#autistic thoughts

I do kind of approach everything with the feeling that I've interpreted everything right and it has kind of ruined my life. Like most autistic people, that I've seen, approach everything like there is a huge chance they've misunderstood something so there is lots of clarification and questions and that annoys people too and it causes a lot of anxiety, from what I've seen. But for me, for so long I have just assumed I understood and went with it, and found out much later that I was incredibly wrong. And that has caused a lot of anxiety in that I now do feel as though I'm probably misunderstanding, but I dont know where or how or what clarification to make or questions to ask. So I'm just kind of stuck a lot of the time. And I'm not saying I'm the only autistic person to experience life this way. But I am saying it seems the majority of people do not and it is kind of alienating on both sides. Not to mention the feeling of being so confident on something and realizing you were so wrong and feeling stupid for that too. Idk. I just think everything about me is a perfect mix to misunderstand everything and I feel like i just learned how to mask and wow people do like me a lot more. Which is kind of excruciating in it's own way.