Luna :D

Ze as a character drives me fucking INSANE. He’s a young adult who seemingly spends most of his time playing Minecraft. He has an absent family from the little we know about him outside the game, and his dad was very clearly verbally abusive in some way with how he catches himself almost sounding like him when talking to Moe in the Eyes’ domain and is distressed by it.

He was sent to boot camp probably in his teens to “toughen him up” and it scarred him mentally and probably physically too. He’s insecure about being “man enough” and compensates with his aggressive attitude and obsession with weapons and guns.

He masks how much he cares about the people around him but would do ANYTHING for them, even if it meant throwing himself into danger or reliving his own trauma. He doesn’t give a shit about his own life or safety, verbally saying to Regect that he has nothing to lose. He clearly does with how much he’s risking for the very slim chance of Micha being alive, but he cares so little about himself that he sees his own life as disposable when it could be used to even possibly help someone else.

Ze’s passive suicidal ideation is something that we’ve seen so much of throughout the series and it is PAINFUL to see as someone who struggles with it too. From one of the earlier episodes when he’s lamenting that this world is hell and he wants it to end, to the Rift Remover guy telling him to take his own life if the rift remover doesn’t work and Ze not reacting strongly at all to it other than a “that’s morbid.” It’s a thought that crosses his mind often and is one that he isn’t really disturbed by.

It all culminated in the newest episode with Ze’s confrontation with Regect. He knows the risks and the dangers, he barely made it out of the Hole the first time. Regect tells him directly that it’s a suicide mission, that the place he’s going to is just death. But Ze doesn’t care. His own life is a worthy sacrifice in his eyes, and whether he realizes or not that doing this is going to hurt Regect and Moe, he still does it because he puts others over himself so much and has so little self worth.

Honestly the themes of suicide are really heavy throughout the series not just with Ze, but with the Eyes/Daemon in general. Remember in the Valentines episode when it influenced Micha to jump (only in Minecraft, thankfully)? Or when it almost convinced Moe to do it too a few episodes later? Theres something going on there and I have a feeling that it’s influenced Ze as well to make his existing ideation worse. Thats veering more into theory territory though so I’m leaving it there for now.