salomay z

This year I learned to be selfish. Selfish with my time, my heart, my feelings, my mind and most importantly myself. I spent entirely too much time feeling sorry for the things I couldn’t change, wishing for things I didn’t have, and begging for people who did not deserve me. It has taken me two decades to realize I am a prize worth winning, I am a caviar dinner not a gas station hot dog. This year I’ve lost people I thought I couldn’t live without and given myself everything I needed. Next year, I hope I can learn to love myself.

Never beg for love. Never beg someone to love you back or be with you when you want to. Never beg for someone’s time, commitment, affection and attention. Never beg someone to stay with you when you need him the most. Because in the first place, if he loves you that much, he won’t leave you and let go of your hand. He will never let you beg for his presence and love because he will give it to you with open arms. Don’t beg, it’s demeaning and degrading. Remember, if you have to beg, he’s not worth it. No one is worth begging for.

Sometimes you’re just too much for certain souls, but please by all means do not think less of yourself just because they cannot truly see your essence. An extremely bright light can blind the eyes if you stare for too long.

What do you do when the infection hits you, when it takes over? Do you do what you’re supposed to and take your medicine? Or do you learn to live with the thing and hope someday it goes away?

Texting is a brilliant way to miscommunicate how you feel, and misinterpret what other people mean.

Never make someone a priority, when all you are to them is an option.

despite controversy, you are supposed to keep going. you are supposed to keep growing. you are supposed to evolve. you are supposed to leave the past behind you and keep moving forward. you should always be eager to break away from the roots that hold you back - so you can plant seeds elsewhere. plant yourself everywhere. blossom.. the way you’re meant to. the way you deserve to. you won’t regret it.