this blog is a hopeless mess but then again so am

It turns out that actually standing by "men and women are not inherently very different" is a reliable way to bother absolutely everyone. Left or right, cis or trans, feminist or misogynist, all cling to the binary for dear life.

living under a rock is so fun i love watching a movie that’s been famous for decades and being like wow this is so good.. did you guys know about this

the thing with aroace grace headcanons is like. i can totally see it. it’s not what i’m most interested in because my hobby happens to be writing romantic drama and pornography, but i can see it. it’s my runner-up headcanon for sure. but. he doesn’t identify that way. he instinctively flinches away from anything that even implies hes anything other than a perfectly normal heterosexual man who has all his shit completely figured out. he doesn’t identify using that phrase, and if someone explained it to him, i don’t think he’d identify with the concept, either. he’d be like “that sounds awesome! that’s not me though, i fulfilled the Normal Girlfriend Experience shortly after college. didn’t work out but i’ll probably find someone i mean a woman specifically who i click with one of these days, and then we’ll have sex and get married or whatever it is you’re supposed to do.” and then he’d just blithely go on not thinking about it. he’s a school teacher in san francisco in the 2020s, he’s on the front lines of the culture wars whether he likes it or not, he knows what pronouns are, he may very plausibly know the words “aromantic” and “asexual” but it has never in his life occurred to him to apply those to himself. and it quite possibly never will. he’s not particularly introspective and he absolutely does not have the level of self-insight required to understand why he’s only had one long-term relationship in his life, and why it ended so fucking badly. not solely due to his orientation you understand, but also due to his various flaws as a person. where was i going with this. oh yeah. i need everyone to make this guy more repressed right now immediately.

“and thought that man is not a sorcerer, he has wielded a strange gift to make a little dead creature that regarded u with kindness. is it possible that dead things can still love us?” oh :((

i love vaelus' fascination with pin. to be hundreds of years old with hundreds more ahead of you and still find something new and interesting and wondrous, coming from such a young boy no less

“do you know where you’ll be headed in 5 years?” no. but i do know about themes and motifs. and friendship. and putting garlic on everything

It's honestly kinda really sad that for his family Occtis wasn't enough of a Tachonis to belong with them, but for everybody else he's too much of a Tachonis to be fully trusted

seeing that flashback and how occtis' body language immediately changed: shoulders hunched, eyes downcast, barely stuttering through responses..oh my god. really casts the confident, burgeoningly powerful wizard we've seen in these last few episodes into sharp contrast. he learned to make himself invisible. make himself small. he was...what, fifteen? you can see the terror and hope equally in his eyes. he tried so hard to be something they could love. and it was never enough. and now he's this. i've said it before: take an abused, neglected young adult and strip them of their fear? what you get is a whole lot of fucking rage.