Mr's Magicalfifi

Tremayne Clarkson - I was intoxicated and he knew it. I also said I didn’t want to multiple times and we had a mutual agreement that sex would not happen. Has two different sexual violent complaints against him.

Jamaal Rhodes - intoxicated again and he knew it (texts proving it). He admitted in our school hearing to hearing me say he was hurting me but also said he didn’t see it as grounds to stop. Changed his story 3 times. Even in texts stated that he was just “in the zone” or moment.

mako

unknown

cameroon

burkina faso

mali

Ndebele

burkina faso

Morocco

Tunisia

Ethiopia

Ethiopia

Dogon

Brazzaville, Congo

Bamako, Mali

Hausa house, Nigeria

Lomé, Togo

Yaouné, Cameroun

Abidjan, Cote d'Ivoire

Accra, Ghana

Northern Ghana

- Now zoom in and take at look at the architecture in Wakanda….

Having a little living thing around makes me feel less alone.

He doesn’t have the expectations that humans have. He will never judge me or abandon me. He’s just there.

Caring for a living thing is honestly so therapeutic. I get to give, and I’m good at it. It’s good for my self-worth and it gets me out of my own focus.

It’s not a lot of pressure or a lot of work so it doesn’t affect my anxiety much.

I have to feed him and clear his litterbox which gives me regularity in my day. If I have to get up to feed him I don’t stay in bed all day.

I can talk to him instead of being alone with my thoughts.

Getting to know him, play with him, communicate with him keeps my brain busy so I don’t spiral.

Cats are lively and like to play. Life is easy and fun for them. Seeing things through his eyes gives me a different perspective.

They also sleep a lot and watching a cat sleep is one of the purest and most soothing experiences on this planet.

Very Soft. Peaceful. Grounding. Warm. Petting a cat will improve your day 1000x

PURRING. That’s all.

I love him. Feeling this love makes me feel warm inside, it’s gentle, it’s hopeful. And it shows me I can still feel good things.

He loves me back and I don’t think I’ll ever be over how happy and purry he is everytime I get home, how he comes running, taptaptap, squeaking, when I call his name, or the way he looks into my eyes when he feels safe and content. I’m loved!

I’m responsible for this little thing. He depends on me. That’s a good enough reason to stay alive even when things get bad.

If you are able to care for a cat, I could never recommend it enough. Plus, a lot of cats need homes.

If you can’t, know that Loki knows it gets bad sometimes but he also knows that you are brave, and that you will be okay.

Finland, Home of the $103,000 Speeding Ticket

Reima Kuisla, a Finnish businessman, was recently caught going 65 miles per hour in a 50 zone in his home country—an offense that would typically come with a fine of a couple hundred dollars, at most, in the U.S. But after Finnish police pulled Kuisla over, they pinged a federal taxpayer database to determine his income, consulted their handbook, and arrived at the amount that he was required to pay: €54,000.

The fine was so extreme because in Finland, some traffic fines, as well as fines for shoplifting and violating securities-exchange laws, are assessed based on earnings—and Kuisla’s declared income was €6.5 million per year. Exorbitant fines like this are infrequent, but not unheard of: In 2002, a Nokia executive was fined the equivalent of $103,000 for going 45 in a 30 zone on his motorcycle, and the NHL player Teemu Selanne incurred a $39,000 fine two years earlier.

I get this question alot…i’ll do my best to detail what I know and what worked for me..

For starters do 2 things. First go to www.annualcreditreport.com and check your credit report for all 3 credit bureaus. this website allows you to review your entire credit report for free once a year..after that it’ll cost….When you do that, look at your report and start to dispute whatever doesnt look right to you.. like wrong names and addresses u never used ect…also alot of people suggest disputing old stuff that has gone to collections..theres a youtube video i seen that explains how with collections your contract with the original lender or whoever is voided, you have no contract with collections and they cant provide any paper work that proves you legally owe them..so you can dispute that…( i should also note, student loans cant be disputed, but they can be managed to not effect your credit score..so talk to someone about consolidating your loans and various programs with loan forgiveness ect..

