Bliss🤍

Applies to all religions though, its fine as long as its in the name of god!?

I changed so much after I left her, basically felt like I liked my only chance of happiness. Yes I do have my life but it feels less magical without her. Yes I don't like what she has become and I don't respect the things she do anymore but hey, who do I have if not her?

My ex girlfriend, we went through a terrible breakup and I still blame myself for turning her into who she is now.

The girl I loved wouldn't do it under any circumstance but now that she is living it, I can't help but blame myself.

She can't live without me and I feel like I shouldn't either.

Its just gonna be so awkward and emotionally hurting process but no contact policy can only take you to an extent I guess.

Maybe I will text her back.

There's no force stronger that can persuade me to do things for her if at the end, I get to unhook her bra, play with her boobs, let myself get squeezed within, breastfed and using them like a pillow as I fall asleep.

I dont understand if this is it for me, I wanna be in control and since its a two way business, more power is on the other side which I dont like at all.

I like it when I get to get away from it more than being left all by myself in it.

Yes I dont like it enough yet and yes I am a nihilist so I just wanna give up.

Can you help? I stopped going out because it helped me handle what I was goibg through everyday but now I dont wanna go out and socialize and it only hurts when I am not distracted.

Rest I manage to pass the day and wake up to do it all over again.

Who are you saying it to when you point out that you were doing extra for other people? To basically yourself. There's no one to prove your worth to or to show your scoreboard to get rewarded. Its just you being you, its all around you and all about you and not in a selfish way but in a genuine way of need and expectations.

You don't do what they did to you as you are incapable of it or better than them so you don't inflict the pain on others.

Yet its not any villain deeds, its just boundaries and I as a people pleaser hate to set it.

I've given more in the hope that it will come back and the very want has made me empty.