I despise the conventional, traditional path, I despise how people are born and the majority of them just grow up to eventually have kids. Billions of people copulating and reproducing, copulating and reproducing, copulating and reproducing, and then dying. People in masses just doing the same thing with no thought or realization about what it is they’re doing and stopping. I despise how people fuck people and either impregnate or get impregnated. It’s actually despicable. Society is despicable. All these people, they go on dates and look for “lOvE”, have a hundred break-ups, play with people’s feelings, fuck around, and at some point end up with kids. (Then we have countless women pressured/forced into marriages who end up with kids of course. Men take no responsibility and leave after impregnating women and so we also have countless mothers raising their kids alone). I look down upon it, I actually feel a revulsion towards it, towards these people’s same unoriginal ignorant idiotic lifestyles and choices. It is gross to me how they all just grow up to ultimately have their own kids someday, willingly; it’s despicable this “monkey see, monkey do” way of living. Their obliviousness, their egotism, their selfishness, their parenting, are all disgusting and despicable. I detest these people’s lives composed of choices and actions rooted in their conventional, thoughtless, inconsiderate, and deeply selfish way of being. I want to say I have no respect for these people other than the most basic respect, but that would be dishonest, as there are just so many people like this who are skilled/talented and have put out or done incredible things, things I enjoy and appreciate, things I admire them for. What I hold no respect for is the choice/desire to procreate and become a mother/father. I despise that men are fine with getting their partners pregnant, that they are fine with them having to go through pregnancy and then childbirth. I respect, or rather appreciate careful, thoughtful, compassionate, and informed parenting. The thing is, despite my hatred and contempt, I also easily ‘fall for’ the human essence. As well as human skills, talents, actions, abilities, etc. I can even love the essence of (other) animals. I easily feel deep admiration and love, easily feel impressed and full of awe. I cannot help but appreciate. I notice and appreciate the small individual or shared things, the individual and their uniqueness as well as people altogether. But I want humanity to go extinct. For obvious and unobvious reasons. But why do I care at all? Because I both love and hate humanity.