2nd thing is getting the Credit Karma app…alot of people will tell u the score they show u can often be inconsistent, but I dont suggest it for an accurate score, but to monitor your credit and whats on it and give you a good idea of what you’re working with…

For those of you who are younger and dont have any credit yet, its best to start now, cause the one thing that helps you in the long run is a Long history of Credit…So I would suggest going to a bank or Credit Union(I use a credit union) and opening you a checking and savings account.. Keep your account in good standing for a few months.. Direct deposit your checks, get you a debit card(this doesn’t help with credit, but helps not spending crazy, something about having cash makes us spend our cash faster than when just swiping a card)… after that apply for a secure credit card with ur bank or credit union with a low spending limit. alot of them have credit building programs and cards that help for that reason..if you’re approved, use that card mildly, but make sure you put your monthly payments on autopay, so that way u dont have to worry about missing a payment ever, cause one missed or late payment drops your score 100 damn points.. and fuck that shit..

so for me personally, I had a secured credit card with my credit union since 2013. with mines it had a $1500 limit, but I couldnt use it cause first I had to put the $1500 on there myself, it was weird to me, but it worked…after that my cameras got stolen in Detroit, so I took out a short term loan to buy a new one…it was just for $2500.. I paid that monthly for a year str8 without missing a payment, then paid it off(some financial advisors would advise you not to pay things off fast cause it helps your credit to just pay it on time over months and months)…but even then it jumped my points when I did pay it off..

anyway back to your credit score, to see a high score this what ultimately matters: A Long history of Credit(in good standing) Never ever miss a credit card payment or loan payment(car loans included). you want a 100% payment history. Credit Card utilization MUST stay under 30% of whatever your limit is. Sure you can max it out or use it over 30% but make sure you get it back under 30% as soon as you can… for example I got a Best Buy Credit Card with a $4k limit, that day I got a $2500 iMac which automatically put me way over 50% so my credit score dropped like crazy, but after I payed like $1500 on it, and got it under 30% and my points shot back up..so it toggles..I also have my minimum monthly payment on autopay out my checking account on that card, which is like $20 a month…ALWAYS PUT YOUR MINIMUM MONTHLY PAYMENT ON AUTOPAY.., never get discouraged when you see your points go down on credit karma, as long as you’re not missing payments on anything, they’ll go back up.

Another trick people do..is become an authorize user on a credit card with someone that pays their shit like clock work.. for example, my mom is actually a Financial Advisor, she’s good with money and teaches me alot about my finances and her credit score is over 800.. So when I wanted to get my car I asked my mom to make me an authorize user on her credit card, and she did. she has the actual credit card with my name on it, cause i dont need it, i dont want it, i just want that good look on my credit report.. if your parents are the same ask them to add you, and when the card come , you dont need it and they can keep it…and just watch your points slowly go up over time..

after that, its a waiting game..you’re not going to reach a 700 score over night.. When you pay on stuff it’ll be at least a month before its shown on anything to make an impact..even when you dispute stuff that can take a while sometimes, it varies, Ive seen things drop off my report in a week and some dropped off over 3 months… 

another thing, dont apply for credit cards and shit all crazy if you know ur credit is bad, cause a hard pull on your credit also drops your score..start with your bank first..then when you’re confident about your credit, apply for more serious cards and loans… 

Hi everyone! When doing love readings for people, I tend to always mention the word ‘soulmate’ which is why I thought I’d actually make a post about the topic. The term can be a bit confusing due to the various connotations that it’s accumulated over time. Most people imagine that meeting their soulmate will unfold like a fairytale and instantly lead to happily ever after! But this isn’t always the case! You’ll meet several different soulmates in your lifetime, all of them serving different purposes. Soooo let’s get into this shit! (starting in no particular order!)

1. Platonic Soulmate: The platonic soulmate will manifest as your best friend and partner in crime! There’s a sense of effortlessness when you two meet. There’s no hesitation and you feel a sense of ease when you’re around. Your platonic soulmate is the person you know was destined to be your Maid of Honor or Best Man haha. The platonic soulmate is usually the simplest out of all the connections as they exist in your path to make life more enjoyable. Some people may mistake a platonic soulmate for a romantic/companion soulmate but they’ll usually both realize that they’re better off as friends. Someone who is asexual or aromantic will likely stay with their platonic soulmate as they don’t feel the need to connect with anyone else. This can be extremely fulfilling! 

2. Soul Family: Ahhhh soul families are a total fucking blessing! Members of a soul family all come from the same branch of consciousness and have similar life paths. Soul families can be literally anyone who has the same interests, beliefs, mindset, and energetic vibration as you! The key aspect of a soul family is that our souls were created in the same dimension/planet and we always incarnate together. Our soul family has travelled the same paths and have had to learn the same lessons. All members of a soul family are working towards the same mission. I say they’re a blessing because I find it extremely comforting to know that you have other people who feel and think in the same way that you do! Your actual family may be a part of your soul family but not always. There are definitely members of your soul family who you may not actually ever meet. Some soul groups have 2,000 people while others have 20. It simply depends on your mission! 

3. Past Life Soulmate: Our past life soulmate(s) are usually romantic and they’re someone who is returning from a past life. When you feel as though you instantly recognize someone, this is a clear sign that they’re a past life connection. Your past life soulmate can reincarnate with you every life time or only occasionally. Either way, this person is usually in your life to remind you of something you’ve forgotten about your own soul. They subconsciously bring back information from a past life in order to deepen your spirituality. This could be a long term or short term relationship! Past life soulmates are a part of your soul family!

