i love tv. it’s the best thing ever invented.

thinking about s2 just revived my hatred for scott hunter and the skip episode . which is called that bc you SKIP THE EPISODEEE. and if you’re me and you’re watching as episodes come out and it’s november and your life is really stressful and all you had to look forward to was episode 3 of heated rivalry and then you open the show and see that the main characters are no where to be seen and instead it’s some random guys in a coffee shop au you should be allowed to maul jacob tierny . sorry ill never defend that creative choice and i think that if it was soooo important to them to have a skip episode they should have released ep 4 with it . or something. but honestly i think the skip episode was stupid and it should have been at least 25%-50% hollanov . for me. bc i needed it and deserved it

i love that they casted the twink from young royals as luca and i actually love luca as a character bc i think little swedish gay boy that’s obsessed with ilya and has a huuuuge crush on him while ilya is living in an actual torture chamber is awesome . if they spend more that 10 minutes on anyone from role model or the other book (tough guy?) combined im blowing up the province of ontario sorryyyyyyy

it just kinda hit me that last time i took a big swing and moved away for college it really did almost kill me . like it’s been so long i can kinda forget but i was doing probably the worst mental health wise i’d ever been in my life . and that’s saying a lot . and i was such a shell of a person and i didn’t even realize bc i thought it was normal somehow. but i clawed my way out of it and now im back in the same situation. and ofc im not the same and i’ve grown and learned blah blah blah. and i did make it through but it was soooooo hard and i don’t wanna do even a fraction of that again . BUT IT’LL BE FINE ‼️‼️‼️

and another thing that’s really scary that people do talk about but i’ve been acting like i’m above is how scary moving to a new location is . like it hasn’t really hit me yet but im straight up in a new city and i know no one and im fully by myself doing something almost completely new . it took me so long to build up friendships and community and comfort when i went to college and now i just have to do it again or else ill go crazy . like man wtf i just did that and it was really hard . i have to do it again??? and then i’ll probably have to do it again many times in my life . moving to a new place is not only about where the fuck am i but also who the hell are these people . and what’s going on

we actually have to talk more about how living in a new place is genuinely so scary. like WHERE THE FUCK AM I ‼️ lol.

hater post incoming but “being gay is one thing but fucking your arch rival is another thing” “that’s why it’s a secret” is probably the worst dialogue in the whole show like LMFAO OKAYYYYY ???? 😭😭😭😭

*person who thinks they’re a bad person after any minor argument or disagreement* oh so you think i’m a bad person?

i know it’s just bc i’m tired and living out of boxes and i have no food and i’ve been running around nonstop for two days and will have to keep doing it tomorrow but im maybe feeling like the world sucks and my life sucks and everything that led me here is a mistake?

getting ghosted on fb marketplace by a guy who said he would give me his tv for free 🤕🤕