Perfect chaos

Goddamnit Steven stop telling strangers shit…

Sometimes I think I breathe out of habit.

As if my body knows how to keep going.

But my soul is still frozen in the last moment I had you close.

I look for you in every corner of my days.

In the morning coffee, in the streets we wander in my dreams.

In the music that still holds our laughter.

And though I know life moves forward, mine only turns around you.

I miss you with an intensity I never knew existed.

It’s an emptiness that time doesn’t heal.

Because your absence can’t be cured only carried.

I’m waiting for you.

Not like someone waiting for something uncertain.

But like someone who knows that after death,

the only absolute truth is that you are my destiny.

I would give my life for one more minute by your side.

To feel your skin, hear your voice, see your eyes.

To tell you that in this life and in every life to come,

I would choose you over and over, with pride, with all that I am.

There is not a single day I don’t imagine you returning.

Smiling like before, bringing back the color I have been missing.

And even if years pass, even if the world changes,

it will always be you.

Always you.

Because I love you with everything that exists in me.

And that love never dies.

Not here.

Not anywhere in the universe.

You were spacing out and skipping a step somewhere without realising it, and you can’t reproduce it when you try to demonstrate it because now you’re paying attention to what you’re doing

It’s an intermittent electrical connection fault that’s being aggravated by movement/vibrations in your desk; you need to check your cables

The act of explaining the problem to someone caused you to figure out what you were doing wrong

The real cause of the problem was somewhere upstream of your terminal device – for example, at the network service provider – and it got fixed at the source while you were waiting

Your computer is in a location with poor airflow and is overheating; waiting for the technician to arrive gave it a chance to cool off

Despite all appearances to the contrary, modern computers actually have very good fault recovery, and most minor problems will sort themselves out on their own if you give it a minute