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if you've never been clinically depressed, this is the short version

A little thing I headcannon is that Andrew never asks where Neil is. Neil is CONSTANTLY asking where Andrew is if he hasn’t seen him for approximately 0.5 seconds and even Jean notices how they give “lingering looks when one fell out of orbit for too long”, but Andrew never asks, wanting conceal to the others how much Neil is a weak spot for him. Instead, his eyes slide across the room, scanning, and if he can’t see Neil then Andrew simply gets up and goes in search of him, he knows all of his spots anyways. The foxes, initially just put Andrew’s abrupt leave up to his blatantly disrespectful self, deciding he wasn’t interested enough in the conversation, so they don’t really care. However, that isn’t until they notice the pattern. First, Renee, then Dan and Aaron, and soon the others catch on. They observe the way Andrew’s fingers start tapping at his sides when his head swivels round and cannot find his specific ginger. They observe the way he gets up immediately and strides towards the door. They also observe the way Andrew hands still slightly as Matt says, “he’s on a run” or Kevin tells him Neil’s just practicing on the court. Andrew doesn’t acknowledge it openly of course, he never asked and would’ve been able to find him himself easily, but they all don’t miss the way his head lowers for a second, giving a subtle nod, placated by the fact someone always knows where Neil is. I guess they all know the alternative, when his hands were shaking, wrapped round Kevin’s neck in Baltimore. He didn’t ask, “Where’s Neil?”, he screamed it. And the others didn’t know. And Andrew couldn’t find him.

Dead wife but it's a flashback to an amazing sandwich you had 3 years ago

addendum: if the cheeto dies this year I'll give yall an andrew pov story in celebration

listen you cannot tell me that andrew “ghosted a kiss over neil’s hip” minyard doesn’t fuck with temple kisses. smooches to the inner curves of neil’s wrists. pressing his mouth to the hollow of neil’s throat just to do it. dragging his lips with care and tenderness over his junkie’s inner thighs after he’s bitten the supple skin there all to hell. andrew may not have been bred for gentleness of a high caliber, but he knows devotion like he’s got it tattooed on the inside of his eyelids, and the only way to make the words light up is to have his lips on the most underloved parts of neil’s body that he can find

Thinking about Andrew being this bizarre little brother to Renee. No one is allowed to be mean to her. They beat each other up in no holds sparring for emotional regulation and bonding. He ropes her into a scheme to “casually” let Neil know he’s gay and available. She goes along with it. They have a bond no one understands. They discuss fictional hypotheticals at length. They cheerfully mess with the rest of the team. She has a better read on him than most. He gets really angry at her but never threatens her. He lets people say what they want but no one is allowed to be rude to her. He encourages her to heal from her trauma. She gives him her knives. He lets her drive his car. He’d probably menace and threaten any potential love interest on her behalf. He cares about her but trusts her to take care of herself in a way that he doesn’t for any other member of his family. They split up care of the Foxes between them. She genuinely likes and gets along with him. She’s a grounding presence and voice of reason for him. He doesn’t like her friends. That’s his SISTER. He loves and respects her. He’ll try to beat her ass. He won’t succeed. She’s too sweet for her own good. No one is allowed to be mean to her except for him. He’ll go into her dorm, knock something off a shelf. and leave the door open when he leaves. He would T pose on her to establish dominance. He’s just this annoying little gremlin that imprinted on her and now she has a little brother and she’s not mad about it.

aftg but neil is genuinely wholeheartedly under the impression that andrew and kevin are boyfriends. which is basically just the first book and half of the second but i mean we let him keep that energy the whole way through. andrew says he'd blow him and neil is like ??? pretty sure kevin would take issue with that??? and andrew, thinking neil is referencing their deal, is like ??? kevin doesn't care what i do when im away from him??? and neil is like ??? but you're always with him when im around??? and andrew is like ??? i would tell him to go away??? and neil is like ??? i don't think you should do that??? and andrew is like ??? u mean u want him to watch??? and neil is like ??? i didn't agree to this but if i was going to then yes, im not going to make you send kevin away??? and anyway this is how both andrew and neil operate under the assumption that the other is angling to enter a throuple with one another and kevin day and kevin has no clue about any of this