Antony

tomato seals :D

plus the original regular tomatoes before my partner told me to make every tomato a seal lmao

All the love,

~ toribookworm ❤️

I think I've found myself.

You know, I really wanted to be a writer for the longest time. The community on this site is so welcoming and alive, I thought I could force myself through 365 days of writer's block through the sheer motivation of people actually reading my work. I used to love writing fiction; my primary form of procrastination throughout all of high school was writing loosely connected short stories, because I could never manage to write more than 10 pages about the same thing. Now things are different. I can't manage more than a few pages of fiction, and I can barely come up with new characters for the life of me.

I still read. In fact, I'm reading more now than I have ever before. I just don't have an interest in the writing anymore. I don't feel a desire to tell someone else's story anymore.

But I'm realizing that it's not because of any fault of mine that I've lost interest in writing fiction -- It's because I've finally found my passion elsewhere. I have found myself in geology, earth history, paleontology, chemistry. I've found myself in something that I didn't even know was an option in high school. Community college introduced the real concept of environmental science to me, and university introduced me to the real future I can have as a geologist.

All this is to say two things.

One — If you're like me, and you've yet to find your "thing" even when everyone around you seems to have found theirs — Take your time. I didn't even know my thing was a thing until a little over a year ago. You have time.

Thank you @writeintrees for the tag!

1. Are you named after anyone?

First name no, but before I transitioned my middle name was my Great Aunts name. I just switched it to the masculine version of Louis because she was pretty cool.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Maybe three weeks ago. I moved out of my parents house for the first time about a month and a half ago and suddenly only being able to see them once a week if that, living with three strangers, and starting at a new university all at once caught up to me. I probably cried for nearly half an hour straight with my boyfriend over it.

3. Do you have kids?

Nope, and I fully plan on never having any. I’ll be the cool present uncle to my brothers kids with a handful of cats and other small creatures.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Oh yeah. My humor is really ironic recently so I try to be overt about I am joking by using sarcasm so no one thinks I’m actually insane.

5. What’s the first thing people notice about you?

This question is unfair, I’m not other people. Used to, I can say it was my eyes. I’d get compliments pretty often on my eye color before I started wearing glasses all the time. Now I’m not sure? Hopefully my personality, I try to be kind to people.

6. What’s your eye color?

🔵👄🔵 guess

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

When I’m with people? Scary movies. I love horror in a group setting or as a date movie, but alone I can’t get enough of cheesy happy ending movies.

8. Any special talents?

Finding the cheapest frozen pot pies in a 100 mile radius. I literally just found some for 99 cents at Aldi.

9. Where were you born?

Houston Texas baby

10. What are your hobbies?

Procrastinating my Chem homework by over-studying for my rock identifying geology labs. Oh, and writing, and a little painting.

11. Have you any pets?

I have three beautiful (stinky) rats making a racket in my room as I type this.

12. What’s sports do you play/have played?

I used to do color guard way back when (like nearly 6 years ago), but once I recover from top surgery I want to get in to rock climbing.

13. How tall are you?

5’5” :(

14. Favorite subject in school?

Geology and earth sciences

15. Dream job?

The goal is environmental conservation, but the dream is honestly something along the lines of a park ranger. I just want to be outside and in nature.