Caution: Cas!girl ahead

dean attempting to breathe in the darkness, to join sam in his almost death, was not the following: 

romantic

a beautiful brother moment 

dean has already attempted to commit suicide twice now this season, which quite frankly, to me, seems wildly out of character. i believe, in the past, dean has remarked to someone that he may have had many lows in his life, but he’s never been that low. he always keeps on going. 

“but michelle!! dean loves sam so much!! he would rather die than be without him!! how beautiful!! i’m so emotional!!!” 

dean does loves sam, i will never contest that fact, but this entire season has been attempting to illustrate how their co-dependency is bad. dean would rather sacrifice the entire world than let his brother die, which is a fucking problem. he was just going to forsake cas, saving him, and the world, simply because he didn’t want to live without sam? 

i’m tired of that storyline. i think the fans are, too. and i think the writers are trying to address the issues within this toxic relationship the winchesters have built around themselves for the last 10 seasons. 

but last night, i saw regression from dean, not progression. it’s sad and fucked up and it made me angry. how dare dean purposefully try to die, forsaking everyone else he cares about, everyone else on the planet, because he wouldn’t leave sam. 

sam wouldn’t want that. 

he would want dean to move on. to go on. to save the people around them. 

but no, no, they have to do this shit again and again. 

fuck cas, right? if sam is dying, just fuck cas. he doesn’t matter, only sam. i’m sick of that mentality. by all means, do your best to try and save your brother, that is important, but sam is not the only person in dean’s life. 

stop romanticizing suicide. stop romanticizing what happened last night as a “beautiful brother moment”. 

dean attempting, once again, to kill himself should not be labeled anything short of: 

disturbing

sad

wrong

I don’t think Dean tried to kill himself last night. I think he was wondering why he was the only one who wasn’t dying.

I mean, not that what you’re saying isn’t true, because the codependency and self loathing and the fandom romanticizing that is a pretty terrible thing. But last night didn’t feel like a self loathing suicide attempt. The self loathing suicide attempt most likely wouldn’t happen until Sam had already died and Dean had time to come to terms with the fact that he was truly dead. Sam was still alive, and if Sam is still alive, Dean does what he can to save him. Even with the self loathing, Dean wouldn’t try to kill himself if Sam needed him. Sometimes I think that’s the only reason Dean’s still alive.

It seemed hopeless, yes, but Sam has almost died so many times that Dean wouldn’t have completely lost all hope until Sam was absolutely 100% dead.

As I get ready to start this week’s episode and recap. (Get it early via Patreon.)

Do you think they’ll ever mention that guy Oscar again? The one that Rowena had to sacrifice for the mark spell? Because it seems like that should bother Sam and Cas more. That guy was totally innocent. And he made good coffee.

IT HAS BEEN WILDLY PROPHESIED ABOUT 

THERE WERE SKEPTICS 

THERE WERE NAY SAYERS

BUT WE HAVE BELIEVED

AND IT HAS RETURNED

THE PINK V NECK