i maybe deleted like 1000 vkei pics im honestly not ok in the head omg and like almost all of them were uruha mahiro chigusa and maya🙏

find my honmeis very easy edition👍

i feel so shitty im so done with these paranoias feeling stressed bc of irrational things, i made it clear so many times that i needed help i dont want to feel anxious all the time i hate feeling like something so bad will happen any second and preparing myself for those situations. this fake scenarios in my head is making me sick honestly. like ik no shit will happen but i just worry and my heart is pounding for no fucking reason all the time, also these fucking scenarios are just bunch of bs most of the time too😭 i cant afford therapy but im p sure this is ocd atp, ive been struggling this my whole life and the more i research the more i get sure. but not being able to get help makes it even worse ik what will help me but cant get it and honestly its just been getting worse for the past years idk what to do anymore

also intrusive thoughts have always been a part of my daily life since i was a little kid but it just keeps getting worse and i feel like i become a worse person every single day, i do shitty things i think shitty thoughts i just want to be a good person w normal worries its just so tiring