Unapologetically Different

I used to be obsessed with books, I'd read anytime, anywhere. Then life got hard and, as a result, my maladaptive daydreaming worsened.

Since 3 years now, I can't even read past the first chapter before I get lost in my own world. I can read technical, non-fiction books, if needed, but not books that need my imagination to be active.

i have been inspired

My answer every time is just gonna be communicate because I genuinely do not know! (/lh)

I’m told that I should long for a lover’s embrace so that I may be made whole, but when I feel sunlight dancing on my skin or laughter vibrating in my chest or air filling my lungs with life, I know that I am already whole. I’m told that there’s no greater joy than the taste of someone else’s lips, but I have smelled the rain and tasted warm food after coming inside from a storm and held an instrument in my arms and fallen into the music I create until it feels inseparable from myself, and I know that I have felt true joy. I’m told that I should fear being alone, but there is a community of people like me, and I know that I will never be truly alone.

That's ME. I really feel like challenging the whole base of society.

I just don't crave human interactions (Nor physical or emotional). I really enjoy having friends though and appreciate my family, but i really like them best *from afar*, and most of the time, I really don't mind not seeing them for a while. I just need to know that they are okay.

As for partners, I just don't need any. I can't stand people in my personal space (and this space has really wild dimensions)

So, to my dear friends, let's respect each other, let's be happy for each other when we achieve great things, let's be mad at people who hurt any of us, let's joke often, let's share our interests, let's have deep conversations about specific topics, let me give you some logical advice when you need it, let's understand each other, let's try to be a reliable friend to each other (We don't always need to meet each other face to face to do this, right?). Most of all, let's respect each other boundaries.....

BUT, let's also forget about physical and deep emotional connection, let's forget about using specific words, like "love", to describe our interactions. Let's not start getting lovey-dovey-bestie for God's sake. Let's not talk about feelings towards each other, because i don't feel anything of this kind and I really can't deal with other people's emotional needs.

I am happy to know that you'll be here if I ever need you, and i'll be there for you whenever you need me. That alone is enough from my opinion!!! Yesss, we are friends, but let's not get too emotional about it. Let's just let it flow naturally for our own sake.

The way I enjoy romantic love stories in fiction and deep, nostalgic love songs is insane. 😫 Yes I'm aromantic. I don't find any logic in it and I have absolutely no interest in getting involved in romance myself. Not today. Not ever. And i can't even appreciate it when people around me are involved in it. But it's still enjoyable in fiction.

It could never be me. BUUUT it's entertaining to just watch. The unrealistic scenarios. The stupid and unbelievable liessss. I enjoy them all.

Oh the songs (mostly the sad love songs)...... They'll make you wanna cry for no reason at all. Oh the melodyyyyy.......! 😭 Breakup songs are the best !!!!!