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I know I haven’t been posting in a while, but I thought this was important.

I know I haven’t been posting in a while, but I thought this was important.

[image text: Repeated Exposure

Your proximity to the Discourse lets you develop some resiliency to its effects. At 1st level, you gain resistance to psychic damage and you have advantage on saving throws against being charmed or frightened. Additionally, you learn the cantrip Vicious Mockery. It does not count against your number of cantrips known.]

Warlock Patron: The Discourse

Your patron is the embodiment of petty strife and unnecessary and dramatized infighting. They could be any number of trickster deities, fiends, or fey creatures, or perhaps you simply gravitate to the concept of causing drama and have found a way to wield it. As a warlock of the Discourse, you are locked in a constant struggle to reign in the chaos in a way that is productive, and many who have come before you have accidentally let themselves be consumed.

It is best to keep in mind that although useful and sometimes necessary, the Discourse rarely has your best interests in mind, seeing its patrons as little more than temporary and mostly disposable pawns in an ever-shifting game.

Expanded Spell List

The Discourse lets you choose from an expanded list of spells when you learn a warlock spell. The following spells are added to the warlock list for you.

1st level: dissonant whispers, compelled duel 2nd level: phantasmal force, detect thoughts 3rd level: bestow curse, feign death 4th level: phantasmal killer, confusion 5th level: modify memory, dominate person

Repeated Exposure

Your proximity to the Discourse lets you develop some resiliency to its effects. At 1st level, you gain resistance to psychic damage and you have advantage on saving throws against being charmed or frightened. Additionally, you learn the cantrip Vicious Mockery. It does not count against your number of cantrips known.

Callout Post

At 6th level, you have started to learn how to use the Discourse to your advantage. When you hit a creature with an attack, you may force it to make a Charisma saving throw. On a failed save, its allies regard it as an enemy for 1 minute (although they do not necessarily view you as an ally because of this). On its next turn, you compel it to either defend itself (take the Dodge action), or attempt to lay low (take the Hide action), after which it ends its turn. Any creature who had line of sight on your initial attack has advantage on attacks against the targeted creature for 1 minute. Once you have used this ability, you cannot use it again until you complete long rest. 

Extensive Blacklist

At 10th level, you gain mastery over what you do and don’t want to see and how to avoid it. You gain immunity to one condition (paralyzed, stunned, charmed, blinded, deafened, or frightened) and one damage type (acid, cold, lightning, fire, psychic, radiant, or necrotic). Additionally, you can no longer be surprised, and you add your Charisma modifier to your passive perception.

Cut Through the Bullshit

bedroom is very messy I really should tidy up

bedroom is chaotic I NEED to tidy but my brain says no. Why. Whyyy.

I guess I’ll just have to watch where I step in here for the rest of my life. The mess is everywhere. I’m one with the mess.

A sudden Need to Clean™ makes you get the room looking like some fancy homes magazine cover, and you think “I’ll never ever let it get that bad again, and then…

-out of sight = out of mind, as in, if you can’t see it, you will forget it exists. Set up your space such that, when everything is put away, you can still see it all (remove closet doors, shallow shelves so nothing is behind anything else, etc.)

-one-step access. None of this “to get to this thing, I have to get a stool, remove the box in front of it, grab the thing i want, put the box back, put the stool back-” nah. One step access. Not even “this thing belongs behind this thing”. Open drawer. Is thing right there? good. Have to move other thing to get to it? bad. Multi-steps means you’ll rarely use it, and when you do, it will NEVER GET PUT AWAY AGAIN. Multi-step access is for deep storage and the items that get the least frequent use.

-an item’s home is within arm’s reach of where you are most likely to use it/want to put it down.

-items can have multiple homes and that’s ok. I have three pencil/pen cans around my room, and like two or three places where I’m “allowed” to place things like my wallet and keys (and I am NOT allowed to place them anywhere else, because then I’ll lose them forever).

-examine the mess on your floor and determine the categories, then ask why those things are on the floor. 

—Why pile of clean clothes? because I didn’t want to fold them up. Solution: fuck folding clothes, clothes only get sorted into categories and then dumped into drawers or crates. That’s fine and ok. 

—Why pile of kinda-dirty-but-can-still-wear clothes? because I don’t want to put them away (i wore them once) but i don’t want to put them in the laundry basket (they’re not really dirty yet). Solution: have a home for “kinda dirty” clothes. I drape mine over the edge of my hamper. 

—- a bunch of trash on your floor? Because the trash can is all the way over there. Solution: put a bunch of trash cans all around your room.

—- pile of papers on desk? because i need to put them in my files where they’ll eventually go. Solution: one of those cute magazine boxes on desk, specifically for “to file” papers. 

-permanent piles on surfaces go in cute little boxes exactly where they already were. e.g. pile on nightstand consisting of wallet, keys, meds, phone, etc??? cute little box right on the nightstand for all that stuff you’ll grab every day. Pile on desk of shit that you need to take back out to the kitchen but haven’t yet? grab a little tray specifically to accumulate things you’ll take back out to the kitchen at some point. box on nightstand for “stuff that could/usually does go in purse, but isn’t there today for whatever reason”. Lil box for “random tiny shit that I should put away at some point” like hair ties, safety pins, push pins, etc.

-it’s ok for things to “live” in the place where you’ll need them next, even if it’s not “away”, so long as those things aren’t in your way. My pjs live on my bed, because I’m going to wear them again tonight. If I’m feeling fancy I’ll fold them and put them at the foot of the bed. Most days I’ll just yeet them on there and that’s where they Belong. My meds belong in a lil box on my nightstand, because that’s where I’ll set out my pills for the next day.

- “dump station” = right inside the door, where you’ll divest yourself of everything automatically anyways. Hook for your purse, hook for workbag, a few hooks for coats etc (even though coats “live” in the closet, it’s ok for them to live here too), box/tray for wallet etc, place for shoes. Because I’m gonna dump them the moment I walk in the door anyway, and if their “place” isn’t right there, they’re just gonna end up part of the mess

-beware the corner piles. Observe them, question them, solve them. Shit accumulates in “dead spots” on the floor where you don’t walk often. Watch those piles. What are those piles? Where are their homes? And why aren’t they there? Are their homes too inaccessible? Did I accidentally start a new hobby and none of the supplies for that have a home yet? Is it something “in progress” that I still intend to work on/do something with? 

no way fucking way....

anxiety and anger are extremely persistent in ADHD because we fixate on that input and devote all our runtime to trying to “fix” it when in reality the only way to fix it is to leave it alone. considering we are diagnosed with Chronic Cannot Leave It Alone Disease, that is Difficult.

when you’re outside one of these loops, take inventory of all the things you do that suck you into devoting all your attention to them. when i was a kid, the way i avoided asthma attacks was i played video games while taking my meds, so i wouldn’t be fixating on the anxiety and making the asthma worse. nowadays, i avoid anger spirals by also playing video games (in my experience turn-based strategy is a hyperfocus superhighway so i use those) so i’m forced to divert resources to do this other thing.

joke’s on you, impotent fury, you can’t kidnap my brain if my brain is somewhere else entirely

It’s summer! (It’s been summer for a bit)

Embrace yourself during every swim sesh, and if you struggle with it, do whatever you can to make yourself as comfortable as possible.

Tips

Don’t/ try not to bind. Heat stroke is deadly folks

Stay hydrated

Rash guards and board shorts can help a lot with covering yourself up

Big T-shirt’s or crazy patterns can be helpful

Pan Ace