (2002)
"I went to Paris with Robert Fraser, who was gay. Causing many catcalls from my friends: āHey! We know yer!ā Piss off. Iām quite secure in my sexuality, lads." (2010)
"Gonna get deep down. Wanna do it right. Wanna get deep down, And look around this end of town tonight. Wanna get you up, gonna take a bite." ("Deep Down", by Paul)
"Obviously un-gay." What a word, lmao. What baffles me is that no one, no interviewer, biographer, or any insider has implied that Paul isn't straight. He himself brings up the topic about being "secure". Which of course is what makes people raise their eyebrows.
Did Paul and Robert have an affair or was that just Tara Browne
there is no hard, tangible evidence that paul had an affair with robert fraser or an affair with tara browne ā or any man at all, for that matter.Ā
i do, however, think that robert and paul did share a special connection. over anything else we can speculate, but this, to me, is fact. i will delve deeper into why i think it was special and what exactly i mean by that in a different post, but i think these quotes illustrate a bit:
Robert represented to me freedom, freedom of speech, of view. [x]
Paul visited Robertās gallery and would often drop by his flat to see who was there and what was happening. Robert was a superb host; he always mixed the latest drinks, had the best drugs, and a room full of interesting people.Through Robert, Paul entered the world of art; he met Andy Warhol, Claes Oldenburg, Peter Blake and Richard Hamilton and, in the course of listening to their conversations, he learned a great deal about art appreciation.Paul: āThe most formative influence for me was Robert Fraser. Obviously the other Beatles were very important but the most formative art influence was Robert. I expect people to die so I donāt feel a loss but thereās a vacuum where he used to be.ā [x]
Actually I remember one of the most touching conversations we had was about his mum and dad. I said, āMy mum died when I was young but I think my dadās great. Heās a real fine man and Iāve got a lot of respect for him and Iām not ashamed to admit it.ā Feeling slight peer pressure as I did admit it. And he said, āWell uh uh uhg. I feel the same way about my mother. I love my parents!ā and we had a little moment where we both admitted we loved our parents, which then was not the kind of thing you did. I donāt think I ever had it with the Beatles, it certainly was not a common thing. [x]
Paul saw a lot of Robert during 1966 and in the period leading up to the release of Sgt. Pepper in 1967.PAUL: The way Robert lived, which became the way I lived for a couple of years and which I now figure for a rather aristocratic way of life, would be that heād ring early in the day and say, āWhat are we doing for dinner tonight?ā It all hinged round dinner. Once heād had dinner fixed, then he could fill in the rest of the day. It all worked around the event. Robert generally liked to eat down Chelsea: Kingās Road, Fulham Road area. The San Lorenzo, the Trattoria.As well as dinner or hanging out at Mount Street, Paul would often put in an appearance at the gallery. āOnce I got to know Robert, a nice thing would be going to the gallery and helping install an exhibition. Just sit around and smoke a bit of pot while somebody else was installing the exhibition. Helping. Play a little music for him.āĀ [x]
In my garden at Cavendish Avenue, which was a 100-year-old house Iād bought, Robert was a frequent visitor.One day he got a hold of a Magritte he thought Iād love. Being Robert, he would just get it and bring it. Ā I was out in the garden with some friends. I think I was filming Mary Hopkin with a film crew, just getting her to sing live in the garden, with bees and flies buzzing around, high summer. We were in the long grass, very beautiful, very country-like. We were out in the garden and Robert didnāt want to interrupt so when we went back in the big door from the garden to the living room, there on the table heād just propped up this little Magritte. It was of a green apple. That became the basis of the Apple logo. Across the painting Magritte had written in that beautiful handwriting of his āAu Revoirā. And Robert had split.I thought that was the coolest thing anyoneās ever done with me. When I saw it, I just thought: āRobert.ā Nobody else could have done that. [x]Ā Ā
So, some time early in 1966, Paul and Robert flew to Paris. They checked into the Plaza Athenee on the Avenue Montaigne in the heart of haute-couture Paris, one of the most fashionable and snobbish hotels in France. Going on a trip with Robert caused a few comments from Paulās friends. PAUL: āBecause he was gay, it raised a few small-minded eyebrows and funnily enough, one or two of them were from within the Beatles: āHey, man, heās gay, what you going off to Paris with him for? Theyāre gonna talk, you know. Tongues are going to wag.ā I said, āI know tongues are going to wag, but tough shit.āā [x]