4. Karmic Soulmates: Ohhh the lovely karmics… Karmic Soulmates are like fucked up past life soulmates. They’re from your past life but they show up in this life because there’s an unlearned lesson or unsettled business between you two. This karmic imbalance desperately needs to be resolved before you can progress. To be fair, karmics don’t always have to be horrible! They serve a very important purpose though. I’d even go as far as to say that they’re the most necessary. They present challenges and conflicts in order to make you stronger. Your first heartbreaks are usually a result of karmic relationships. They’re kind of like stepping stones to your twin flame or romantic soulmate! Karmics are almost always temporary and can be friends, family, or lovers.

5. Healing Soulmate: Healing soulmates usually emerge after a karmic relationship ends. Or after a defeating period in your life. They can come in the form of a friend, a parent, a teacher, a lover, or even a stranger. They offer you comfort and help set you back on your path. Healing soulmates are usually temporary as they mostly exist in our lives for a specific issues. Some healing soulmates may stick around and assist you with future conflict as well, though! 

6. New Soul: This one is pretty straight forward! Not everyone you meet will be from a past life. A new soul is someone we’ve never had contact with. They usually show upwhen we’ve completed all karmic trials or, for whatever reason, have rejected the romantic soulmate/twin flame partner. This person will spark intrigue, curiosity, and fascination in you. We’ll crave a connection with this person but things usually happen slower with a new soul because of the unfamiliarity. Most karmic relationships start off as a new soul that wasn’t originally in our Soul Contract. Which can be vv exciting! 

7. Romantic/Companion Soulmate:  Your romantic soulmate is often described as ‘The One’! They’re your perfect match in this lifetime and the person that your higher self decided to unite with. Of course, you can always stray from your soul contract but most people don’t! The romantic soulmate will offer you so much joy, happiness, and emotional depth. They’re the person you’re likely to marry and will help to move you along your path with an open heart. When we unite with a companion soulmate, we experience unconditional love and bliss. Every relationship will still have it’s problems but you’ll be able to work through these things in harmony. The romantic soulmate can be a new soul or past life connection!

8. The Twin Flame: Not everyone has a twin flame in this lifetime or a twin flame at all! But your twin flame is the perfect REFLECTION of you. You two are parts of the same consciousness. It’s still possible to be whole without your twin flame but, when you two come together, it creates something incredibly powerful. I made an entire post on twin flames so feel free to search for it on my page! 

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Lately I’ve been making a point to go over and spend some time with my mom. Today I found her trying to be hospitable but clearly somewhat irritated. After some unrelated conversation, she finally told me what was on her mind.

My mom has MS. That’s multiple sclerosis. It’s an autoimmune disease wherein the body’s immune system begins to attack itself - specifically, the myelin sheaths that protect the nerve fibers in the brain. Some people with MS also experience damage to the nerve fibers in their spine. Essentially, the nervous system is the focus of this disease.

There is more than one form of MS. My mom has relapsing-remitting MS. That means she has periods of time where her symptoms are less severe (note: LESS SEVERE, not gone) and other times - flare ups - when her symptoms are debilitating. The symptoms are varied and there are a LOT of them. Not everyone has the same symptoms, it just depends on how much damage has been done, and where.

Mom experiences extreme, debilitating fatigue the likes of which no able-bodied person can comprehend. It strikes without warning and puts her down fast, sometimes for days at a time.

She experiences nerve pain. Phantom itching. Brain fog. Trouble with recall. And these things are in addition to other diagnoses, which are her business and won’t be discussed here, but often interact with her MS in unbearable ways.

But do you know what mom was most upset about today?

The attitudes that people take toward people with invisible illnesses.

See, mom feels like she has to hide her symptoms and try to behave as much like an able-bodied person as possible. She feels like she can’t vocalize it when something is bothering her. Why? Because able-bodied people believe AND SAY very insensitive things about her, and that’s more unbearable to her than her ACTUAL DISEASE.

“Oh, I know, I’m so tired too, I didn’t get any sleep this weekend!”

“Why don’t you just take a nap/drink a coffee?”

“You should try changing your diet, maybe if you didn’t drink so much soda…”

“You don’t look sick/you seem fine!” (I think sometimes people mean this as a compliment. It’s not.)

And worse are the people to whom she has explained what’s going on and why she can’t just overcome it with sheer willpower or some Tylenol or a cup of coffee, and who still say the same insensitive things to her.

Do you know what she said to me today?

