Hanging on by a thread, idk. My health (mental and physical) is really horrid, I’ve got the worst PMS, I take so many meds that this weather is agony and one of the most important people in my life is getting buried on Friday (the warmest day of the week). Too chronically ill to work for the unforeseeable future as well and I’m making approximately 30$-100$ a month with my art atm as my only income. (If I’m lucky.) I think things are pretty dire right now, but what do I know, folks. At least I’m not homeless, so could be worse.

Today I said something pretty negative about German LARP culture elitism and felt bad about it immediately after (trying not to be so judgmental) and not even two hours later said elite started the most privileged discourse again. (I’m too old for this, I’m tired. We’re all human and if we can help each other out, that’s so important, but I mean that with love and affection: check your privilege sometimes. Being considerate is a two way street and you’re not the sun in the heliocentric model.)

I guess I’m 30 now 🙆🏻‍♀️

I miss my best friend. Whenever I see something I want to show to her, I’m reminded that I can’t. Whenever I want to share my art creations with her, I’m reminded that I can’t. I’m lying awake at night and usually we would chat right now and gush about our special interests or things that weigh us down, but that’s not an option anymore. I can’t even ask how she is doing and will never be able to do so again. I miss my best friend.

URL change, I'm going back to my roots again: nevroness -> lord-woolsley