There were many good times in Robertās flat. Through my Beatle connections Iād hire a 16mm projector for the evening [ā¦] and I started off with Wizard of Oz.Robert got into this, wow, and heād get some art movies. We got a lot of Bruce Connors, showed a lot of that. It was a very exciting period. [x]
Robertās flat was like a second gallery. He had a lot of Dubuffet around that he was trying to sell. I wasnāt too interested in him. He had a lot of stuff by Paolozzi, and I bought a big chrome sculpture which was called Solo, which was in the big Pop Art exhibition they had about two years ago at the Tate.Ā I just said, āWhat is that, Robert?ā Fantastic. He said, āWhat is it? I donāt know. Itās a mantelpiece, a bit of a car, who knows?āI was very happy with that attitude, not too academic. There was no dour art talk. It was much more razzy, loose, lively discussion with him. [x]
They [Paul and Robert] happened to come to the studio one night and were just on a trip, you know, they were seeing things that werenāt thereāseeing colours and seeing things that simply werenāt there. [x]
Robert could play the academic game quite easily, he was very knowledgeable, but I think he found it a bit boring. It wasnāt our scene, being academic. Iāve heard him hold his own with academics, but that wasnāt the buzz. The buzz was more of a mixture, a cross-over with musicians, etc.He turned me on to quite a few things, quite a few artists. We went down once on an impulse to see Takis, the great sculptor who did things with tank aerials with little lights on the end. That sort of thing was great.Weād just turn up at someoneās studio, smoke a bit of pot, sit around and just chat art. [x]
i have a lot more quotes in my tag, if you are interestedĀ and want to form your own picture of their relationship.
to me, if we see john as paulās connection to music, robert was his connection to art.Ā
ā¦.. this little Magritte. It was of a green apple. That became the basis of the Apple logo. Across the painting Magritte had written in that beautiful handwriting of his āAu Revoirā.
I have always thought that choosing that painting a bit prophetic really, that āAu Revoirā across the green apple, as Apple was the beginning of the end of the Beatles.
Robert Fraserās interview with Peter Brown and Steven Gaines, All You Need is Love
Some highlights:
Robert Fraser: Peter Asher was Janeās brother. I think he brought Paul over to my place. He made me sorry because he saw a sculpture in my apartment and said, āI want that.ā It was quite a lot of money for those days, it was like 2,500 quid. Paul never asked the price until he decided to buy something. If he liked it, he wanted it.
Dusty quickly realized that people were phoning to say goodbye and she was unable to deal with this, although she constantly spoke with Linda McCartney who was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1995. She put Dusty in touch with her own American consultant, who agreed with the treatment Dusty was receiving from The Royal Marsden. Linda was a huge support, sending her flowers and gifts each week, but no-one knew just how ill Linda was. Her death on 17 April 1998 devastated Dusty because she never believed her friendās cancer to be terminal. After all, she had beaten it before, why couldnāt Linda? Paul took over from his late wife by phoning and sending gifts.
Sharon Davies, Dusty: an intimate biography of Dusty Springfield, 2008
Paul and Robert Fraser leaving Paulās Cavendish home in Nov. 1966:

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writers: paul and john were soulmates, only musically speaking of course. certainly not trying to imply anything more beacuse that would be ridiculous
paul mccartney, literally all the time: i keep a shrine of his drawings front and center in my living room, if im going to paint a face its mostly likely to be his, he always appears in my dreams, i think about him all the time, i still talk to him and he gives me advice, he appears to me in the form of the moon and mysterious lights, im still in denial of his death because its the only way i can deal with it, i speak about him in the present tense and it creeps people out, even though hes dead we will never be apart, we are part of each others karma, i will always feel a link with him though we are separated by death
speaking of songs I think are about linda I will still die on the hill that six o'clock by ringo (written by paul) is 1000% about her and paul. like does this not make anyone else wanna kill themselves