HAPPY IN MY CRETIN WORLD...

I used to be really scared of thunder as a kid because I was and still am so scared of fire and housefires, then I kinda grew out of the worst fear until a few years ago I was at home just normal, had everything plugged out and was sitting in my living room. I was filming with my phone cos sometimes it looks cool. Then a lightning hit somewhere REALLY close (less than 1km), the sound was so fucking loud and even tho I had all windows closed and also the curtains and blinds almost fully closed, it was still so bright lightning that it looked like someone had taken a photo with a flash on. I jumped up from my sofa so fast I hurt my leg and back, and for a moment I thought that the lightning bolt had actually entered my apartment and "hit" me even tho it cannot do that if the windows are closed. After that I closed all doors I could close and sat down on the floor in my hallway with my eyes closed hoping that I won't see any more lightnings and that I'm not too close to the radiator in my hallway either. After that I've become really alert and panicky every time I sense any kind of thunder in the air, or if the weather forecast suggests that there may or may not be random thunder storms.