#being open

“The true colour of life is the colour of the body, the colour of the covered red, the implicit and not explicit red of the living heart and the pulses. It is the modest colour of the unpublished blood.” — Alice Meynell

Last week I found myself at Critical NW surrounded by so many incredible people and the amazing pieces of artwork they brought to life.

The experience was absolutely life changing, and it allowed me to be open in ways not usually felt.

One of the highlights was exploring the thought inducing exhibits that filled the place, including this piece, which was one of my favorites.

I spent a lot of time running with glee through the thousands of streamers the crew had mounted.

It was a sensory nirvana, and so exhilerating as you never knew what you might find concealed in the tangible rainbow.

In a moment of inspiration, and with the help of Ash Steele, we snagged a quick photo before running off to more adventuring.

I'm so pleased with how it turned out. It captures the confidence I was feeling in the moment, and I hope to create more works like this in the future, should fate and my own steel allow.

Due to the risk of being suspended for nudity on certain platforms, you can find the uncensored version on my Patreon.

I have stumbled across your blog once or twice and I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. Help is out there, you are loved, and you deserve so so so much better.

I know it’s not much, but I’m wishing you the best.

stay safe,

anon

thank you so much.

i'm doing my best, on a few promises. trying my best to move forward and keep going. thank you for this comment, it really does means a lot.

i've always been the funny haha person in my circle, but with life crumblimg i decided to be more open with my depression and issues for the first time ever. i wouldn't make it this far if i didn't this time. this blog is part of that, i guess, aha. i'm trying to make new friends and work on recovering. i know i'll never get a sorry, but i have to live with other's pride. i'm trying to trust still but it's so much harder now.

Self-Conscious Communication

So, an issue I have is wanting to talk / interact / bond with the gods but not really having a means to. Like sure I want to figure things out or just practice and that’s already showing honest interest, but without intention or really direction, I lose meaning in my cards far more easily.