magicspell17

imagine you give a random girl a hairpin out of pure pity and that transforms into you becoming one of her main bodyguards which gives you a lot of face time with the former crown prince and other high ranking official to the point you become actual friends with the crown princes milk brother.

This post is nearly ten years old and I still think about this, honestly. Luke has no consciousness of the dangers and pressures in Leia’s life when he’s playing with his toy starship; she’s already had to become what he can only vaguely dream of. But she’s also never had to consider “where is tomorrow’s food and water coming from” to anything like the degree that Luke, Owen, and Beru do every day. Luke and Leia both make sure they’re armed when they leave home because their environments are so dangerous, in completely different ways.

Return of the Jedi 🔁

I’ve said before I loooooove an Obi-Wan who doesn’t see himself until Anakin’s father until his exile on Tatooine, usually playing with the idea of “how else could I still love him”. HOWEVER, I think an Obi-Wan who needs to accept his role as Anakin’s father because it proves Vader is a different person and “no parent could ever do that to their child. He wasn’t Ani then no that was someone else that was someone else.” is very fun.

Obi-Wan vehemently denying Anakin can be brought back, doubting Luke could succeed not just because of old Jedi doctrine but because he needs to. If Anakin is in Vader, if Anakin could be saved, that would be Obi-Wan did leave him to burn alive. That would mean that Obi-Wan violently and angrily mauled the boy who used to flinch at loud sounds, the boy who Obi-Wan promised he would never physically hurt.

That would mean that Palpatine’s influence went beyond Anakin’s immediate fall. And Obi-Wan is deep in survival mode. He just can’t think about that.

It’s not that Obi-Wan always believed so strongly in this separation, or even that he always believes it come time for ANH. He has nightmares of little Ani screaming for help in the fire. He thinks of the dear Emperor when he see’s men around Mos Espa who try to take advantage of their status and age and exploit people who don’t know much. He see’s Anakin everywhere.

Obi-Wan is closer to understanding Anakin than he ever has before but he doesn’t let himself. 19 years is a long time and slowly, overtime Obi-Wan does convince himself that Anakin is dead. Vader is alive. Obi-Wan hurt Vader. Anakin could never come back and he is a machine not a man. Because Obi-Wan would never have abandoned the man who he called his brother and the boy who he cared for like a son.

It’s a fun inverse of Anakin who also needs to see Vader and Anakin as separate people. Lets adopt maladaptive coping skills with Papa!!!

We are too ready to accept Obi-Wan as a reliable narrator! The people of Tatooine call Obi-Wan a crazy old hermit. Let him be funny and light in ANH because he has been so desperate and alone his reality is a little warped.

Vader's nightmare

Super quick rushed doodle I did to test an app, they won't even let me save it without paying, but nothing stops me from taking a screenshot mwhuahah

I don't like it much but hey, for a quick trial with 70% of features paywalled, is ok

Also how it started ksnj: