Obsession

i think at the core of her character is how her strong sense of (what she believes is) justice clashes with the coi's methods. it's not clear if she truly thinks the punishment fits the crime, but she is very much the one feeding convicts to the blood ocean and it's been eating at her for a while now

HOWEVER. ava is particularly vitriolic about filament station. she goes out of her way to bring it up twice, in conversations that have nothing to do with it, and her tone is. oh man. she also outright says that simon doesn't deserve to live for what he did and seems to really believe it, judging by how she refuses to replenish his oxygen reserves before sending him back

which is to say, filament station may have been personal for ava

she's constantly lying to simon (outright or by omission) about his survival and freedom, but doesn't put any effort into making it believable, and i don't think it's because she doesn't care if he survives or not. it feels more like she's been told to lie to convicts for the sake of the mission and she just can't pretend anymore

if the subs are numbered sequentially and all used on the same moon, at least four other convicts died on ava's watch, and she had to tell all of them that yes, they're the first one down, they'll be free when they return, they'll no longer be pariahs

tl;dr she has to lie all the time and she's bad at it

she only talks to simon through some kind of barrier, like the comms system or the porthole window so he (and by extension the audience) never hears her voice unaltered, which is a very neat cinematic detail re: the lying and miscommunication

cares about her crew but isn't necessarily kind to them

holds onto 'it's bigger than me' even though it's coi propaganda because it makes sense to her

her last name might be ellis, but it's just speculation based on this possibly being the list of personnel on ava's ship

I get a lot of versions of this question, and I answer it seriously every time, because it’s both important and not important at all. Anyone who asks respectfully gets my whole ass answer.

It’s just not really about that. My job isn’t about defending the idea of hurting someone else. It’s about stopping the state from inflicting further hurt, torture, pain. It’s about pushing back for some fairness against a monumentally stacked system. And it’s about stuff that’s normal human stuff that counts as crime for some reason.

Yeah, it’s hard to do a sex abuse case. Sometimes the images stick around and it bothers me. But honestly? Mostly those cases have real plausible theories of innocence or they’re cases that I will lose because the evidence is there, and the question is not whether the perpetrator will go to jail but how long.

Those cases are so rare, though. I get so much pointless bullshit. Felony of a teen taking mom’s car without permission. Two kids that try to break into a car and get so scared by the alarm that they run away. Trespassing on dad’s house because his new girlfriend wants you to stop coming around. It’s just human stuff, and the violence of the state is not necessary or helpful.

I also reject the idea of punishment completely. The state has a responsibility to stop people from hurting other people again. But inflicting pain doesn’t do it, we know this by now. So I argue for mercy and for real solutions to real problems. I’m here to build a future, not get caught up with doing violence to someone because of the past.

So yeah, sometimes it’s hard, but mostly my conscience is dead clear: I’m not responsible for the crime. The damage has been done. I want to start the healing process, and I want it for everyone involved. When that’s not possible, I just want to tell the authorities they don’t get to just Do What They Want.

The more I do this job, the more I am a genuine pacifist who is against violence in all forms, and actually I don’t see a contradiction between that and what I do for a living. State violence is a pervasive evil that tears apart families, communities, and countries, and it’s far more damaging and awful than any individual crime. The average prosecutor has more blood on their hands than a serial killer, but it’s invisible: people who died in jail, who froze to death on the street, who were shot in a drug deal. Their violence begets violence.

When I get blood on my hands, it’s because I put my hands over the wounds and try to stop the flow. I’m okay with it.

An outlier is an observation that is far removed from the rest of the observations. - G.S. Maddala

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lives in sewer

kidnaps children actually he was cleared of this one