What is will without rationality?

this is what I mean about how right now in the united states (won't speak for elsewhere but feel free to lmk in the notes if you'd like) a lot of us trans adults who are able to access transition care can only do so at the direct expense of trans minors. this clinic would not have opened if they held the line and offered equal access to healthcare to trans minors.

"Martin announced the direct-care clinic, calling it “one of the first times a public health department has ever taken that step.” But when Cabán pushed back, pointing out that trans youth are the ones most under attack right now—noting that there are “almost no providers” left for youth the entire city—Martin indicated the clinic would not serve youth, citing the need to “strike a balance” between providing care and avoiding “clawbacks from the federal government.” This morning, EITM can directly confirm that the age cutoff is 19—matching the Trump administration’s executive order threshold, not the standard legal age of adulthood in New York."

a lot of the structural transphobia we are experiencing is hitting minors even worse. their care gets banned first. if you want a preview of what access to healthcare will look like for us trans adults in 2 years, look at what access looks like for legal minors right now.

on a different note, I wanna know if you think there is any particular reason tme trans people see themselves as trans first and men/masculine second? i remember a long time ago seeing trans men say they felt as if they were "trans women" before coming to terms with their identity because they didn't get particular dissatisfaction from being women but from being cis, but i dont think i ever saw the inverse

my current running theory is that for a lot of them it's about their subconscious sex much more than their intrinsic gender, as in, they primarily want their bodies to look like ours. so they see trans women and they think we have everything they want: the body they want and the ability to dress it any which way while still being read as, in their eyes, "male." living in the same transmisogynistic society as the rest of us, they see our womanhood as superficial and unimportant, a thin coat of paint slapped over what we ~really~ are. and they want to be what we ~really~ are, thinking that being labeled as a woman doesn't really mean all that much anyway for us

this, I think, is a part of the danger of reducing gender to a game of labels and coats of paint. superficially trans women may appear to have what these men want if they ignore our internality and focus only on the outside. I imagine this is part of the allure of cis male drag queens for them. they envy that, underneath it all, the labels and the clothing and the performance and everything, these people are understood as fundamentally men because of their bodies. they see the prison that traps trans women and they think it's liberation

This post talks about a new DM feature in youtube. What it fails to mention is that as part of this new feature is that when you send someone a link to a video, and they open it in the youtube app, they will see who sent them the link. Specifically, your channel name.

If your google account name is your real name, so is your channel name by default.

This means the new default behavior is that everyone you send a youtube link to will see your full name if they open it in the mobile app.

To turn this off:

Go to your youtube app settings

Go to Privacy

Turn off "Channel visibility for shared links"

Marlow Trottie was killed on June 8th 2026. She was found dead, alone, in the streets of Alexandria, Louisiana. It was a homicide.

Marlow Trottie was a woman. Her family has contested this, and publicly misgendered her, and many news sites have already deadnamed and misgendered her as well. I fear what her obituary will say. I fear what her gravestone will say even more.