Ms'Monroe |⚥🏳️‍🌈✊🏾∞|

Who knew finding yourself again would be so interesting .

Potential 🎶 - Summer Walker

Everything in my mind is driving me crazy and I’m working so hard to be okay. I can’t do this anymore.

It’s hurts to bad, yet I have to pull it together. I need to believe in me more than ever !

She’s baccckkkk !!

To my fellow tumble people, I’m sharing this news in better spirits than I was yesterday. I have been assessed and diagnosed on the spectrum of Autism 😳😌. It’s been one hell of a journey, one I did not even see myself going through. I waited a year, it was a 3 part assessment, my anxiety kept creeping up I shook my thoughts and told myself “Just be yourself, no matter what the results are, show them who Shanise is 🙈!”On this platform using tumbler it helped me be brave to show myself. Not only did it help me be myself, I was able to relate to so many people, explore comfortably owning my truth which allowed me to not hide who I am on other social media platforms and share my experiences 🙌🏾✨. It’s crazy how one diagnosis for adhd can open up so many gaps that are now being filled with my spectrum diagnosis as well. At the age of 31, I never thought 2 years ago I would of found any of this out. It all fits together and as I continue my growth of healing and learning feeling more sure of myself than I did growing up. Only down side is when others I share this with say “You don’t look Autistic 😑!” Um, what is something that you feel eternally and mentally suppose to look like ? I’ll wait. The stereotype needs to end yet that’s been my life since I was born into this world as a female black child and that alone has a list that hurts. So who am I now ?

A strong Bisexual Neurodivergent Woman of Colour 👊🏾🧡♾️✨!!

so on my little journey away it’s been surely something. There’s been little delays and now it’s time to try the one thing I have never done in 31 years. ADHD meds 😳!

Am I worried?? Um kinda. I tried two others for like a week in the beginning of 2022 and just stopped completely. One of them had me very very very emotional. Like I would cry everyday 🥺😫.

I really wanna try to work on my time blindness. There’s a lot of shame there ☹️. And it’s not shame that I ever felt personally, just the shame coming from others who don’t understand. So here we go 😮‍💨💕.

Living in this world, rules are meant to keep order from chaos which yea, I get it. Just this one for attendance and the negative reaction to those who really struggle to follow this rule DOES NOT MEAN :

We are lazy

We don’t care

Aren’t mindful

Do this on purpose

Have no regard for others that it may effect

And aren’t trying to be on time

Using our neurological differences as an excuse

I’m just saying, I’m tired of it 🙄. As someone who has navigated life without treatment I can proudly say I’ve been able to achieve a good attendance when I’m calm, confident and at peace. Just the moments when I’m not and the anxiety acts up is a real ughhhh. Medication is a choice and I’m not saying anyone has to take it. This is something I’d like to try and see it can improve things I’ve been trying to do myself as best as I can 💗✨.