“When I tell someone about my disability, I don’t want them to do anything. I don’t want them to feel sorry for me. I don’t want them to try to help me. I just want them to know something.”

She just wants them to understand, so she doesn’t have to waste spoons explaining again and again. Or bottling until she bursts. Or be judged as lazy, or a miserable complainer. She just wants people to be told the facts, and then know them, so that when her disease strikes, they can say to themselves, “I know what’s going on here,” and not say something insensitive that chips away at her.

So you know what I’m asking everyone who reads this to do tonight? Open Google and search “autoimmune diseases.” See about the various types that there are. Click on a few. You can start with MS. Maybe move on to Lupus. There are a bunch. Or just read about what autoimmune diseases are and why they’re classified that way, what they can do on a broad scale.

These are just one type of so-called “invisible illnesses,” and they account for a good number of disabilities experienced by people the world over. I want you to think about the ways that people can hurt that you would never know about if they didn’t tell you. And then think about how society makes them feel like they’re not allowed to talk about how they hurt, lest they be judged as complainers who don’t try hard enough. Think about how they have to deal with that STACKED ON TOP OF the debilitating illnesses they’re already living with.

And then I want you to think long and hard about the meritocracy we live in, and what you can do to be more mindful of the way it disenfranchises disabled folk. Think of ways you can respond to people that don’t delegitimize the symptoms of invisible illnesses, and use those alternatives ALL THE TIME, just in case you’re talking to someone that doesn’t want to let on that it’s their illness that’s causing it.

use tools

Can be taught to speak (like parrots)

Have huge brains for birds

like seriously their brain-to-body size ratio is equal to that of a chimpanzee

They vocalize anger, sadness, or happiness in response to things

they are scary smart at solving puzzles

some crows stay with their mates until one of them dies

they can remember faces

SIDENOTE HERE BECAUSE HOLY SHIT.  They did an experiment where these guys wore masks and some of them fucked with crows.  Pretty soon the crows recognized the masks = douchebag.  But the nice guys with masks they left alone.  THEN, OH WE’RE NOT DONE, NO SIR crows that WEREN’T EVEN IN THE EXPERIMENT AND NEVER SAW THE MASK BEFORE knew about mask-dudes and attacked them on sight.  THEY PASSED ON THE FUCKING INFORMATION TO THEIR CROW BUDDIES.

They remember places where crows were killed by farmers and change their migration patterns.

Every day, I would watch Buck from my window until one day I opened it and started talking to him. He was small and gangly and he couldn’t caw right. His feathers were all over the place and I felt a kinship. So I made a deal with him. I told him that if he could do it, if he could fly, then I could find the strength to get up. Well… near the end of the season, after talking with him every day, I finally saw him get out of the nest. He went to the edge of his branch, braced himself, and jumped… and just before he hit the ground, he soared back up into the sky. I cheered harder than I ever had before.

That winter, Buck left the area. I was crestfallen. I felt like I’d lost a friend. But I was so damn proud of him. 

Cut to the next spring? I’m walking up the driveway one day when suddenly I hear a sound… a broken caw. I look up, and Buck is sitting in a tree above my head. He stared at me and puffed his feathers, then hopped down in front of me and cawed again. I was so damn thrilled, and I told him how proud I was of him. He ruffled his feathers and then soared off into his old tree. 

That summer? I heard two broken caws. One from Buck… and one from his chick.

i tried to get close and take a better look and one of them dived super low and tried to attack me. so i went back in the house and chopped some sliced raw meat and tossed it at him from a distance.

a few more times later, very soon after, they could tell i was trying to help, and did not attack me. i was “allowed” to walk up close and pick him up, he couldn’t drink water properly so i had to dip my finger in a bowl and stick it in his mouth.

i did this few times a day and it went on for about a week before he disappeared, i thought he recovered and left, but he came back the next day and lands on me, and i see him around the block quite often, and he would come sit on my shoulder for a few minutes and then fly away again. i feel like i’ve adopted a son.

Well one year we had a pregnant feral cat move in and as soon as she did the crows moved out.  You could argue it was because cats prey on crows, but remember they outnumbered her at least 20 to1.  They could’ve easily driven her off.  Instead they seemed to vanish.

Fast forward a bit after mama had her kittens and you started to see one or two crows around again.  Every time they watched from the tops of trees, always watching where mama was known to den.  They never attacked though, even when the kittens were out playing.  They just watched.  For a while I thought they were waiting for a chance to attack.

And then I saw one drop food in front of the den.

They were FEEDING the little family.  And watching out for them.  The canadian geese that show up, hang out, and harass folks every year were driven off every time they got too close to the cat family.  It was amazing to watch.  This lasted until the rescuers were able to catch all the cats.  Then they moved right back home like nothing had happened.